DARK DREAMS.(TORN).

Once upon a time. No no. This is not one of those stories with an happy ending, this is no fairytale. this.. this...is Once upon my time. Like Every other girls, they have fairy tale and hopes of getting married with the most handsome bachelor in town. Or.. be a princess and waiting for prince charming.. but... I only have a dream.... My name is Precious Nuel. but friends and family calls me preccy. cool right?. but it wasn't always that cool. I didn't have the normal life everyone could have. I mean look at me, I'm pathetic. I have parents,a loving mother and a caring father. I also have six annoying siblings, unfortunately I came fifth. We didn't have much but..we could afford Three square meals a day. we live in Africa, but I wouldn't love to expose the actual location though. My parents gave us all they could afford and I really appreciated it all... But as a child, going to school and walking the streets, seeing elites and noble people especially kids. it gave me the sense of thinking more higher. My parents didn't have much, but then again it wasn't their fault, and now I've vowed to bring us all out from that situation. I'm not specialized in any way but I do have some talents that most people considered as lame. I love writing the most and anything that deals with art or creativity. When I was in fourth grade, I started writing, not for any reason in particular though but.. I just love writing, it makes me happy. And some day I hope I could build something out of it. And also again, the most unique thing about me,is that I'm too tall for my age. I was like 6'4 feet tall. I mean,it wasn't something to be ashamed of right? cuz my parents are tall so it's probably not my fault to be that tall. Anyways, that was my own torn in the flesh. anywhere I go to, I usually get mocked. sometimes I would even be afraid to get to school because of that. I didn't confide in my parents cuz they'll only advise me, I'm also tired of their advice cuz it still didn't take the tallness away. Somehow,it obstructed me from my dream though. I started lacking self confidence and low self esteem. I started seeing myself as other people see me. Nothing. I saw myself as nothing. I have always been a bright student before I started growing. I frequently used to participate in quizzes and competitions, my parents were proud of me then and I loved it. But ever since I entered high school, all those zeal burned into ashes. I started staying at the very back of the class, I didn't want to get noticed. Even during lunch time, I always get to eat in my seat. I never have to stand up, cuz if I do, the next thing is. "Why is she so tall? what a freak? she's like a tree and a pole added together.." I was so ashamed of myself. Everytime I tried taking those bold steps, I see the world crashing down to me. And did I mention that I had a huge crush on this guy in my class. he's name's Chris. Although he's not the most handsome guy in class, but he's the most handsome guy in my heart. The most enticing thing about him is that he's always quiet, he doesn't talk much and he is also super smart when it comes to math. He's not boastful or anything of that such. he's also tall, but I'm taller than him though. The good thing was that he had never talked to me though. he doesn't even know that I existed. well.. we'll get by. And there's this one girl in class, she was among the smartest and she's also the brightest in class. 'STEPHANIE'. Steph has always been so perfect or so I thought. she's flawless. She's beautiful, average height, smart, teacher's favorite, and she also wears glasses like me. OH, did I mention that I was also cursed with poor eye sight, Yh I totally forgot to mention it. I also were glasses. I always see Steph as perfect, she's got the look, the brain and also the figure too. I was kinda jealous of her cuz she always finds a way to get close to my Man, although he doesn't know I existed. And then again, there's another character in the class. STACY. well, unlike everyone, she was the one that always comes close to me. although she's the most smartest in class, but she didn't see herself that way. She always thinks she's not pretty enough, cuz people say that to her, that's her own torn in the flesh. She became my new best friend. making her my best friend was the first bold step I took to becoming great. she's the first person I stayed with, without even realizing my flaws. Even when she makes a reference to my height, she makes it feel like a compliment. I loved her. And that was when I found out that she has a crush on my crush's best friend. The most funniest in class. he's name's... Tyler. He's a very funny guy though. but he didn't see the precious jewel dying for him. I started getting back on my feet gradually, with Stacy helping me. I started answering questions in class, regardless of the eyes that were amazed with my height. soon.. I got to the top again in class... well that was were my life begin. During Free periods or lunchtime, I usually use to write my novels, not for any reason in particular, but it just makes me feel that although I could not use my pen to change my fate or my life, at least I could create a whole chapters of someone else's life. it's just like creating an adventure and being in it. anytime I start writing, I forget all my worries and grieves, hoping that someday, I'll have the chance to create and write my own life. although, Stacy didn't know that I write, I didn't want her to see it, I'm not that confident enough to showcase my work. I love it this way. I could feel it.. this is just the beginning of something great.