Chapter 1: The Poison
The poison didn't burn at first.
It felt warm. Almost pleasant. Like drinking honeyed wine on a winter night.
Then my stomach twisted, and I understood.
I was on my knees in the east wing solar, the one with the stained glass windows my mother loved. The one where I used to read poetry as a girl, before Father remarried and the house turned cold. Blood dripped from my nose onto the marble floor. My hands shook as I pressed them against my belly, as if I could hold my child inside through sheer will.
"Please," I whispered. Not to Evelyne. Not anymore. I was begging the empty air, the gods, anyone who might listen. "Not the baby. Please. I'll do anything. Just not my baby."
Evelyne laughed.
She was standing over me in her ivory dinner gown, the one she wore to celebrate my death. Her golden hair caught the candlelight. She looked like an angel. She always looked like an angel.
"You really thought he'd choose you?" she asked softly. "That a king would want a used, pregnant wife when he could have me? Fresh. Beautiful. Not carrying the bastard child of a man who never loved you properly?"
I tried to speak. Blood filled my mouth instead.
"Lucien was mine from the start, Seraphina. You were just the bridge I needed to cross." She crouched down, her skirts pooling around her like spilled cream. Her fingers brushed my cheek. Gentle. Sisterly. The same fingers that had mixed belladonna into my tea every morning for three weeks. "Don't worry. I'll raise your child as mine. I'll tell everyone the poor dear died in childbirth. So tragic. So noble."
I lunged for her throat.
My fingers brushed silk before my arms gave out. I hit the floor hard. My cheek pressed against cold stone. The room blurred at the edges, colors bleeding together like wet paint.
"I'm sorry," I breathed. Not to her. Never to her. To the life inside me, the heartbeat I'd felt only once, fluttering like a trapped bird. "I'm so sorry, little one. Mama couldn't protect you."
Darkness swallowed me whole.
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I woke up screaming.
My hands flew to my stomach, clawing at fabric, expecting blood, expecting emptiness, expecting the hollow where my child had been. Instead, I found silk. Unbroken skin. A waist still narrow, still flat.
I was sitting at my writing desk.
Afternoon light poured through the window, warm and golden and wrong. My mother's stained glass was three floors up and two years destroyed. This was my bedroom. The small one in the west wing, the one they gave me after Father died and Evelyne's mother took the master suite.
I knew this room. I knew the c***k in the ceiling plaster shaped like a fish. I knew the way the floorboards creaked near the wardrobe.
I also knew I hadn't seen it in two years.
My hands shook as I reached for the calendar on my desk. My fingers smudged the ink as I turned the page. The date stared back at me, impossible and cruel:
March 14th.
Two days before the royal selection ceremony.
Two days before Crown Prince Lucien Noctari would walk into our ballroom and change my life forever. Before, I would fall in love with his smile, his promises, the way he looked at me like I was the only woman in the world. Before I would marry him, conceive his child, and die in this house while my sister stole everything.
I stood up so fast my chair tipped backward. It hit the rug with a dull thud.
The mirror above my washstand showed a stranger. My face, yes. My red hair, still thick and ungrayed. My green eyes, still clear, not yet hollowed by grief and imprisonment. But the woman staring back was twenty-one, not twenty-three. She hadn't been poisoned. She hadn't felt her baby die inside her while her sister held her down and smiled.
I pressed both palms against the glass. The woman in the mirror pressed back.
"You're dead," I told her. "We died. I remember dying."
She didn't answer. Of course, she didn't.
I walked to the window on unsteady legs. Below, the garden was blooming with early spring flowers. The carriage house stood intact. In the distance, I could see the spires of the Noctari Royal Palace piercing the horizon, black stone against a pale sky.
Everything was exactly as it had been.
I had two days.
Two days to change everything.