Infinitely Infinite

Chapter-11

'Did you overlook anything?! Don't forget and leave anything here!!' Maya entered the room shouting when i came out of the privy! And Tarun wasn't there.

'Yes, Maya! Just finished haversacking everything. ' I said in a tired tone.

' Atleast, tell me now Maya! Where have you planned to send us for this so called Honeymoon. Please tell me! ' i begged to Maya.

' Come on, baby doll! You're not interested in going, but excited to know the place eh?! What's the matter! ' she winked and nudged my arms.

' If you think, that there's something in this, unfortunately no! I just wanted to know the name of the place! ' so did I say, but i actually liked when i apprehended the very thought of spending some time alone with Tarun. Either it may be a fight or a baffle, the time i spend with will never go worthless.

' Okay! Wait for another.. Uhmm.. Six hours. You will automatically get to know your destination, when you board the Boeing! ' she chuckled.

' I don't know, how it is going to be Maya! Factually, should we do this?! You know very well, how things are going between me and your baby! ' i said and surveyed her reaction.

She laughed earnestly, in a whole hearted manner, exposing her little chopper teeth and then answered me. ' Of course, Heera! He is like my infant. Even i am not sure of when you both will sense your love for eachother and feel it! But i can assure you that, i can even swear that it will happen!' she said.

Yes, Maya! It's happening! You don't have to swear. Genuinely, profoundly, truthfully it's happening. But my sick head is really a sick head, and i can't accept my feelings for him. It's because if i agree, I'd start adoring him more and more! And then the real struggle will be when I'd develop feelings for him wholely and soul-ly whilst he'd be filled with hatred on me.

When i was deeply dunked in these thoughts, i totally came back to conscience only Maya shook my shoulders harder!

'What?! ' she asked, laughing, once again.

' Nothing! ' i smiled and oscillated my head.

She smiled back.

' I can feel something divine in your smile Maya! You're something to me, and close to my heart! ' i told and leaned forward to hug her. I seriously had a befuddlement inside me; if i should express what i seriously felt of Tarun to Maya! But then if things go out of control, and what if he figures out this! The very thought of Tarun knowing about this suppressed the anxiety of revealing things to Maya!

We both then had some best and good friends moment together. We then decided to get back to the living room, so I changed into my denim three fourth trousers, a black baggy t shirt and sneakers, in which I'd be comfortable on a long journey! I carried the haversack downstairs while Maya accompanied me! But then I noticed that Tarun also had changed to his clean white folksy shirt and faded jeans, he wore his rolex watch on one hand and he appeared super hot. I also did not forget to wear the FastTrack black and pink watch that Shriya gifted me on my last birthday. Only after contemplating the watch, i realized that i hadn't informed Shriya yet, about this trip. I soon rushed to the portico that led to the end of the house carrying my mobile.

She picked the call immediately.

'Hey!! ' i exclaimed after apprehending that she received my call.

' Sharddha! Tell me!! ' she out cried.

' I am forced into the next thing now, Shriya! ' i said in a tired tone.

' Wait wait wait! Don't say me that you're going on a honeymoon. ' she chuckled and laughed cheekily!

' Even i don't want this to happen but you know very well that i have to do this! 'i said in a sad tone.

' Are you okay?! ' she asked in a serious tone.

' obviously i am not!! ' i said and there was a silence between us; i sensed that she is waiting for me to continue.

' My mind is seriously undergoing a great, gigantic havoc!! I am betwixted between the soul attachment and the aversion. I need an adequate time to hold on to a thing because i feel I'm losing myself and it's weakening me from within. I've lost all my strength to this man and...! ' i said, heavily breathing.

'Doc! Let your air out first!! Go, get a life! Stop emphasising on your ego and start living your life. Enough of doing things for others. Do what your heart says! I know this will be the real war between you both but yeah, take your time and decide. For now, go enjoy the trip!' she said joyously.

I remained silent, but the she got me right. How will i enjoy the trip when i am lying amidst a real confusion that'd cost my life.

'I am sorry Shrink! I know i shouldn't say this. But still, don't worry! Stay happy and cherish the trip. Okay?! ' she said again.

' Thanks Shriya. I am okay now after talking to you, i am afraid to discuss about this to Maya, because, you know that might end up in something else! Okay, i am running late now. Will text you once i reach the enigmatical destination! ' i said with a joy.

' I know you're feeling better. Your voice sounds better. Yeah, bye! Take care!! ' she said and we hung up. I stormed back to the living room. Soon, we started to the International airport, but even then Maya didn't care to fissure the secret destination to us.

We sneaked into the car, loaded with luggage and baggage. As usual, both Akshay and Tarun occupied the front and we entered the passengers' seat.

We didn't talk much until we reached airport. Soon, we were got down from the car and after a good bye hug from Maya, I and Tarun with our respective haversacks entered the airport and waited at the check in counter.

While we were standing next to each other he turned to my side and began, 'For your unkind information, can you stand a little away or in the next row? So we don't have to bear the boarding pass of adjacent seats! I'd like to be happy atleast during the journey!!' he said gritting his teeth. All my blood, flushed to the brain and blood pressure hiked.

'Mr. Tarun, i was about to say this! Thanks for initiating it for me. ' i said and gazed at him and then I stomped  into the next counter. But then i noticed the board, it all said that the flight goes to Fiji. Wow! Whattey place, Fiji is!!! And is this my fate to go visit Fiji with this angry bird. I don't know seriously what's going to happen next!

Eventually our check in got over, i jumped to grab his boarding pass to see his seating arrangements! I was literally on cloud nine because we had got the adjacent seats but yeah, everyone knows that a partial me is still too sad for this. I made up a sad reaction on my face after analyzing the seats on our passes to show my regret of sitting beside him during the journey! He soon grabbed the passes.

's**t! ' he shouted seeing it and shoved my pass into my hands!!

' Bull s**t! ' i shouted gathering all my anger!

' Not even in this journey of few hours, you will let me be happy!! ' he said and stomped away!

' May I first know, how did i spoilt your happiness?! ' i gritted my teeth.

' You're like a... Ahh!! i run out of words to describe you! I love hating you!! ' he said.

' Fine, thanks! ' i said.

Soon, we boarded our flight and of course we were seated beside each other. The flight was ready to take off. When the airhostess offered beverages to drink,' please don't consume alcohol because i can't control you and drag you over there, please! ' i begged.

' Even if i don't drink, you can't control me! ' he said giving away his attitude smile.

' How?! I don't solemnly know how can you answer much sarcastically, literally! Every single time when i ask you something! ' i exclaimed.

' Yes, my body is fully loaded with sarcasm and it flushes it rather than blood and muscles!! ' he said again sarcastically!! How I'd love to feud and hassle with him and I deliberately longed to build this convo!

' See, see. Even now, how you reply! ' i said being crafty!

' I know and that's what i am, sarcastic!' he answered in a canny manner!

With that, i didn't answer him anything but just gave him a disputed and disgusting gaze with which he turned away to the window of the Boeing!

I am falling for him but i don't have an idea of what he thinks about me, seriously! But yeah, he just now clarified that he loves to hate me. I too hate loving him, Ok! Correction! It can be like i hate liking him. I hate the partial me, that likes him.

I loved it though! Sigh! And now, you can clearly sense how much befuddled I am. Let things happen and let me make life more shitty!!