Infinitely Infinite

Chapter-17

I gulped off the, glass of lemon juice kinda mixture of few stuff and i glared at Maya, like how a kid would peek at her mom with a super splendid look  after drinking a full glass of milk. Maya, popped near by and patted my back and complemented me , "Atagirl!"  and then gave her signature, heavenly smile. I smiled back!

"Oh, Maya! This migraine is distressing me! "  i said, resting my hands on my head.  The headcahe was breaking my head into pieces, as if the broken fragments couldn't be rejoined.

"But Heera!"  she said and chuckled, with one of her hands on her, bulgy stomach. I looked at her, by which she got my question.

"The headache isn't a migraine! It is because of the, the alcohol you gasped off, last night! " she said and the next second, i freaked out. What? Me? Alcohol?? Never!!

" Are you kidding? " i asked, by putting on a serious face mask, in a life threatening tone.

'Why do you gross out? Cool! You drank  last night and please don't blubber now, because you can't go back and change, anything! ' she said, laughingly.

" Okay, just tell me! Did i blabber anything to him? Did he say anything?? Tell me soon, Maya! Tell me, tell me.  Tell me soon!! " this time, being helpless, i snapped at her.

" Loosen up! He just said that, you slept off soon, after drinking! Not seems like something serious, would've happened! Now boot the thought, Come let's go down for brunch! '  she said. Her very few words, consoled me much but yet, i was not quenched by her response.

Within spitting the next word she dragged me out of the room and we went down to have food. The whole day, i was unable to do anything not because of the a***e,but this Tarun didn't nurture to ask me, what happened or for what i was crying. So, that's what the importance he gives me, in his life. Should i move away from his life?! Not just because that, he doesn't care about me or my life but i can't really stop thinking about him and promote feelings for him.

He hates me like anything. He has nil feelings for me, and he don't even care about what i do or where i go! Should i still be in his life and become delightened for each and every act of him and later on, pick a corner of this room to weep my life out. So, this will be the repeating process in my life, hereafter. . I solemnly realized how much it would hurt, when something that you except, doesn't have it's life.

And my parents, while getting me ready for my wedding were passionately supporting Tarun that i won't get a better guy than him. Of course, i didn't know in what way, i found him as my man, even with his hate  he got me to think about him. For not making situation, anymore worser i decided to drift away from him and his life. Thinking that, getting afar would help me to suppress my feelings. So, that we can be living, without disturbing eachother's feeling technically!

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That morning , after leaving my dwelling, i drove my car to one important place that i was supposed to visit that day, before entering my office cabin. And obviously, i am blame worthy for letting her alone at home, in the current whereabouts. But i was double sure that  Maya would take care of her than me. The day seemed to swirl soon, when it was almost dusk, I and Akshay were asked to, visit the headquarters of Greg's international private limited , to sign in an agreement.

I immediately called Akshay and informed the thing, and added that we are supposed to go as soon as possible. I then checked, if we had tickets for that night, to Germany! Fortunately, we had few tickets left unsold. Hastily,  i asked my personal assistant to call the airlines office to ensure the thing that i saw on the website, and asked him to book tickets for us.

Once again, i had to call Akshay who was busy, talking with the other partners, about this consignment, "Akshay, we're flying tonight! Get ready!!"   I said and poking his arms.

"Eh? I haven't thought that this would end in such an ease! Kudos to us!!" he said patting his back as an act of self appreciation.

"Okay, now. Let's get back to home and pack our stuff and get ready! And this is going to be for one week!! Remember? "  i said in a  joyous tone.

"Yeah, i get it! You inform people and come down, i will go,  wait! "  he said and rushed out of the cabin. I then finished, furthermore works that was left out and soon, strode towards the car.

When i reached home, and entered the room Heera was on the couch with a book in her hands. I bursted in and rushed to pack my things.

She then gawked at me for a while and then started, 'Tarun!'  furrowing her eyebrows.

I gave her a what's your problem now kinda look and she neared me and asked looking straight into my eyes, holding a puppy eyes reaction, tousling her lips that had a great impact on me. "Tarun, did I drink last night?"  I started to walk around the room, to collect things and dresses to stuff into my bag and she did not seem to stop this.

"Yes! " i answered plainly.

" You should've controlled me. Right? When i drink that much! " she said and looked at me to espy my way of laughing hard  by hearing her.

"What? I.. Stop..  You?? Damn! You don't know how you were, last night and stop complaining on me!"  i ended in a serious tone.

'I guess, i have to fix a closed circuit television camera inside the room to make you realize what you do, at times! ' i said facing her, directly.

She twisted her lips and her face curved down. I know she was too much disturbed and ragged and I shouldn't be doing this. Why are you doing this Tarun? She was crying like a child last night and you cared not to ask anything and now you're irritating her. She is....  She is something close to your heart and why do you do so? You want her see her like this or what? When you, yourself can't see her in misery and grief, why do you do this to her?! Damn..  Stop this Tarun!!

"Listen, i don't have enough time to argue with you now. Can't you see? I am bundling things, in a rustle! " i asked her, seeing away from her eyes!

'Yeah, exactly.. Bundling! ' she said and chuckled. It was actually quite relieving to see her laughing, i didn't express it though.

' Stop making fun of me, you duckling! ' I shouted in not so serious tone being not able to find my passport!

' Duckling?! . Uhmm..  Me? 'she said back and threw the pillow hastily on the couch and moved to the other side. I just wanted to lighten her mood by distracting her. I didn't know anyother ways to divert her from her soul worry.

I continuously started to  search for my passport for that day's trip. I pulled out the drawers, opened up the cup boards and eveything. I ended up in falling on the recliner being too lazy to search for it furtherly.

'Someone is searching for their passport itseems! Uhmm, go search you haversack  that you carried to Fiji! ' she gave me a clue  sarcastically itseems. I then rushed to the cupboard to grab my bag and then the passport.

Atlast  i discovered my passport and a sign of relief started to spread, on my face.

I glared at her gratefully and went beside her to thank her.

'That's okay mister you don't have to thank me! ' she said beaming labelled with an attitude.

Seriously, girl. Remember with whom you're playing .. IT'S TARUN!  I felt two horns, above my head and i decided to play along.

' Did i tell you that, i came to you to thank you? Stop imagining things, not even in your dreams it will happen!! ' i said and i was proud about myself that i decided to taunt her.

She then looked at me twisting her lips and i was unable to control my laughter, in front of her  i rushed into the privy to take  a shower.

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I was sitting awestruck, thinking about what happened just before few minutes. I was deeply hurt, by his behaviour of not asking anything about my tears, but when he came into the room and started searching for his passport, i couldn't prevent myself or couldn't  retain my mouth zipped.  I gave up! Gave up all my anger and opened my b****y mouth to remind him the place where he misplaced his passport. But why! Why are you doing this Heera!? Your heart was filled with misery and was so stony but when he came into the room, how did you forget  everything immediately and move on with him like nothing happened? Like, how can you be so feeble and fragile.

Do i love him? Yes, you're in love with him, you dull girl. But yeah, he doesn't feel for you.  You're just a broken girl, whom he was forced to get married. Just like that! With no vital role, in making him happy or being happy with him.

I should definitely decide something, earnestly before he returns back home from this trip. If i can stay, more stronger and face these state of affairs, wisely..  But where did the wisedom come here. Is it a matter of business or commerce. Damn, life. My life!

Soon, he came back from the restroom is his blue jeans  and a collared tee. That was actually,  a sight of death when he appeared in front of me like that..  Soon, i regained my consciousness warning myself that i was angry on him. Time whirled hastily. Sun signed off and it became dark soon. I cared not to ask where he was going. Of course, i promised myself not to ask about the trip because he didn't ask about me. Kinda weird and childish! Right? Let it be! When i was thinking, if i should ask something about him and where he was drifting, he took his bag and scrolled downstairs. And  again, i put up a frowning face, with hands resting my chin on the couch. By that time, i was forced to take one important decision in my life.