YOU CAN DO IT.

There’s a girl named after her parents, well we all know that she hated it. her name is mavelyn, ugh such a weird name right? the that girl is me i always incourage people to not care about what people tell them but secretly she’s sad and frustrated in her life. she wanted to give up but she can’t.she lives on her own now. her parents are already left her and they left me without anything so i have to live on my own. one day i met a boy that i think changed my life he’s jacob the nicest boy ive met and my inspiration i keep on my mind that i have to continue living for him. for our future. he asked me out for dinner today, we ate at our favorite restaurant and had a great day together not until we have to go in different ways again. but before that we fought. i grab an uber and i dont know about him. i texted him that night no response, i called him no responses, i just think in a possible way maybe he’s already sleeping because it such a long day for us and he still have a big meeting for tomorrow, he may not have a decent job but that all what he can do. morning but still no response it the time that i have guts and really worried about him. i received a call from her mom just now. “huh? why’d she called? ” *picked up the phone* “yeah mom?” i said while my voice are trembling “jacobs gone.” the whole room just shut when i hear that , i cannot believe it, its like fantasy no i don’t to believe at her i lost my everything. i have no reason to live now. i have nothing. *days past by* i still have no energy about everything. all i did is sleep and look at his photos, i really miss him but theres nothing i can do to bring him back i shouldn’t have fought at him. only if i knew that it’s the last time that i will be seen him then i think i would definitely spend my night with him. why does everyone i loved always leave me? am i the curse am i the bad luck? i questioned my self now. but i still writing him a notes that i will forever keep do i still have any goal for living i have no future at all, hmm im living in despair now i mean always haha. “hey girllllll” i heared someone. i sighed... shes ella my friend “ what do you want ella” i said while opening the door. “ ooh it’s so hot in here, open your ac gosh.” i chuckled. “uh why is it not opening lyn?” i replied “ i haven’t paid yet, im broke dud ”. she responds “ you should’ve told me!” making an angry face that always make me c***k “ sorry mom.” while laughing. its been a while since we hang out and the first time i laugh again for 3 months of being silence. “anyway u okay girl?" she asked. “ye im good ” i replied even though none of it was true “ duh, wait i have someone to introduce to you ” * she scrolled on her photos and pick the boy photo “ what’s that ” asking confuse on what her trying to do. “ blind date duh!, u cannot live in here always come on make your life feels like a fantasy u should at least enjoy you life !” she said while smiling. “u think i deserved a happiness? i dont think so ” i replied while opening the blinds. “ you know what never mind just text me if you made up your mind now okay? byebye bestie mwuah!” she kissed me on cheeks and left. should i do it? telling to my self, hmm should i? then i saw jacobs picture across the living room. “ no i wont do it youre the only boy i want, dont worry ” i cried again remembering out happy memories again. but theres something in me that cannot get off the picture of the boy in my mind, he seems nice and gentelman and besides his name is kinda similar in jacob’s name , kaleb is his name beautiful right?* i picked up my phone and texted the number that my bff gave. i texted the boy saying “hello" and not in any minutes he replied back saying “ hey, you must be lyn? mavelyn?” i was stunned for a minutes because i might be regret this afterwards “ yeah im lyn, and u must be kaleb right?” *kaleb’s pov* oh shes nice, uhm should i ask her about her day or it’s too formal? i ended up texting her saying “ have you poopoo this day?” i scrunched my head feeling to uncomfortable for what i have replied. meanwhile *lyn’s pov* h-hu? i laughed when i seen his message he’s weird but definitely can make me laugh I SPEND THE NIGHT TALKING TO HIM AND FEELS BUTTERFLIES IN MY STOMACH one morning i woke up by hearing the doorbell rang. my friend would not ring the bell so i was confuse whose the person outside my house. but when i open it, its just a package but i didnt ordered anything how?, i read the message in it and saw that its from kaleb haha. hes just so weird because the letter context says “ eat this or penny wise will attack you” i chuckled, and prociding to text him saying thankyou, i have decided to fix everything again and wake up to reality now and start to move on again. i learn to love my seld from now, thats it.