EPISODE 1: The Handsome Outcast
I was never one to blend in. Even as a child growing up in the dust-choked alleys of Mbare, one of Harareâs oldest and most overcrowded suburbs, I felt a strange kind of isolationânot born from shame, but from knowing I carried something the world around me could not quite understand. I wasnât like the other boys who shouted across the football grounds or ran errands for coins. While they were busy arguing over mangoes or gambling with bottle caps, I sat beneath the old msasa tree near our block, devouring books borrowed from a retired teacher who lived two rooms down.
His name was Mr Moyo. He was sharp-eyed, grey-haired, and famously unfriendlyâuntil the day he caught me peeking at a torn history book left on his step. Instead of shouting, he handed it to me without a word. That marked the beginning of an unlikely mentorship. Every Saturday, he gave me something new to read: Plato one week, a Form Three maths textbook the next. He said very little, but his silence was never empty. From him I learnt not only to read, but to think. And in that thinking, I began to dreamâwild dreams, untamed by the limitations of poverty.
But in Mbare, dreams did not buy bread.
My mother, a market vendor with hands cracked from years of washing and peeling vegetables, did her best. My fatherâwell, thatâs a story I wish had more to it. He disappeared when I was seven. Rumour said he went to South Africa for work and never looked back. Sometimes I imagined him as a truck driver who sent money home and planned to return. Other times I thought he might have died alone on a cold Johannesburg pavement. The truth never arrived, and eventually, the silence became easier than the guessing.
We were four children. I was the eldest. That meant I became the father by defaultâfetching water, chasing unpaid debts at the market, helping my siblings with homework I barely understood myself. Yet despite all of it, I remained handsome. People said so.
âThat boy is handsome, but shame⊠heâs poor.â
It wasnât said with kindness. It was a verdict. A conclusion, as if my good looks were wasted on a life like mine. Girls would giggle when I walked past, whispering in corners. But when I smiled or tried to talk to them, theyâd turn cold, like I had insulted them by daring to cross a line written in invisible ink: You are too poor to love.
And so I stopped trying. I made friends with solitude. My only constant companion was ambitionârelentless, hungry ambition. I wasnât just hoping to escape poverty. I was at war with it. Iâd do anything to rise above. I fixed broken radios for neighbours. I cleaned gutters. I carried sacks of maize at the bus rank. Every dollar mattered. Every small job meant a textbook, a notebook, another step closer to a life that didnât involve counting coins at the end of each day.
Still, nothing changed overnight.
Secondary school was harder. Uniforms faded, shoes gave in, and I became the target of cruel jokes. âProfessor Pauper,â they called me. âEinstein without socks.â But insults never killed anyone. I grew thick skin and sharper wit. I won every academic prize our dusty little school could offerâcertificates that meant little without money to pursue university.
At night I prayed.
Not long, complicated prayers. Just a whisper.
âGod, donât let me waste this brain.â
Then came Form Six. I remember one teacherâs words as if they were tattooed inside my skull. âTendai, your future doesnât belong here. Fight. Write. Win.â I wrote more essays than assigned, entered every competition I could findâeven borrowed time at an internet cafĂ© to enter a regional essay contest. I didnât win. But I placed third. The prize was a small bursary and a worn-out laptop. It felt like heaven had cracked open for a second and dropped me a crumb of hope.
But of course, you cannot feed a family with a certificate or a third-hand laptop.
I started working full-time at a printing stall near the Harare Gardens. Binding books. Fixing ink cartridges. Selling pens and exercise books to students who didnât know the difference between survival and scholarship. I watched their carefree laughter and felt a mix of envy and determination. I wanted more. I deserved more. Not because I was handsome. Not because I was clever. But because I knew how far I had comeâand how much further I was willing to go.
Then, just as life had settled into that slow crawl between disappointment and routine, something happened.
It was a Monday. Hot, noisy, forgettableâuntil she walked in.
She wore a navy skirt suit and a white blouse that looked expensive but not flashy. Her steps were deliberate, her posture elegant. Her name was Natasha Dube, and she had come to print a training manual for her companyâs upcoming seminar.
I noticed her perfume firstâsoft, not overpowering, like jasmine mixed with confidence. She asked for a quote, and I gave it with trembling fingers. Not because I was nervous. But because her presence stirred something I hadnât felt in yearsârecognition. Not the kind that says, âI know you,â but the one that says, âYou see me.â
She didnât flinch at my faded shirt or dusty trousers. She asked questionsâreal ones. About what I read. Where I studied. What I wanted in life. And I, fool that I was, answered with more honesty than Iâd ever given a stranger.
Maybe she saw the books under the counter. Maybe she saw the hunger behind my smile. But something passed between us that dayâsomething fragile and dangerous and beautiful.
And just like that, a new chapter began.
But back then, I didnât know how quickly chapters turn. Or how easily ambition, once fulfilled, can become a weapon in the wrong hands. I didnât know that love, when it comes too fast, too bright, can burn instead of warm.
I only knew this: for the first time in my life, someone with power saw something in me that wasnât lack or pity. She saw potential.
And in that moment, I believed I could become everything the world said I couldnât.
âDo you have colour printing?â she asked, placing a memory stick gently on the counter like it was made of glass.
âColour, black and white, matte, glossy, you name it,â I said, trying to sound confident. My voice cracked slightly. She smiled.
âI need these manuals printed and bound. One hundred copies. Ready by Thursday. Is that possible?â
I hesitatedânot because I couldnât do it, but because my boss, Mr Sibanda, was a stickler for deadlines and not fond of last-minute jobs.
âIâll have to beg the printer not to cough mid-page,â I joked. âBut yes, itâs possible.â
Her eyes widened, then she burst out laughing. âThatâs the first time Iâve heard someone personify a printer!â
âYou havenât met our Canon,â I said. âMoody as a teenager and hungrier than a goat. Feed it ink or it throws tantrums.â
She chuckled and leaned slightly on the counter. âAlright, Tendai. Impress me.â
My name sounded different when she said itârounder, warmer. Like music wrapped in confidence.
As she handed me a deposit and a business card, her fingers brushed mineâbrief, but electric. The card read: Natasha Dube, Executive Training Consultant. Fancy.
When she walked away, I just stood there, memory stick in one hand, her perfume still lingering in the air. It was like a gust of wind had swept through my quiet world, leaving everything slightly tilted.
That evening, I couldnât stop thinking about her.
I told myself it was nothingâjust a client. But it wasnât. She had looked me in the eye, asked about my dreams, and smiled when I spoke about them.
âI think she likes you,â muttered Tendekai, my friend and co-worker, while slapping together book covers.
âDonât be silly,â I said, though my face betrayed me.
âI saw that smile. It wasnât a âthank-you-for-your-servicesâ kind of smile. That was a âmaybe-Iâll-send-an-extra-fileâ kind of smile.â
âOh, please.â
âShe even gave you a business card. Most of them just say, âSend on w******p, will collect Friday.ââ
âSheâs professional.â
âSheâs interested,â he said, wagging a glue-covered finger. âAnd donât mess this up with your usual humble nonsense. Say something next time.â
That ânext timeâ came sooner than I expected.
Wednesday afternoon, she returned to collect her print job. I had stayed late the night before to make sure it was perfectâtrimmed, bound, no smudges, not a single sheet out of place.
When she saw the boxes, her eyes widened. âYou did all this?â
I nodded. âI couldnât risk disappointing someone who trusts a moody Canon.â
She laughed againâGod, that laugh. âYouâre full of surprises, Tendai.â
âI aim to surprise,â I said, handing her the receipt. âAlso, your font choiceâTimes New Roman? Classic, but very... conservative.â
âOh, really? What would you have chosen, Professor?â
âGaramond, of course. It has character. Like you.â
She stared at me for a moment, as if deciding whether I was being cheeky or complimentary. Then she smiled. âDo you always flirt with clients, or am I a special case?â
âOnly with clients who read contracts in cursive fonts,â I replied.
We both laughed. And in that moment, I knew something was shifting. Not in the worldâbut inside me. I was coming alive.
After she left, Tendekai whistled loudly. âYou did it!â
âDid what?â
âYou flirted. And she flirted back. We need to open a bottleâif we had one.â
âWe have Mazoe.â
âBring the orange one. Itâs a celebration!â
We toasted with mismatched mugs and pretended the juice was champagne. It was silly. It was joyful. It was rare.
But I wasnât foolish. I knew who I wasâa boy from Mbare with calloused hands and no degree. And she? She wore real leather heels and carried a laptop bag worth more than our entire inventory. Yet⊠something about her eyes told me she didnât care about the gap.
That night, I dreamed of her. Of walking beside her in matching outfits. Of laughter over sadza and beans. Of a life not defined by poverty, but by promise.
Days passed. Then a week. No call.
I told myself it was fine. Clients come and go. And yet every time the shop door opened, I looked upâhoping.
And thenâshe came back.
Not for printing. Not for business.
âHi,â she said, brushing hair from her face. âI was in the neighbourhood. Thought Iâd check if the Canon is still moody.â
I smiled. âItâs better behaved since your visit. Mustâve felt pressured to impress.â
She leaned forward. âWhat time do you knock off?â
âFive.â
âGood. Join me for coffee. Thereâs a place down the street.â
I froze. âCoffee? With you?â
âNo,â she said, grinning. âWith the other guy who quoted Garamond. Yes, with me!â
That was how it began.
With paper and ink. With laughter and fonts. With Garamond and Mazoe.
A handsome outcast and a woman who didnât flinch at his dusty trousers.
We walked side by side down Julius Nyerere Way toward a small cafĂ© called The Roast Beanânothing fancy, just a little corner shop with chipped paint and the smell of cinnamon buns that always made your stomach betray your dignity.
âYou sure this place wonât ruin your reputation?â I teased as we stepped in.
She laughed. âTendai, if I cared about reputation, I wouldnât be seen with you in public.â
I paused, pretending to be offended.
âOh wow,â I said, placing a hand on my chest. âSo, Iâm already scandal material?â
âYouâre a printing technician who quotes Garamond. Thatâs suspicious behaviour.â
We found a table near the window. She ordered a cappuccino. I asked for tea. The waitress smiled knowingly as she walked away, and I could feel her eyes say, Ah, young loveâor something dangerously close to it.
âSo,â Natasha said, stirring her coffee slowly, âtell me the truth. What did you really think of me the first time I walked in?â
I chuckled. âHonestly?â
âAbsolutely.â
âI thought, âThat woman smells like good decisions.ââ
She laughed so hard she nearly choked. âWhat does that even mean?â
âIt means you looked like someone who has a spreadsheet for everything. Goals. Savings. Meal plans.â
âNot far from the truth,â she admitted. âBut what about you? You looked⊠intense. Like your brain was in a place your body hadnât reached yet.â
I nodded. âThatâs been my whole life, really. I always felt like I was waiting for something bigger.â
She looked at me thoughtfully. âWhat do you want, Tendai?â
It wasnât flirtation. It wasnât small talk. It was a real question.
âI want⊠to matter. To wake up one day and know that Iâve changed something. That I didnât come into this world only to survive.â
She leaned back, silent for a moment. Then she said, âThatâs rare.â
âWhat is?â
âSomeone who hasnât given up.â
Our tea and coffee arrived, along with two scones so large they needed their own ZIP codes. I made a joke about them being ânational monuments,â and she rolled her eyes.
âYouâre funnier than I thought.â
âYou didnât think I was funny?â
âI thought you were serious. Intense.â
âWell,â I said, spreading jam onto my scone, âI am. But intense people need humour. Otherwise, we explode.â
We sat in that cafĂ© for over an hour. I told her about my mother, my siblings, my dreams of university, the late-night prayers. She told me about her late fatherâa businessman who built everything from scratch, and about her mother who still asked if she ate enough vegetables.
âSo youâre a businesswoman with a curfew,â I joked.
âExactly,â she grinned. âMy mother still thinks I need to marry a doctor and stop wearing high heels. I told her Iâd marry someone who makes me laugh and wears dusty trousers.â
I blinked. She sipped her coffee, eyes glinting with mischief.
âToo soon?â she teased.
âA bit,â I replied. âBut noted.â
We left the café and walked back slowly, the silence between us now filled with possibility. Just outside my shop, she stopped and looked at me.
âYou have something, Tendai.â
âSomething like⊠a loose button?â
âNo. Something real. Donât let this city take it from you.â
Then she handed me a folded paper.
âWhat's this?â I asked.
âMy number. Donât print it.â
âI was going to laminate it,â I replied, and she laughed again.
She walked away with her usual grace, but this time, I noticed something different. She looked back. Just once. Just enough to ruin my sleep that night.
Back in the stall, Tendekai was waiting with the grin of someone who had watched the whole movie through the window.
âYouâre finished, my guy. Properly gone.â
âGone where?â
âTo the land of âI think she likes me.â Next stop: panic, texting drafts, and nervous haircuts.â
I couldnât argue. I spent the entire night staring at the ceiling, her voice echoing in my head.
âYou have something, Tendai.â
For the first time, I believed it.
I held that paper in my hand for hours.
Not because I didnât know what to do with it, but because I did. I knew too well. It was just a number, written in neat cursive on lined paper, folded once. But it weighed more than it should have. It was proof that someone had seen meânot the fixer of broken printers, not the boy who knew algebra but wore second-hand shoesâbut me.
I must have opened and closed the message box on my old Samsung at least twelve times.
Hi Natasha. Itâs Tendai.
Simple. Safe. Respectable.
I stared at it. Then deleted it.
Too short. Too dry. What if she thinks Iâm boring?
I typed again:
Hi Natasha. This is Tendai from the printing stall. I had a really great time. Also, I might laminate your number anyway.
Too forward? Too silly?
I called for help.
âTendekai!â
âWhat?â
âQuick, whatâs a good first message to send to someone who might like you but is too classy for your entire wardrobe?â
He came over, wiping glue off his hands like a seasoned counsellor.
âSay this: âHi Natasha. I just bought a dictionary because I lost my words the moment you walked out.ââ
I blinked. âDo you want me to get blocked?â
âFine, fine,â he laughed. âJust be honest. Be yourself. Say something that sounds like youânot Shakespeareâs broke cousin.â
I nodded. And I typed:
Hi Natasha. This is Tendai from the printing shop. Thanks for the coffee. If you ever need someone to talk fonts, dreams, or world domination with, Iâm available.
I sent it before I could change my mind.
Tick.
Double tick.
Typing...
Then it stopped.
I held my breath.
Then:
Hi Tendai :) I was hoping youâd message. You made my day. And world domination? Sounds tempting. Shall we start with dinner next week?
My heart went still.
Dinner?
With her?
I didnât respond immediately. I stared at the message like it was a trap sent by destiny. Then I replied:
Only if we can use Garamond on the menu.
She reacted with a laughing emoji. And just like that, I was in.
That weekend, I went to Mupedzanhamo market and bought a second-hand shirtâwhite, crisp, slightly oversized, but clean. I borrowed a pair of black trousers from my cousin and polished my old school shoes until they almost looked new. Almost.
âYou look like a preacher with a modelling contract,â Tendekai said when I showed him.
âIs that good?â
âItâs excellent. Sheâll think you have a secret job at an embassy.â
Monday came. The date was set. I took a taxi to the restaurant Natasha had chosenâThe Nest, a place with low lights and too many forks on the table.
When I walked in, she was already sitting, scrolling through her phone.
She looked upâand smiled.
âYou clean up well.â
âYou make it sound like I was recently rescued from a ditch.â
She laughed. âI meant you look⊠lovely.â
I sat down carefully, trying not to knock over the glassware. We ordered. I stuck to safe food. She chose grilled fish and couscous.
âWhatâs couscous?â I whispered when the waiter left.
âFancy sadza,â she replied with a wink.
We spoke about everythingâpolitics, God, work, music, dreams. I told her about my essay competition. She told me about her idea to start her own company one day.
âYou know,â she said, âI think youâd make an incredible consultant.â
I blinked. âMe? I fix printers.â
âYou understand people. You listen. And you think deeply. Thatâs a rare combination.â
I didnât know how to reply. I just stared at her, wondering how someone like her could see someone like me with such clarity.
By the end of the night, I walked her to her car. She unlocked it, then turned to me.
âI donât usually do this,â she said.
âDo what?â
âDate people I meet at printing stalls.â
I smiled. âI donât usually date people who wear suits that cost more than my rent.â
We both laughed.
Then she grew quiet. âBut this feels⊠right.â
âIt does,â I whispered.
We said goodbye, and she drove away, headlights disappearing into the night. I stood there a long time, watching the road.
Not just because I didnât want to go home.
But because, for the first time, the road ahead didnât feel empty.
That night, I couldnât sleep.
I stared at the ceiling, the cracked corners of my room bathed in soft light from the streetlamp outside. I could hear the neighbourâs radio playing softly, a song about love and longing.
And I thought of her.
Of her laughter. Her words. Her belief in me.
And I whispered, as I often did:
âGod, donât let me waste this.â
Days passed. One day we went to the cafĂ©. The cafĂ© wasnât glamorous. Bikoâs Brew was a humble spot wedged between a tailor and a tyre repair shop, with wobbly chairs and faded menus that hadnât seen an update since the Mugabe era. Still, there was something comforting about itâthe warm smell of baked buns and the clink of teaspoons in chipped mugs. It smelled like old love and new beginnings.
She sat across from me at a corner table, near a squeaky oscillating fan that seemed committed to spinning but not cooling.
âYour pick?â she asked, raising an eyebrow.
I nodded. âFive-star ambience. Occasional power cuts for mood lighting.â
She laughed. âJust my kind of place.â
âI figured. Somewhere casual enough to laugh in, but not so casual that the chairs collapse mid-sentence.â
âTrue,â she said, then leaned forward, elbows on the table. âSo, Mr Garamond, tell meâwhatâs the dream?â
I stirred my tea with exaggerated seriousness. âI thought weâd start light. Maybe talk about the weather, or how Harare kombis are secretly run by ex-stunt drivers.â
She smiled. âIâm not here for small talk.â
âI shouldâve known.â
âCome on,â she said. âWhatâs the real story? The one behind the printer ink and the sassy font commentary?â
I inhaled slowly. No one ever really asked. Not like this.
âI want to study economics,â I said finally. âNot just the theory stuff. I want to learn how money actually movesâwhy some people stay poor forever while others multiply what they touch. I want to understand it so I can break it, rebuild it.â
She tilted her head, genuinely listening.
âBut uniâs expensive,â I added, trying not to sound bitter. âAnd life⊠doesnât always wait for dreams.â
She nodded slowly. âThatâs not a poor manâs thought. Thatâs a builderâs thought.â
âIs that a compliment?â
She smirked. âThe best kind.â
I sipped my tea to avoid grinning like a fool.
âAnd you?â I asked. âWhatâs your story?â
âMe?â she paused. âMy storyâs less interesting. Grew up in Borrowdale. Dad was self-made. Imported tyres and machinery. Mumâs a retired nurse. They gave me everything I neededâbut not everything I wanted.â
âWhich was?â
âFreedom. Purpose. A life that wasnât just comfortable, but meaningful.â
I raised an eyebrow. âAnd running workshops on âEffective Communication in the Workplaceâ gives you that?â
She laughed. âI know, right? It sounds like a PowerPoint slide that went to private school. But yesâit gives me a chance to shape people. To help them find their voices.â
I nodded, quietly impressed. Not just by her words, but by how she owned them.
Our food arrived. Two plates of grilled chicken and fries, followed by a surprise mini-dessert from the waiterâprobably out of pity, or prophecy.
âHouse special,â he said. âFree for first dates.â
I started choking on my Fanta.
âWho said this is a date?â I asked.
The waiter shrugged. âThe way she looks at you? Thatâs not casual. Thatâs plot development.â
Natasha burst out laughing. âGive this man a raise!â
The rest of the afternoon passed in warm banter. We talked about childhood fearsâhers was thunder; mine was goats (âThey have weird eyes, okay?â). She couldnât swim. I couldnât dance. We agreed never to attend pool parties or weddings together.
Eventually, the sky turned amber and shadows stretched across the walls. She glanced at her watch.
âI should go. I have a client briefing at seven.â
I nodded, disappointed but careful not to show it.
As we stepped outside, she turned to me.
âI enjoyed this.â
âEven the part about my irrational fear of goats?â
âEspecially that part.â
There was a momentâa silence with meaning, not absence.
Then she leaned in and kissed me on the cheek. Soft. Quick. But seismic.
âText me,â she said.
And just like that, she was gone.
I walked back to the stall in a daze, smiling at potholes, nodding at strangers, and nearly getting hit by a kombi.
Back at work, Tendekai was waiting, arms crossed like a nosy aunt.
âWell?â
âCoffee,â I said.
âJust coffee?â
âAnd a cheek kiss.â
He gasped theatrically. âThatâs a wedding proposal in some cultures!â
I threw a crumpled paper at him. âRelax.â
âNo. You relax. This is big. This is her liking you despite the dusty shoes.â
âThanks, Tendekai.â
âYouâre welcome. Iâll be best man. You bring the ring.â
That night, I lay in bed staring at the tin roof, the sound of crickets mingling with far-off laughter from a shebeen two blocks down.
I had no money, no degree, no status. But for the first time in years, I didnât feel invisible.
She had seen me.
And more dangerouslyâshe had believed in me.