MINUTES WITH MY MARRIED GIRLFRIEND

Oh! So you could not wait for me to get my dream job, house and a car? So it was all an empty promises and sweet nothings that you kept whispering into my ears, trust me, I might sound silly but I'm never angry with you and.... and.... and I'm not crying, I understand my voice is breaking but who cares if you're happy, I'm happy too, I remembered saying, I will do everything to see a smile on your face, even if it means I had to lay down my life, till tomorrow and next I'll always stay to my words, years we spent together will be with me forever, I will never imagine it to be wasted years for I'm thankful, God made me came across one such of a wonderful woman, I will cherish it for a lifetime, I will cherish you for a lifetime, you didn't betray me, no you didn't! I'm not seeing your faults in all of these rather it's me who refused to understand not all relationships leads to marriage. Hello, are you still with me! I'm sorry if I'm disturbing, I can't just hide my vulnerabilities like others, for me if I'm sad I can't really hide my emotions and you know it, you remember when if anything happens to me, you're the first person I run to, it's still the same but I know now, you're far from me, I will try and stop, truth is, I can never keep you away from my thoughts, these past weeks have been rough, I've become so pathetic, no one is relating or understanding me again, I've lost some friends who really can't endure with my new attitudes, I've become an overthinker even Mummy is tired of petting me now, to be honest, nothing of this world fascinates me anymore, yesterday, I was put on some drugs and injections because my eyes has pathways with sleep, slowly, with every passing day, I'm losing my weight and balance, sliming down and big headed nature gradually exposing, I'm not telling you this for you to have a pity towards me or maybe in anywhere to ruin the happiness in you, God forbid! I'm just telling you for like I've said you're always the first person I share my joys and sorrows with, I've missed you, I missed you really, you're my world yunno and please, can I still be your friend? I promise, I won't cross my boundaries, I will gladly settle for that, we must not talk everyday but at least the feeling of having you around as my friend is okay for me. I wish you a happy married life once again friend, I can hear a footsteps coming upstairs, please do say hello to your husband.