Snow Cover

Chapter 13 Car Ride

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Julia's POV

I'm trying to stop questioning every little thing about John, because when I do, I find myself starting issues where there really aren't any. Why be mad about him looking at my clothes in the seconds without me that he had to spare, when he was just trying to prepare to get me something that I would like and hopefully would fit. It sounds more like he was trying to be spontaneous and surprise me. So I should stay out of my head, and just enjoy the ride. The whole point of this trip is to do something different and exciting so I need to stop assuming its going to be like what I normally do since this is nothing I have control over. I need to stop thinking so much and just have fun before I ruin the trip for overthinking.

I let out a deep breath trying to clear my mind as I glanced out the window. The nervousness is hitting me once again as I feel the momentum of the vehicle picking up. I look over at John as he smiles, I can't help but to smile back because his is contagious. I bite my bottom lip trying to not seem to desperate for attention, just because I am liking the attention he is giving me.. but that just gets him looking from the road to me as much as he can. His eyes keep panning from my lips and down over my body.

This is creating a giddy feeling within me, like a teenager trying to not let the nervousness get to them. But I just can't seem to help it when it comes to something so new and fun to me. I try to take my eyes from him, but they keep being brought right back because I can feel that he is looking at me. But every time our eyes lock, even if it's just for a second, it starts to make me even more nervous than before. I feel like I need something to help calm me down, but that's easier asked at the moment.

I swallow the nervous lump in my throat ad I hear him clear his throat and say, "If you're tired at all then you're more than welcome to take a nap since this drive will last for hours." I look around thinking about that offer, but I have never been one to take naps in cars. Not even as a baby. "I have never really been able to take naps in cars.. Besides, I think I am way too excited and even a little nervous, that my brain feels amped up. So there is no way I can even try to nap honestly." I state trying to lighten the mood with how I'm feeling hoping he may be able to relate, since I don't have a lot to talk about at the moment.

That's the hard part about our relationship being so new, I don't know exactly what to talk about. What he likes or dislikes, what jokes he loves to hear or partake in.. Anything that normal people would already know about the person they are traveling with, to make any road trip better. "So John, what music do you like to listen to on road trips? Is it the same as what you normally listen to or is it something special just for the occasion?" I try to figure out more about him before I see his head shaking in my peripherals. "I don't like music." He plainly states as I feel my mouth dropping open.

"You don't like music at all? Or just most kinds, so you have to stick with one kind?" I respond without hesitation, just wanting to get to the bottom of this since I absolutely love music, and have played almost every instrument at some point and even like music from each genre. So not liking music is baffling to me. "No, I don't like it at all.. I know it's an unpopular opinion, but I really don't like music one bit. I like the sounds of the world around me.. That's the music I like.. The natural world around and what sounds they make without even thinking about it. To me that's way better than any song you could conjure up."

"Well, that is interesting. I have never met anyone who doesn't like music. But I can see what you mean about the world around you. It is beautiful and how they act is as well." I state as he smiled over at me as I continued to nod. I like how he looks at the world. It's as if he likes the natural beauty it all holds and that's beautiful within itself. Never thought about the sounds out there like a song. But the way he described it made me feel like he is incredibly sophisticated to look at the world as such.

"So, since there is no music, did you maybe want to smoke a little weed on our trip up? I don't know if you like doing anything like that, but it helps calm me down and my nerves are through the roof at the moment." I declare playfully while looking over at him, just trying to test the waters and gauge how he might feel about that idea. He seems like a spontaneous guy so maybe.

"What? Weed? I don't think so.. You should treat your body like a temple and not destroy it from within. That's what I have lived my life by. Besides, if you keep doing that to yourself people won't find you attractive because they see the toxic actions you're making to yourself. You shouldn't do that.. And we are not doing it here on our time away." he demands this of me, catching me off guard. I am not a person to let someone tell me how to live my life.

I like advice and opinions, but you won't tell me what I will or will not be doing. But I won't start a fight at all.. All that means to me is that I am going to have to be sneaky about my weed consumption if I am going to do it on this trip.. But I won't stop with it because it's what helps me keep my head together if we're being honest. I need it to not explode or think too much into things. It's my medicine that helps calm my mind down, and I am not getting rid of my medicine because someone told me I should. But I will be respectful of his wishes and not do it around him, and he won't have to know that I even do it at all.

I will just pretend that this conversation has not even happened because not everyone is ok with the decisions I make in my life and that's ok, No judgment. "That's fine and you're entitled to your opinion. So, in that case, I guess I should have brought my book or switch with me if anything, since there's going to be hours of this drive in front of us with only the scenery and each other to fill in the many voids." I state playfully trying to keep the mood light and it is working. He keeps smiling at me not letting any of this bother him which is good.

His smile is making me feel better as he looks over at me multiple times. "Well, the scenery is normally enough for me because I love these trips, but if you wanted something, then a book I guess, if you like that sort of thing.. But I never read unless I have to.. And I definitely don't play games.. that's childish.. in my opinion, but you can of course do what you want." he declares as I swallow the lump in my throat. I know we don't have a ton in common, but I thought he would at least like to read.

I nod holding my tongue, not trying to annoy him, just trying to share more likes and dislikes about us to get to know one another and I guess we are, but it's just not going the way that I was hoping it would have. But I won't let that stop me from having something to talk about with him. That's what trips like this are for, especially when it comes to new people in new relationships. "Oh really no games or books? For me, I like spending my extra time playing games and reading, which every one I choose first, but sometimes it's hard for me to choose between them. But the games at least help get my frustrations out in a safe manner.. If you know what I mean.. And they have extra things you can try to do that you would never actually do in real life.. Which is fun and exciting." I declare trying to lighten the mood once more, in hopes that he will help make this into a fruitful conversation.

"I don't know what you mean.. I don't like games.. I like real life.. Besides I have experienced many things in real life and I can say with all certainty that the real thing is so much better than anything fake you can do in a game." he declares before glancing over at me. I wonder what he is implying, when talking about how much better it is to do that in real life. There are games you can steal cars, have s*x, get lap dances, do drugs and so on.. I wonder if he is meaning any of those things.

The mystery of what he might be talking about is really getting my attention. I know for sure that one of those things is way better with him than in a game and that's the s*x. I know we don't have a lot in common but the s*x life we have had thus far has been a lot of fun and getting better with time, and even more exciting then some game could ever be. I feel myself getting a little heated up just at that thought of us being together and having the fun we have so far since it's so new. "You have experienced many things? I bet you could teach me a thing or two." I state in a sexy tone, just liking the experienced man that he is. This is making me want to know everything he has to offer.

"Yes ma'am. But I have been through a lot of good and bad to learn what is right and wrong. Mostly bad.. But I have come out a better person at everything from all that I have learned over the years." I nod my head, letting out a deep breath as I think about that. "Bad huh? I never would have imagined that you could be bad.. That's idea is very sexy." I turn to look at him before slipping the seat belt behind my back as I leaned over the middle console. Getting close to her ear as I whisper into it "Can you show me how bad you can really be?"

I watch him bite his bottom lip as he hums out. "I could show you a lot of things. But I don't think you could handle it." I smirk to myself, knowing that already and just wanting to taste the knowledgeable drink he has to offer. "I bet you could show me a lot of things.. And believe me, I want to know it all and can handle every last inch of what you have to offer." I say into his ear as I suck his ear lobe into my mouth, as my hands have a mind of their own. I rub my fingers across his bulge in his pants causing him to groan out, but sounding as if he is liking it a lot.

"If you play your cards right then I will show you everything I have to offer." He states as I hum out liking that. "I will do whatever it takes." I purr back into his ear as I watch the chills cover his skin at that contact. "Mmmm.. Whatever it Takes? Then you should get down there and prove it." he states in a rumbling tone as I smirk, knowing exactly what he is meaning, since I have been teasing the idea already. I keep rubbing over the bulge that is getting bigger by the second. Before internally agreeing that I do want this to happen, maybe as much as he does. That's why I started this interaction. I'm hoping it will help calm both of our nerves down better than my joints could, since I can't smoke them right now.