La sagrienta Maria

Suspense arose as I stood there helpless, my shadow embedded in the darkness of the night. Spirits flew by muttering and uttering words in a language unknown to me. My eyes were dizzy, my head felt heavy, I was practically going crazy, I couldn't take it anymore and before I knew it, I blacked out...... ****************************************** Sofia Ramirez Flashbacks, tears, pain, regrets all ran through my mind as I was heavily pregnant at the age of nineteen and still, abandoned by everyone who I thought cared about me;mi padres, mi amigas, mi novio, all of them left me yearning with a broken heart. ¡Ay, qué fastido! Going through the stages of heartbreak, rejection, homelessness and other life struggles made me realise that you can loose a lot if you aim to earn little in the name of love. Life ain't about loving, its about letting yourself be loved, love yourself first, the love you give to others today might be used against you tommorrow. I look back and realise how crazy it was that at the age of nineteen, life had already taught me a lot of lessons, truly, experience is the best teacher. I resided at the east side of Madrid, working everyday to make ends meet. Every morning, I would wake up as early as 4 O'Clock so as to meet up with my appointments at the hospital for my antenatal care. Then I would take my leave to the café where I worked to undergo evening shifts of cleaning dishes. My life was so tough then, I could barely even stay awake but I never stopped believing, I always had my mind clinger to the feeling that my luck was going to change. And cross town, after my shifts, I would take the bus at night to a one bedroom apartment and when I turned on the light, I would sit down at the table, tell myself that it's alright as I was waiting for the day I hoped my baby would arrive. "La Gracia de Dios abunda para tados" I would say to myself as I lay down to rest.