The Twin Alphas Broken Mate

Messed Up

*Noah POV*

The fact that I was acting as if I didn't give a s**t about Hope, or what was happening to her was bullshit. I am angry at myself for it, but if I allowed myself to show sympathy for her, it would make me look weak. What kind of man would feel sympathy for the family of the man who murdered their father in cold blood? Me, that’s who.

“Don’t let them see your soft side,” my dad would lecture. “Soft equals weakness,” he would say. I know he is wrong, but because of the mental mind f**k, I feel as if it’s the only way to get people to respect me.

When I left Nick’s office, I went straight to the security room. I wanted to observe the situation that Nick had told me.

He said that there were people treating Hope badly. I wanted to see if it was a lie or not. So, I went into the security control room, and I watched the monitors closely.

Once I found the area she was currently in, I noticed she was talking to a girl with fluffy red hair. It didn't look heated, but I watched closely anyway. I’m glad I did.

I reached over to the knobs on the panel, and turned up the volume for the audio. I wanted to hear what was being said. I know I shouldn’t have been surprised at what I heard, but I was actually stunned to hear this girl speaking to Hope that way.

“Why can’t you get the hint that no one wants you around here? What is it going to take to get you to just leave? I’ll even help you escape if that’s the issue. I’ve done it once with someone else, and I’ll do it again. I’m surprised that the alphas are even allowing you to live. If I were them, I would slit your throat with my claws and watch you slowly bleed to death,” the girl sneered. She was disgusting.

Hope said nothing. She just stood there and took it, and I couldn’t understand why. She needs to toughen up. It’s the only way to survive in this world. Being weak gets you nowhere in life, or at least that’s what was drilled in my head as a child.

When the girl walked away, I had to fight myself to just stay and watch. I wanted to go to Hope and shake some sense into her. Maybe even scare her a little bit just to get her to give some kind of reaction other than being timid.

I watched as she started back down the hallway towards mine and Nick’s private suites. When she opened my door and stepped inside, I got a weird feeling in my gut. I wasn’t sure why, but I had to find out. So, I got up and moved towards my room.

Reaching the alpha hallway, the sound of someone singing filled the hallway. Since Nick and I were the only one staying in this wing right now, I knew that gorgeous voice came from her.

“If I can keep you from falling to pieces, then I'd be saving myself in the process, and we'll collapse every word 'til we're speechless, because you'll soon find that words are worthless now,” she sang.

I didn’t know the song, but the lyrics were heartbreaking to me. Was it a song that she just liked, or did those lyrics resonate within her? Either way, she sang it with conviction, and it sounded beautiful.

As I pushed open the door, I watched as she made my bed. Still singing, she worked quickly, making sure that the bed was as neat and tidy as she could get it.

“Noah, I hope you enjoy the scent of this bedding spray. To me, it smells like an old lady’s bathroom,” she said to herself. I nearly laughed out loud, but I held my composure. If she caught me, I had to maintain a presence.

She turned around to pick up the dirty sheets, and her eyes met mine. I didn’t mean to startle her, but she jumped anyway. I guess I should have made it known that I was there.

“Oh, I’m sorry, sir. I didn’t hear you come in. I’m almost finished,” she said softly, and diverted her eyes to the floor.

I didn’t say anything, but stepped out of the doorway so she could go out to her cart. I moved to the high back chair near one of the windows that faced my favorite view of the pack.

Watching her out of the corner of my eye, I noticed that she was rushing to get through her duties. I found it comical that I got her worked up just by sitting there.

After cleaning the bathroom, she finished by vacuuming the carpet. She was moving quickly, and just as I turned my attention back outside, I heard a loud crash, and she started to freak out.

“Oh no! I’m so sorry. I’ll clean it up,” she said as she began to pick up whatever she had broken.

I rushed to where she was cleaning up, and lost my cool when I saw what she had broken. My grandmother’s urn.

“Get away from that! I’ll do it!” I yelled and pushed her away, causing her to fall to the ground. Tears began to fall down her cheeks, and that just angered me more.

I stood up, and grabbed her by the dress sleeve. Jerking her up, I pinned her against the wall and laid into her.

“You clumsy b***h! Do you realize what the hell you have done?” I screamed in her face. I don’t know what came over me, but the anger was intense.

“I’m sorry…” she tried to apologize, but the back of my hand met her face to shut her up, and I tossed her across the room.

I started to pace, and my wolf was fighting with me to calm me down. He didn’t want me to hurt her, but that’s all I wanted to do.

“Please, sir. I didn’t mean to. I tripped over the cord of the vacuum,” she cried. Her tears meant nothing to me. I was angry. More angry than I had ever been.

“Shut your f*****g mouth! You don’t mean to do a lot of things, but yet they keep happening. You are f*****g worthless! I suggest you get out of my sight before I do more to you,” I bellowed.

However, she didn’t move. She still laid there with her face buried in the carpet, sobbing. Her weakness was too much for me.

I bent over and grabbed her by the hair, pulling her up off of my floor. I wanted her gone, but I wanted to hurt her more. What the hell was happening to me? This isn’t who I am.