Unspoken Hearts

Fractured Friendship: Confrontation and Pain

Calm down, Kiara. Breathe in, breathe out. It's no big deal. What's the worst he can do? He'll ignore you.

So what? He's been doing it for a whole year.

I took a deep breath and headed to the living room.

The familiar lovely laugh pulled a smile on my lips. I slowly walked out and stood behind Maa.

He's gotten more handsome and built-up. He wasn't thin and lean anymore and God, puberty hit him really hard.

I couldn't take my eyes off him. And that smile, it's like, it was sewed on my lips.

But the smile vanished as soon as a girl stepped inside the house while dragging a suitcase with her.

Don't tell me, he got a girlfriend already. Kanha, don't do this me.

I stared at her while she dragged the suitcase and stood beside my Siddharth.

"Maa, she's Amelia. My girlfriend." He smiled at her cheekily and wrapped his arms around Amelia's waist, while i just stood there and stared at them in horror.

Hi-his girlfriend? You've got to be kidding me, right?

"Who are you?" I came out of my reverie and looked at Siddhart as if he has grown two horns on his head.

Who am I? Is he f*****g serious? He doesn't remember me?

Fuck you Amelia. I know you're the reason why he started ignoring me in the first place.

"Siddhart, are you kidding me?" Maa stepped in and my eyes landed on his hand, he wasn't wearing our friendship bracelet.

My heart ached as his words rang in my ears.

"The day I'll stop wearing this bracelet would be the day I'll leave this world. Because our friendship will last till my last breath."

Before she could say anything, I muster up the courage and snarl, "The girl who was there for you through out your life but you started ignoring her as soon as your so called other half came into your life."

I stomp my feet and left from there while wiping my tears.

How can he forget me? Was I so insignificant in his life? Didn't I mean anything to him?

I stomp in my house and ran to my room, ignoring my Mumma's call, asking me what's wrong.

I slammed my bedroom door shut behind and slumped against the door. Allowing the tears to fall off my eyes.

Our 24 years of friendship meant nothing to him? Was I so insignificant in his life that he can't even recognise me just because he didn't saw me for a year?

Fuck you Siddharth Singh.

I looked at the bracelet, wrath coursing through my veins and I pulled it harshly off my wrist and threw it on the floor.

I don't keep his f*****g gift when he was out there, living his life without having a single thought about me.

How stupid I was to think we could have something?

I shouldn't have kept any expectations and hopes because when the life don't follow your expectations, it hurts. It hurts so f*****g bad that you lock yourself away from the real world and t*****e yourself for something that wasn't your fault.

But I won't do something like this. If he doesn't remember me, our friendship, then be it that way.

Now that I've broken the cage of his friendship, I'm going to live for myself. And just because I and him didn't happen, doesn't mean the world ends there. There are plenty of fishes in the sea.

The knock on the door, forced me to compose myself. I sniffled, wiped off my tears and stood up from floor.

But as soon as my eyes met with the person standing on the other side of the door, I cringed.

"What do you want?" I spat with distaste.

"Kiara.." he trailed off whilst playing with his fingers.

I stood at my place with my arms resting my chest and kept my gaze at him, constant without flickering them for even a second. Making him squirm under my stare.

I internally smirked.

Good. Take that b***h.

His eyes kept wandering around the whole room and resting for more minutes on the floor before he averted his gaze on my face.

"I'm sorry."

Siddharth Singh

"Siddhart, you seriously don't remember her?" I raised my brow, pressuring my brain to muster up a memory with her by my side.

"You i***t! She's Kiara. Kiara Mehra. Rings the bell?"

My eyes widen as realisation dawn on me.

"s**t!" I cursed under my breath and marched towards her house.

"You better mend things with her or else no need to come back here." Mumma warned. I shook my head in disappointment and ran towards her house.

I stood at the porch, confused if I should just go in or knock on the door.

I never realised when things changed so much between us. Since when did I started hesitating before going in Mehra's house. This place is like my second home.

Kiara is my second home.

I took a deep breath and knocked on the door. Soon enough maa opened the door.

Her lips instantly broke into a beautiful smile as her brown eyes rested on me which began to shine as soon as they saw me. Her beautiful wheat complexion shined under the sunlight, making her skin glow.

She's always been there for me. Like my mother. She always loved me as her own. Actually she was always biased in my favour.

"Hi maa." I nervously whispered, she opened her arms and engulfed me in her warm embrace.

"Siddhart, my kid. How are you? It's been so long, beta. Didn't you miss your maa?" She pouted and kissed my cheeks.

"It's not like that, maa." I tried to muster up an excuse but ended up coming with nothing.

"It's okay. You don't have to explain anything to me. Just don't ever forget your old women." I smiled and kissed her cheek.

"Never maa. Is Kiara home?" She frowned at her mention and reluctantly nod her head.

"Yea. She slammed her door and locked herself in her room. Did something happen at your place?"

I placed my hand on her shoulder and said, "Maa, I'll explain everything later but can I please meet Kiara now?" She seemed a little confused but nevertheless shook her head in agreement.

"Great." I kissed her cheek yet again and headed towards Kiara's room.

My heart pained when her broken sobs reached my ears. Mustering up the courage, I softly knocked on her door.

As soon as the door opened, my heart beat hitched a beat. Her eyes, her nose and chin was red as usual.

It pained my heart to see her like this. I caused her pain, I hurt her which resulted in her crying.

What kind of best friend am I? Who couldn't recognise his own best friend? What is wrong with me?

"What do you want?" Her voice filled with distaste fuelled my guilt.

"Kiara.." I trailed off trying to come up with something to say and apologise for my deeds.

I couldn't bring myself to look in his eyes, I kept wandering them around the room until it landed on the broken bracelet.

She broke it. She ended our friendship.

Something in me broke and a desperate need to gain her forgiveness and mend everything back to as it was surged through my veins.

"I'm sorry." I took the first step and apologised. She scoffed at me and turned around to slam the door on my face.

"Kiara-," I grabbed her wrist but hissed in pain forcing me to loosen my grip. That's when my eyes landed on her wrist.

It was scratched. I winced and grabbed her other hand.

"Kiara, your wrist." I pointed towards the wound. She snatched her hands off my grip and pushed me.

"Why do you care?"

"Of course I care. You're my best friend. How can you say that Kiara?" I stated in an obvious tone.

"Yea?" She began to laugh at me, fueling my confusion. "You care?" She said whilst laughing at me.

I frowned at nodded my head. "You care about me?" This offended me to the core.

"What do you mean by that?" I spatted.

Her demeanor changed in an instance, her eyes shone anger in them as she took a threatening step towards me.

"What I mean is, as far as i remember just few minutes before, you were refusing to recognise me. And now suddenly you care about me?"

I gulped and cast my eyes down on the floor, ashamed.

"Kiara, I'm sorry."

"Your sorry won't change anything! You sorry won't change the fact that you ignored me for a whole year. Your sorry won't change that you forgot about me! Your best friend who was there for you through thick and thin. It won't change the fact that you ignored me and forgot about me because of a girl, you stopped wearing our friendship bracelet when you, yourself said that the day one of us will stop wearing this bracelet is the day when our friendship will end!" She took a deep breath and continued, "then why are you here? Why are you here when you yourself broke your friendship with me. Why do you care now?"

I averted my gaze from her eyes.

I came here to clear everything and start over again but she is hella bent on ending our friendship.

I can't blame her either. It was me who started ignoring.

How can I do it? Just because Amelia told me she doesn't like when I talk to another girl, I stopped talking with Kiara. My best friend.

What was I thinking when I removed our friendship bracelet off my wrist? That Kiara will not acknowledge it?

I hurt my best friend because of my girlfriend.

I could've explained Amelia that Kiara is not any girl but my best friend. That she is one of the most important people in my life.

But if she is so important to you how come you never tried to contact her? How come you forget about her?

I cursed my self-conscious for taunting me.

I reluctantly looked at her. She was waiting for my answer, with her arms crossed against her chest. There was a desperate look in her eyes. As if she was waiting for me to explain everything. But how do I tell her there's no relevant explanation. There's no relevant reason for my action.

If I'll tell her I ignored her because Amelia told me she doesn't like when I talk to other girl then she'll never talk to me again.

I have to do something.

I sighed and shook my head in disappointment.

"What should I do to make this better? I don't want you to ignore me. You're important to me, Kiara."

"So important that you forgot about me for a year and refused to recognise me even when in person." She taunted.

I groaned and retorted irritatingly, "Look I'm trying to mend everything between us here. Can you at least cope with me?"

She took a threatening step towards me and glared at me. "Who do you think you're showing attitude to? I'm not your girlfriend who's going to tolerate your s**t. To hell with your I'm-trying-to-mend-everything-between-us. I don't want to mend anything. Just f**k off from here and leave me alone."

I grimaced. "Is it necessary to drag my girlfriend in between?"

She shook her head with determination.

"Yes. She's the mere reason. Because of her you forgot about me. How do you expect me to like her? You know what? I was stupid. I was stupid enough to sit in my room and build up different scenarios in my mind. So stupid of me. How could I forget you're such a man w***e. This isn't the first time you forgot about me because of a girl. You do it every time when you find yourself some girl to warm your bed."

Her words pissed me off beyond boundaries.

How dare she call me a man w***e? Who does she think she's? Who gave her the right to mock me about my personal life.

"You know what? You're just jealous."

"Jealous of what?" She scoffed.

"Jealous of Amelia." I stated in a duh tone. I was hella mad and determined to hurt her with my words just as much as she hurt me.

"Why would I be jealous of her?" She made a disgusted face.

I folded my arms against my chest and took a step towards her. Vanishing the distance between us.

"You're jealous because she's the one whose warming my bed. You're jealous because I love her and not you. You're jealous because you'll never be her."

"Wh-what?" She stuttered. Looking at me with wide eyes.

"What do you think? I don't know about your love for me? I knew about it all along. I'm not stupid, Kiara."

"You knew." She muttered while staring at me with big red eyes.

"You knew about it all along yet to played as if you didn't knew." She averted her gaze from me as more tears began to slip from her eyes.

Kiara Mehra

He knew. He knew about it since the beginning yet he refused to acknowledge it and embarrass me.

He snapped his fingers in front of my eyes and pulled me out of my reverie. I stared at him as if there's no tomorrow.

He laughed at me on my face.

"To be honest, you were really clingy, Kiara. Why do you think I stopped responding to your text?"

His word's pierced my heart and sighed hole in it. Suddenly I was finding it hard to breathe in the big corridor.

His word's pierced my heart and sighed hole in it. Suddenly I was finding it hard to breathe in the big corridor.

I was clingy. That's why he stopped responding to my text. Because he was fed up. He was irritated. He loves Amelia and not me.

I slowly turned around and proceeded to head in my room when he grabbed my elbow.

I hissed at the skin contact and pulled my hand away from his reach.

"Leave." I muttered.

"What?"

"I said leave." I whispered again, little louder this time.

My whole world seemed to be crashing down in front of my eyes. Suddenly my will to live was dead. I didn't wish to live anymore.

"Kiara-"

"I said leave!" I bursted.

What does he want now? He wants to humiliate me more?

How can I even think he was my friend? How stupid of me? I made a whole scenario in my mind.

In my world, we were couple who were living away from each other.

I slammed the door behind me and sat on my bed. Staring aimlessly at the floor.

Just from few sentences he ruined my whole world.

When did he gained the power to ruin me completely just by his words? When did his rudeness started piercing through my heart? When did he become such an important part of my life? When did it started bothering me when he ignored me?

I, myself don't have the answer to this. Those were right, who said a guy and a girl can never be friends. One of them always catches feelings and ends up getting hurt.

In our friendship, it was me who got hurt.