OVERJOYED MELANCHOLY

CHAPTER 2 : RIFTING AWAY - SEPARATION

A ray of hope was presence , yet a ray of hope is separation.

Why'd anyone say that? As if both are in the process of hope what is the difference between them? The only difference is that one process is hopeful and another is hopeless.

Love is so complicated and hard to understand yet simple and easy going. Separation is that way too.

When the midnight clouds cover the moon , stars aren't visible yet we try to look for it . Yet we try to find it gazing upon the empty sky and calling our separation as clouds. Looking at the mirror when we find ourselves staring for hours , a tear from the eye is what we crave for. If we separate from the one we love the most , we separate from the world .

Finding ourselves in the most random places , we find ourselves lonely even when we're covered with stars named as people , because we want nothing but that moon to take care of us.

We're those blinds who'll leave their sticks the moment given with eyes , similarly we ask god for a return , yet we're incomplete and trying to figure out what went wrong.

Finding each side , spending nights , losing ourselves we gain nothing but a realm into hopeless paths . They say its important to be separated in love , because being away tends to realise that at least once we were loved.

This section is about separation and how it feels to be separated.

CAUSE IT IS YOU

And I accept that, Different colors in the sky,

makes it perfect even if it's not,

and you know what....

You are too made up of different colors,

And your vividness makes you more beautiful to me,

Because you're like that color of the sky,

i'd die looking for And still not wish

to get rid of Till my last breath,

Cause it's just beautiful and that 'it' is you!

VENUS

We often move away from the people we love ,

So did the venus , because there's an ending

To the beginning , where moon loved venus a lot ,

Yet venus moved apart.

In the galaxy of my heart ,

There were several planets moving away from me ,

But the stars in my eyes

Gazed upon venus ,

It rifted away from moon ,

It came back , but if came back to move away.

WINTERS WITHOUT YOU

Hoping to be in your arms ,

It was winter when I was left with winds.

I was sitting on the wall of my terrace ,

When I found no one but a distance between us.

The little scarf on my head was craving to

Move aside and gaze upon those beautiful eyes ,

When they saw new faces but none was yours.

My eyes were slowly dying , The wind was blowing fast .

But there was a place I saw you ,

I closed my eyes but opened the pupils of my heart ,

Beholding your face looking at me for hours.

And I moved away because there was a distance ,

and a winter without you.

HAVING YOU WOULD BE A TRAGEDY

Gazing in the box of my toys,

I saw something you gave.

Closed my eyes, I saw something you took away.

In the ocean of my eyes,

You were drowning I couldn't help my hands were tied.

I was unable to untie them,

It was your words you said,

Without even realising what'd you do after having them back.

I realised you were one of those

unfulfilled wishes of me.

But I'll have to agree that having you would be a tragedy.

BRANCHES OF THE TREE

Some scars were healed and some

healed parts were given scars.

Pain was changed into happiness once

Then happiness was filled with pain.

I never knew a happy starting

Will become a sad but hopeful process.

The day I saw you was a day like spring

But today it feels half dead,

cause October brings cold.

I am waiting to love you even

though I have you in my life.

But today we're like those branches

of a tree which are connected yet not together.

Waiting feels like a dead leaf sometimes,

broken yet beautiful.

Cause it's beautiful, cause you're beautiful.

HER MOON IS HIM

Sitting alone in the middle of the flowers,

listening to songs of insects,

waiting for the clouds to move away.

so that she can count stars and shade

her emotions looking and talking to the moon,

Why me? who even made you fall in love with me..?

asked moon.. When someone moves away,

feeling their presence, the only thing we can do,

we can't do anything except praying.

to see them again, to fill their fragrance into our souls,

and live that moment fully,

I talk to you every night and you listen carefully,

to comfort me with this nature play song,

give me fresh air and you show me

my way with your spark...

All she said..... Nothing but,

She is waiting for her moon to get to her,

clearly she loves the moon and,

her moon is him......

MY DREAMY THOUGHTS.

So I saw you in my dreams yesterday,

I smiled and Chuckled,

but then I got sad cause it's not even close to reality.

"Why are you in my dreams?"

I asked angrily. "I don't even think about you!

Cause you don't want me to "I said rapidly.

cause now you're in my dreams,

I'll think about you, I smiled and Chuckled,

But then I got sad cause its not even close to reality.

I JUST KEPT MY PROMISE

I don't know what to say

I just kept my promise.

Of being here forever.

Memories are forever not people they say.

I say maybe they'Il stay

They've different priorities,

I'm nothing for them.

But what if I am?

Branches on a tree,

Connected yet not together

That's how we're in this Universe.

Just like a wave in

An ocean, you stay I destroy.

That's my mistake,

I never break promises,

That's your mistake,

You break them.

That's our mistake.

That we met, and mistakes aren't to

Be done again.

I don't know what to say I just kept my promise.

BLEEDING HEART

And I say that I'd love to stay alone,

cause my own people stabbed my soul,

I kept on drowning in the air,

But nobody cared.

All I wanted was love,

but they pushed me not concerned,

'cause my own people aren't

my own now, I yelled.

All I can see is god with me,

'cause no one else can see my

heart bleeding on this poetry

I DON'T REMEMBER US ANYMORE

I don't remember us anymore,

But the way my heart drops when

I see your texts, and listen to

your old voice messages.

I could feel the presence of

your soul near me. excites me everytime.

The memories of us are fading

curiously but I can still feel you

holding my small hands, barely

could match yours, for the first and the last time.

As my eyes still crave your eyes to meet,

Only One eye contact that can fix me.

The distance that punished them,

but my soul feels safe when it hears your name.

One last time it says.

I don't remember us anymore,

But hey, I still feel something between us,

So close.

STAR OF MY EYE

Okay so you know?

You are the star in this sky that is

Really really far away from me

But when I look at you In the night

When its even more beautiful

To look at your vividness

Just your little spark makes me happy

Cause that little spark is a hope

A hope that no matter how far you are

At least you're happy

At least you shine even if I am the

One who only watches you in the dark!

And this thought made me smile like an i***t.

DIARY

Moving away the second I knew,

The pupils of my eyes convey.

The pages in my diary flew,

When thou talked about sailing away.

Thee addressed me to find better,

My heart knew depth ness.

The words in my diary shatter,

My words turned into forgiveness.

Can't keep weight on someone's soul,

I screamed, 'cause you did the same.

The pictures in our diary, I scroll,

For what I did, I can't blame.

'cause I can't love anyone, thou knew

My soul felt safe within is you.

ONLY PRESENCE IS LEFT

The jwellery box I have ,

Is filled with a lot of memories within .

That's how I found presence again.

Now that you're gone ,

Finding you in the pours of sand I'm tired.

But I saw you hanging on my neck ,

The ring you gave is still in my neck

Killing me .

I feel like something is scratching my neck.

Pouring my blood towards hate ,

Now when there's nothing I can find ,

Only presence is left.