The phoenix wolf will rise

Rogues for parents

I wake up from tingling moving up and down my arm. I roll away from it, I feel the loss but it was waking me up annoyingly, but feels good at the same time. I hear a chuckle behind me and I open my eyes and remember last night. I turn back around and he is smiling widely at me “I thought it was a dream” he says and wraps me up in his arms again nuzzling my neck and breathing my scent in. I breathe him in as well, it is addicting. ‘try talking’ Acalia pipes up. I shake my head because it was sudden. I sit up and look at him “Der” I start but my throat closes up. Derek rolls around and grabs a glass of water and hands it to me, I take a few sips “Derek” I roach out and smile he smiles back at me. “It is” I start and take a deep breath “Annoying” another breath “As f**k” another breath “not being able” another breathe “to talk,” I say and take another few sips. He laughs “It’s better already than when you tried last night.” He says and I nod “It is” I answer him with a beaming smile. He chuckles “How crazy?” I ask and he chuckles “I was a moody grouchy bastard, you can ask Brad and Chad,” he says “Who?” I ask “Those guys who are always with me,” he says “Ah” I react. I take another few sips, Derek leans closer and pushes my hair to the side “it’s gone” he says and I feel my neck I don’t feel the scars. I set the glass down and dash into the bathroom. I pull the collar from the shirt down “It’s gone” I say and tears appear in my eyes. I lift my shirt up and now cry with sadness. Derek gasps and my head shoots up and I pull the shirt down looking away, tears streaming down my face. He takes in a deep breath and his arms circle around me, he turns me around and pushes my face in his chest while he rubs my back “Shhtt, it will heal” he whispers “Why? I would’ve preferred that gone” I cry out and he lifts me and lays down on the bed cradling me in his arms. I dig my nails in my stomach and start thinking about my legs. I feel an episode coming up “Let go” I tell him. He does immediately and I sit down on the edge of the bed and he lays his hand on my shoulder “Don’t” I say loudly and he retracts his hands. I start whispering “He’s gone, he can’t hurt me anymore, he’s gone, think happy. Think Victoria and Brian, think about when you hug him” I keep repeating that like a chant until the itch to scratch disappears. I breathe out and look up “Who is Brian?” he growls behind me and the itch to scratch is right back reminding me of his voice. “GET OUT” I yell and start chanting again, this time it doesn’t work I scratch my arms, start scratching my stomach, between my legs I feel the blood pouring but it’s not enough. “s**t” he yells and runs out. “GET OUT HERE NOW JULIA” he yells and rushes back in and holds my arms up, I struggle against his hold, he pins me to the ground “What is going on?” Julia asks “I have no idea. She is hurting herself, chanting the same sentence over and over” I hear him tell her “f**k” she says and I hear her runoff. She runs back “she’s having an attack” I hear her say “who are you calling?” Derek asks. “Brian, her guardian,” she says “LET GO!!!” I scream “do as she says,” Julia says “yeah, okay. Yeah. Okay I will bye” she answers. Derek gets off me and I immediately start scratching again, my stomach. “She needs to get it out. When she calms down we have to patch her up and bring her home” she says to Derek. “I can’t watch her do this. Everything in me screams to stop her” he growls out. I tear the pants open because they are in the way and start scratching heavily at my legs “Need it gone. Now” I growl out. I hear Acalia calling me but I ignore her, block her out. Then it grows black for a minute before I feel she pushed me back into my mind “Derek!” she yells and grabs him and kisses him furiously “touch the spots” she mumbles and he touches my stomach while kissing us back. Then he moves his hands to one thigh, after a few minutes the other. “I had to stop her” Acalia cries out “It’s never been this bad,” she says and I agree I was lost, I don’t know why. “If I had known this would happen, I would have done it before her voice” she hiccups out. “SShhtt, it’s all right” Derek soothes her. Julia stands there flabbergasted. “She’s okay now,” Acalia says and Derek nods. She gives me my body back and I look at the mess “Goddamnit. I was past this” I growl out. I get up and walk into the bathroom to take a shower and wash the blood off. I feel no pain from the scratches. I rub the blood off and then I see it, it’s gone. I fall to my knees and cry clutching my stomach, I look between my legs and it’s gone as well “Thank you, thank you” I cry out. ‘I’m sorry I waited’ Acalia replies ‘sorry for panicking’ I tell her ‘it’s all right, I understand’ she says and grows quiet. I wash up properly and realize, I only have the clothes from yesterday. I put them on, walk out and see Derek and Julia waiting. I see the fear in their eyes and I sigh “Sorry, about that” I tell them. “what was that about?” Julia asks. “I can’t tell you,” I tell her and she nods and walks out “Brian knows what happened. You better reassure him,” she says and I nod and smile at her. She nods and walks out. I sigh and grab the phone and call Brian “I’m fine” I tell him when he answers, “Wait, your voice” he says. “Yeah, long story. We’ll talk about it when I get home okay?” I tell him “Okay. Good to hear it” he answers me and I smile “Good, to finally speak,” I say and grin. He chuckles “okay, don’t take too long to come home,” he says “All right” I answer him and hang up. I look at Derek who is sitting on the couch “You triggered it the second time, I had finally calmed down. And in my weakened state, I saw you as the threat” I explain to him “I’m sorry” he says “it’s okay, I just wanted to explain. I don’t blame you” I tell him and smile at him. He looks down “Who did that?” he asks. “my father” I tell him and he growls lowly “he is dead” I tell him and he frowns and then his eyes widen “the man in the woods?” he asks and I nod “Acalia killed him when I turned for the first time. She helped me escape and took me to my current guardians” I explain and he nods. “Guess, I just found you too early. You weren’t ready yet” he smiles sadly “I had no idea what I was,” I tell him and his eyes widen. “Oh my, you’ve been on your own with this all this time?” he asks and I nod. He walks over and hesitates but I smile and he wraps me up in his arms, I let out a sigh. “Explains, why you can’t tell us apart as well,” he says. I hug him tightly needing comfort. He rubs my back “so, what just happened was not the first time?” he asks and I shake my head “no, it started 7 months after I left. I had taken a few weeks to heal from all of his abuse. I hid it as well as I could back at school. But he did something every f*****g day. After half a year I was getting restless. Brian, suggested for me to see a therapist since I still flinched whenever he got close even though I trusted him. Well, a month after seeing the therapist it went downhill. I got constant panic attacks, random moments as well. Eventually, my therapist told me to make a mantra for myself. A few things about the culprit and then happy things, that helped, and eventually, I never had them anymore. Guess seeing the oldest scar of my life gone and seeing those new ones still there triggered it. And when I calmed down and you asked that in your possessive angry voice you triggered a worse one” I explain and he sighs “I’m sorry. The mate bond can be a b***h” he says “I have no idea remember” I say and he chuckles “Well, to start with. You feel the pull to me right?” he asks while looking down at me and I nod at him “The tingles?” he asks and I nod “Well, we also get very jealous. With those emotions and us being a werewolf. Yeah, it’s easy to get a rise out of us. But especially since I am an alpha. My nature makes me even more protective and possessive than a normal wolf.” He explains “hmm. Right” I say and lay my cheek on his chest thinking. “so, I can’t be near any males?” I ask “If you want them to live? Yeah, it wouldn’t be wise. Not until at least we claimed each other. Then it won’t be so bad” he says and rubs my back “Claimed?” I ask and he blushes “well, when we have s*x and mark each other,” he says and I blush “oh” I react and he chuckles “I’m not in a rush” he whispers and I nod thankful for that. “normally when two mates meet it’s usually done within days or hours. But you never knew any of this so I am not going to expect that from you” he whispers “I never even kissed honestly unless you count earlier when Acalia kissed you” I say and blush. He chuckles and lifts my chin, “Adorable” he whispers, and then he presses his lips against mine. I melt in his arms like pudding and he chuckles. I move my mouth over his, no idea what I am doing, kind of copying Acalia. He groans and pulls me closer making me gasp slightly and he pushes his tongue in my mouth. He seeks my tongue out and wrestles with it. Not long after he breaks the kiss and pecks my lips a few times. He chuckles and wraps me up in his arms “All mine” he whispers while hugging me tightly.

“I should get home, my guardians are probably worried as f**k” I tell him and he nods “I’ll take you,” he says and kisses the top of my head. He leads me outside to the car from last night and he drives me home. He walks me to the door and steals another kiss. I open the door and he pulls me behind him while growling “What the f**k?” I say “rogues” he growls and stalks into the house. My parents jump up “s**t” they say. Derek turns in a second and shows his canines and growls at my parents I run to them holding out my arms “STOP IT” I yell at him. His growl slows down but his canines keep showing “They’re my parents!” I yell and they gasp behind me. I had never called them that before, this seems to stomp him out of his stupor and he turns back. holding out his hand for me still glaring at my parents I blush at him being naked and I look away. He looks down “Oh right,” he says, my dad chuckles and throws him a blanket from the couch. he takes it and wraps it around his waist “I need you here now” he growls lowly. I walk over and he wraps his arms around me and sniffs my hair. “we uhm are the ones who contacted you” my parents say. Derek frowns “Why would rogues contact us about a rogue problem?” he growls lowly “Because of her. We know what she is. We’ve sworn to protect her two years ago. we noticed the increase a while ago and decided to contact you so we can keep her safe” they explain “What the f**k are rogues?” I ask “Wolves who do not belong to a pack. They are usually ruthless and don’t care for anything but power” Derek explains. “I don’t belong to a pack,” I tell him. “You belonged to my pack the moment I recognized you as my mate 2 years ago” he explains and I nod. “2 years?” they ask and Derek nods “She disappeared,” he says and realization sinks in. “You hadn’t turned yet when you met him?” they ask “I hadn’t. I ran here when I had my first turn Acalia took me out of there. But wait you have known all this time I was a wolf!? Why didn’t you explain stuff to me!” I yell at them. “Well, in the beginning, we didn’t know. After 3 months we started to smell it” they say “and well, you were not in a good place for a long time and didn’t want to dump more on you” they say “So, you thought it was good to let me handle it on my own!? I goddamn never knew there were others like me! And so goddam many!” I yell and they flinch. “We didn’t know that,” they say and frown. I sigh and wrap my arms around Derek, he rubs my back soothingly. “I’m tired,” I say and drag Derek with me to my room. “hold on,” I say when I leave him in the room. I go to my parents' room grab one of my dad’s shorts walk back and hand them to him. I turn around and I hear the blanket drop to the ground. “You can turn around,” he says and I do. I crawl into my bed and he crawls in with me “you okay?” he asks “It’s a lot” I tell him “I can understand that” he whispers and cocoons me in his arms. Soon I drift off to sleep in his arms, tingles all around me. I wake up from someone massaging my scalp, the tingles are there so I know it’s Derek “Please, tell me these tingles go away eventually” I groan out and he chuckles “They will settle a bit when we mate” he says and I groan “the second time you woke me up with those tingles” I say and push him in a playful manner “sorry love” he whispers and my heart swells at it that he calls me love. “So, any clearance in that head of yours?” he asks “no” I answer him and sigh. “Still mad at them?” he asks “no, more disappointed. It’ll be fine. What normally happens with rogues?” I ask “normally we kill them on sight, but my pack has a policy to not engage with rogues unless they try something,” he says and sighs “So why did you react that way?” I ask “because they were close to my mate,” he says “Oh,” I say “I need to let my pack know that that rule is of utmost importance now,” he says and smiles down at me “your pack?” I ask and he grumbles “I am their alpha, The leader of a wolf pack?” he asks and I nod “Oh,” I say when it clicks “so, the most powerful huh?” I ask “pretty much” he answers me. “can’t you tell them to not kill them?” I ask “no, rogues have for us the same smell. Unlike pack members who each have their individual smell,” he explains “oh,” I say and frown. “I’ll figure something out” he whispers and I nod. I crawl into him more and he wraps his arms around me tighter. My stomach starts to rumble and I groan “hungry love?” he says chuckling “apparently” I answer him. I get up and he follows me, we walk downstairs where my parents are downstairs. I walk into the kitchen ignoring them for now and make a sandwich “You want some?” I ask “Yes, please” he reacts and I smile. Grabbing more stuff for the sandwiches. We eat in silence and enjoy our sandwiches.