Regrets in Love

Chapter 3 - Accept It

"I, Helen Margaret Murray, reject you, Morgan Erik James, as my mate."

All hell broke loose. My brother yelled, "What the f**k!"

Morgan's wolf, howled at the crescent moon.

Zander yelled, "Can you do that?"

"I just did!" I yelled back. "Accept my rejection Morgan!" I was a little concerned because Morgan didn't look good. His eyes were black and he was breathing hard. I didn't feel that great myself, but making me wait two years while he did, God knows what? I couldn' t let that stand. I had to respect myself.

Morgan grabbed my arms and put his nose into my neck at my marking spot. I started screaming, thinking he would mark me without my consent. Travis tried to pull Morgan off. And Zander just kept saying, "What the f**k?" over and over.

Morgan finally released me but instead of accepting my rejection, he shifted and ran away, leaving his lovely suit in shreds on the ground around us.

"Party's over." Travis grabbed my arm and pulled me toward the front of the building.

"What about Rhea? I was her ride!" I say, but he just keeps walking. I look back and Zander is still with us though he seems dazed.

"Zander, will you please tell Rhea that I have to leave. Make sure she gets a ride, please?" I didn't know him that well even though we kind of grew up together. He and Morgan were always standoffish growing up. I always thought they felt superior to the rest of us but Zander isn't, acting like that now. Maybe it was just Morgan's influence? Obviously, Morgan is an embecile.

Zander finally looked me in the eyes. "Why did you reject the alpha? I thought all the girls wanted high-ranked wolves." Then again, maybe I was right about them seeing themselves as superior. Why else would he ask such a question? My brain feels like it's playing a ping ping game, going back and forth over and over.

"If you must know, he told me he wouldn't accept me as his mate for at least two years." I was still appalled that Morgan had the audacity to think I would wait while he sowed his wild oats and made me the laughing stock of the entire pack.

"He wasn't planning to mark you? Why did he want to wait?" Asked Travis, incredulous.

"He said he wasn't ready. He obviously wanted to screw around. That the two of you still hadn't found mates and it was too soon." God, I felt the tears were close now. I need to get out of here, pronto.

Zander looked shocked as well, "He's a fool, Helen. I'd given anything to be mated by now." He sounded wistful and he was looking at me strangely. There was a pull to him that I hadn't felt earlier. My wolf was looking at him differently too.

"Yeah, waiting for your fated is a b***h," Said Travis. I wish their sentiments made me feel better. It just let me know I was right to reject Morgan. He's a dumbass. "But I think you may have rejected him too soon. You should have given him some time to think about what he wants."

"You think I should have waited two years for him to f**k every she-wolf in the pack? No one would accept me as Luna after that. I'd a a lughing stock. Anyway, he didn't accept my rejection. I'm still bound to him." What kind of crap is that? I rubbed my chest, my heart hurt.

"We will find him and talk to him tonight, Helen," Zander said. His voice was filled with emotion.

"Guys, he doesn't want me. He rejected me first." God hurts to think about it. My mate didn't want me. "I have to hope I have a second chance out there. He's not making me look like a fool. I'm not giving him the chance. There's no going back now." He's too much of a risk. I had to reject him before I fell in love with him.

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By the time Travis got me home, it was late. Mom and dad were in bed. I was fine with that. I went to my room and got ready for bed. I took a hot shower, washed the product out of my hair and wiped the makeup off my face. I came out into my bedroom in a robe with a towel on my head and almost screamed bloody damn murder.

Morgan was sitting on my bed. "What the hell are you doing in my room?" I whisper yelled so my parents couldn' hear me.

"I need to talk with you." He didn't look good. He looked a bit tortured. I think his wolf was giving him hell.

"Are you going to accept my rejection?" The longer this went on, the more it hurt.

"Helen, listen, what if we made a compromise?" He sounded a little desperate.

"What do you want me to compromise about?" Like hell I will.

"If you take back your rejection, we can date like a regular couple. I won't see any other girls, you won't dress the way you did tonight and stay away from other guys. I'll mark you a year from today." He changed his tone and spoke in a neutral almost condescending tone, like I was hard of understanding.

"What is your reasoning for not marking me this very instant?" Something was wrong with this picture.

"Like you said earlier, we don't know each other. I thought I had time to get used to leading the pack before I took a mate." He sounded reasonable but I think he had ulterior motives. I didn't trust him.

"I'm going to be honest with you, Morgan. I think you are lying. I think you plan to sleep around." I watched him carefully to see if I was right. He says nothing.

"When I first got to the party tonight, I smelled your scent but it disappeared. Where did you go?" It was completely gone like he had left the room, but his best buds were still in the room.

He was silent and I continued with my theory. "Then you came back and the mate bond hit you. Your jealousy had you pulling me out of the room, but you are still thinking about f*****g other girls." I know I'm right. " I think you don't want to stop. You want to have your cake and eat it too." Stupid f*****g cliche.

This time I waited. He stalked towards me and caged me against the nearest wall. I felt his heat. I could still feel the bond pulling me into him. Why is it still so strong? I know it would have been so good between us, I thought as I resisted him.

"You are mine. What I do is of no consequence to you. I'm alpha, I'm ruler. You will do as I say. Take back your rejection." His voice was deep and demanding. But I was chosen as his equal and I wouldn't cower.

My first instinct was the right one. Morgan is only out for Morgan. I'm not afraid. I could call my dad and he'd be here in a heartbeat. As it was, Travis would be here in a moment. I mind linked him just after I saw Moran on the bed. I just need to stall.

"See that is where you are wrong. If f*****g random sluts is more important than your mate, I don't want you. See what you did before you met your mate is of no consequence. What you did after, is very significant. You rejected me first." Morgan slammed his fist into the wall. I schoffed. I'm done here. "If you want to tear down this pack by not having your mate by your side, that is your choice." I hear more than see Travis racing towards the window that Morgan used to get inside. I have to spit this out fast.

"This is what I have to say about that, Alpha Morgan", I said with a sneer.

"I, Helen Margaret Murray, renounce the Black Night Pack and Alpha Morgan Erik James as my alpha."

Morgan clutched his chest and went down on his knees. I stepped back out of his reach when he began to howl. I hear another howl in the distance but don't have time to wonder about it.

I watched my brother's face fall as he stepped over the window sill. "What did you do, sis?" he asked, shock registering on his face. I'm sure he felt my connection to the pack sever. I heard my parents rushing down the hall.

"I did what I had to do." Morgan howled again. His wolf was in pain. Too bad the human side was a d**k.

I waited for my parents to come in to explain everything. They can't stop me. I'm legally an adult. I would go to the city and get a job. I wanted nothing to do with this pack anymore, I had to get away.

Morgan finally stopped howling. "Accept my rejection, Morgan, now." He looked at me with sorrow-filled eyes. He appeared almost as saddened as my family.

"Helen, please...."

"Morgan, you made your choice. Accept it!"

"I, Morgan Erik James, accept your rejection, Helen Margaret Murray."

Then I was gone.