Breaking The Code

An Alpha's purpose is to protect and grow her pack. The protect part, I have no issue with. It's the grow part with which I disagree. The Code states that 'An Alpha must produce cubs of their own with any other member of the pack.' The problem is, I don't want to produce cubs with any of the males in my pack. In fact, I don't want to produce cubs with any male period. I know that, because of my sexuality, I should have let one of my brothers win the fight for the Alpha position after our mother retired. They certainly have no issue with producing cubs with any of the females in our pack. But Vilkas, my older brother, isn't comfortable with making tough decisions, especially under pressure. When Mother retired, he gladly let Maccon and I battle for the position. Maccon's problem is that he's too reckless. He has little focus and a great urge for bloodshed. He would lead the pack into war with our neighbour packs in order to gain territory to feed his power hunger. His recklessness lack of focus is what also helped me win against him. He is always so focussed on attacking, that he doesn't bother defending. A dangerous trait for an Alpha to possess. Gayness is not a dangerous trait, but rather a foolish one. Alphas must produce their owns cubs for the sake of the pack. A wolf can only be Alpha by blood and no potential Alphas could mean destruction for the pack once the current Alpha dies - given that one cannot retire without potentials in line. I have considered pretending to be straight and producing cubs with some male from the pack - Rendall would be the best, given his strength and athleticism which he could pass on to our children - but werewolves take the 'til death do us part' vow in marriage quite literally. And cubs cannot be produced in unmarried wolf couples - yet another Code I disagree with.  Every time I see a beautiful woman, whether wolf or human, I must force myself to look away. I remind myself of the code and the destruction I could bring unto my pack if I act on my lesbian impulses. So far, I've been able to keep my sexuality in check and have managed to convince the members of my pack that I am straight, but don't feel connected enough to any of the males in the pack. I've been able to keep away from women who make me feel tingly and excited. That is, until Poppy moved into town.