Chandler's point of view:
It's ok to be happy, I got here. I did it. I'm going to the Braves. Yet, I feel empty. She's not here with me to celebrate. These moments though they were once all consuming are becoming easier to deal with. It's been nearly 7 months.
The Choices I made on Christmas will haunt me until the end of time. But the 9 months prior to that day were unbearable, and I know that wasn't just for me. It was constantly trying to get schoolwork done, baseball, fiends, teammates, family... and her. It became too much for me. The one thing I tried SO hard to make work in those months when we were traveling and playing the sport, we loved was my relationship with Whitney. Around Thanksgiving it hit me like a ton of bricks - this isn't going to continue to work like that. So, I
