Unbreak my heart 💔

Chapter 1 I have just been transferred from my former high school to another one to complete grade 11 and then do grade 12. Things haven't been moving smooth ever since my suspension from my previous high school. First was the series of trouble and stress my parents went through just to get a good school that will admit in grade 11 third semester. It was a struggle but they eventually got a school for me. I was nervous about moving in but I still went anyways. My dad dropped me off on Wednesday morning with all the necessary things I will be needing and he left. Now I am to stay as a hostel student. It shouldn't be that difficult considering the fact that throughout my life I have been in boarding school. From grade 1 so yes I can live without my parents. The first week passed by smoothly and trouble started arising from the second week. At that time and made a male friend who is coming from the same place with me. His name is Max. We started started as friends but rumours wouldn't let us continue that friendship although there was feelings attached. I had to do what was right by letting go of him so people will stop saying bad statement about him because of me. Rumours, both fake and real started coming from my previous high school. The first rumour that came was that I got suspended from my previous school because I was caught by a junior girl having s*x with a guy in class. My world came crushing at my feet. I became the topic of not just my class but everywhere. It became depressing. Like I have no one to talk, no shoulder to cry on, nobody to comfort me. That was when he showed up. I never liked him from the beginning. I have heard series of stories about him about how cruel he is and how much of a play boy he is. I didn't want to get close to this kind of person. But he was meant to be my friend. We started talking when we met during mid semester break at a friend's place. We exchanged i********: details and we got talking. Before I knew it we became close. And when we started getting attached, he noticed and drew my attention to it when I was home on break and we were chatting. "I hurt everybody that is close to me and I am scared that I will hurt you too and I don't want that". He said to me. Love is really blind because at that point I didn't care. All I wanted was to be with him. I didn't care about his warning. To me he understands me, he speaks my love language. Attention (Quality time) and I wouldn't trade that for anything in the world. I found it comfortable talking to him and I feel relieved after discussing a disturbing issue with him. I was in to him. I feel sick when I don't see him and worse is seeing him and not being able to talk to him or hug him for an entire day. He is not a boarding student meaning I can't see him whenever I needed to. Yes he had a lot of things he did in the past that were not appealing but I just took as everybody make mistakes and that you made a mistake doesn't really mean that it is the end of the world. Rumours of course did not stop spreading but then ii was not longer getting to me. I got series of friends who kept on stabbing me right on back. Some of them were not even my friends. They will post my pictures and caption it with humiliating statements. Jordan continued to be a sweetheart towards me. Other times during moment of weakness when I hear a terrible rumour about me, I would sit alone and cry and one time Jordan met me crying and he made me promise him that I will never cry because of any rumour being said about me. I made that promise to him and we went ahead to talk about other things. He really was a sweetheart and had a way of making me happy. Our type of friendship was not the distracting type, we encourage each other to study harder. We help each other study, we had a lot in common and most importantly our relationship wasn't s****l at all. I cherished every single time I have spent with him. Whenever I got up from sleep, I will thank God for his life and whenever I am going to sleep, I will pray to God to keep him safe and to watch over everything he does. Then I did not know how heart break felt. It was something I read in books, watch in movies and listened to in music. And as time goes by, the rumours started fading away and I began to get accepted by my mates and juniors. That did not make me forget about Jordan at all because to me he was still a real one, the one who did not leave my side even for a second. We kept moving together, always making progress in our friendship. Jordan with time became very social and started associating with others other than me. For someone who loves attention, I am also a jealous person. I get jealous when Jordan spends more 3 minutes talking to a girl. Like what on earth are they talking about for this long? I will get angry and give him attitude for the entire day.He has a way of convincing and clearing all the negative doubts I have towards him. Just two minutes conversation and a lot of "I am sorry" will do the trick. After school, he would walk me down to my hostel side, he would hug me and then let me enter my hostel. All this while, I didn't know I was deceiving myself, I didn't know that the feelings was one sided. I couldn't see it . It just came from nowhere and broke me. It shattered me into tiny pieces.