It Was Impossible Not To Fall In Love

Chapter Eleven

I have to stop because this kiss is going deeper but I love what his hands are doing to me. He is running them on my cheeks which gives me goosebumps.

“Love..we can’....” I didn’t even finish. He draws me back to his lips. What should I do? The kissing is just WOW on it’s own. I push him back.

“We can’t we have to stop” I say.

He looks at me with eyes I can’t decipher. It’s more like he wants to pick me up and have me here or maybe it’s me cause honestly I want to taste him just once but how will he look at me after that? How is our relationship going to be? What if he thinks of me as a slut? I don’t want a relationship. What if one gets attached after that? It’s just too complicated.

“I have to go. Sorry about that” He says.

“Like before?” I ask. I did not mean to say that.

“What?”

“Nothing. Safe travel” I say. There’s honestly s****l tension between us but I have to control myself and he better do that too.

“You are such a good kisser” he says. So random.

“You are not bad yourself.” I say. He chuckles.

“You are so corky.” He says

“Thank you I know” I say which makes him laugh.

“Wow. At first you failed to say ‘thank you’” He says. Didn’t he say he’s leaving?

“That’s because I already know I am a good kisser and corky. I hope you took notes of the kiss” I say. He gasps softly

“So I am a bad kisser?” He asks

“You are not bad” I smile into that. He is good it gives me stomach flashes but he will have a big head

“Wow okay mam. May I please be the student” He asks. Okay this is not where I wanted this small talk to come to.

“Unfortunately I don’t teach you just learn on the go” I say. I open the door for him. He needs to leave cause the tension that is in here is a lot and we just can’t.

He finally leaves. I fix the lounge and take other things to the kitchen. I go take a shower then hop in my pjs and get in bed with a book. It’s still early to sleep but in the next hour I’ll sure do. I hope Travis made it home safe. I read my book and my phone rings.

“Hello”

“Hi Tali please don’t hang up. I just need few minutes of your time” He says

Somebody please call pest control cause this pest won’t let me rest. What does Dan really want from me? I moved on can’t he do the same. I honestly can’t deal right now

“I am listening”

“I know you have been telling me to stop calling you but I can’t Tali. May we please meet so we can talk properly” He says. What am I going to talk to him about. He is the one who wants to talk

“You mean you are the one who wants to talk cause honestly there’s nothing I want to say to you except that you need to stay away from me” I say and hang up. He calls countless times and I end up blocking the number.

I wake up to someone banging my door so bad. Who could that be? at 3 am on a Sunday.

“I am coming” I shout walking to the door. I am on my short Pjs. I open and two police officials are standing at my door. Okay!!!

“Hello Mam. We would like you to follow us to the hospital. Your colleague was involved in an accident and rushed there” He says

OMG?!! Which colleague are they talking about and how did they find my address. I ask them for three minutes to go and change. I didn’t even ask the name of the colleague what if it’s a setup k********g. I hop in the car and we drive to Medi clinic. I am sitting in the waiting area. Travis is the colleague they are talking about.I hope he is not badly injured. I wonder what happened and how he got into an accident.

“Travis Patton ” The nurse shouts. I stand up and walk to her. She takes me to the ward and I find him eating sweets. That’s his weakness. He smiles when he sees me. I am such a mess I only brushed my teeth and changed clothes.

“Hi what happened” I ask as soon as I am close to the bed.

“I don’t know. I remember driving back home from the bar and I found myself here” He says. So in other words he was drunk. I look at him in disbelief.

“How did the police officials know where I stay” I ask

“I gave it to them. They needed someone close to me. I tried calling Brian but he didn’t pick up. I am sorry they woke you up so early.” He says with his husky deep voice

“I see. So you were drinking while you were drunk Love?”

“Eh may we please not get there” He says

“How badly hurt are you” I ask

“Not bad just that my knee cap shifted a bit and also I have this banging headache” He says

“Okay. So you will be using crutches?” I ask and he nods. I have never heard him speak about his extended family. I know nothing about siblings and the parents.

“Did you come with your car” He asks

“No, I came with the police car. Are you being discharged today?”

“Yes. I thought maybe you came with your car. I’ll try Brian once again” He dials his number and still nothing

“Let’s just take an Uber to my house then I’ll drive you to your place with my car” I say. That is the only option I have now or he can ask the paramedics to drive him.

We Uber to my house. I open the curtains. I plug in water for coffee and I am still sleepy. It’s now 6:30

“Do you also want coffee?” I ask him. He’s sitting on the couch with one leg up on the couch. Too comfortable this one.

“No I’ll skip coffee. May I please just rest my eyes for an hour then I’ll leave” he asks. I agree because I am also sleepy so I am not making the coffee anymore. I fetch him a fleece and throw it on him.

“Why?” I ask. He needs to tell me what pushed him to drink that much and decide to drive afterwards.

“Can we not talk about this baby. It was a sloppy mistake” He says

“No it was not Travis you are never careless and I am not saying you are perfect but you just up to date with other things so why” I ask as I sit next to him and put his leg on top of me. Am inches away from him.

“I have a lot I am dealing with. Today would have been my sister's 21st birthday” He says rubbing his head roughly

“So you thought drinking will ease what you feel? Babe pain wants us to experience it, to feel it and go through it. As much as you will want to numb it away you are hurting yourself. Do you think your mom would be happy with how you are celebrating her, no she wouldn’t. You could’ve gone to her graveyard and cleaned or put her flowers or do what she loved doing, not this drinking and driving that you did. Have you for a second thought about Ariana? No because you were selfish” I say pissed

“I just couldn’t handle the pain. It seems like my life just came crumbling at the thought of how I lost her. Next month is my late wife’s birthday when will I…” he stops after what he just said. So he was married?

“What happened to your wife?” I ask. He explains to me what happened to her. Sad story and he loved her.

“Is it the reason why you didn’t have time for Ari?”

“Not really that i didn’t have time for her just that sometimes she reminds me so much of her mother. She has both features of my sister and her mom.” He says. It must be tough looking at someone who looks exactly like people you wish could still be with you.

“I am really sorry for your loss. What I am going to say might not help but you need to visit their graves and talk what’s in your heart out. Tell them how much you miss them and all. Allow yourself to feel the pain and not suppress it by drinking. Men are allowed to cry. What society has taught us is crap and it should be stopped. We all have emotions and have to go through them” I say.

He is looking at me sternly. I wonder what’s going on in his mind. He tells me more about his sister how much they got along and about the wife. They were both great people. He tells me also about why he hasn’t settled again. It must be tough imagine being his woman and be called with someone’s else name while making love. I love the fact that he is making progress of letting her go. He needs to if he wants a relationship like he says.

“So tell me about your ex” he asks. Huh wasn’t this about him? My phone rings

“Please don’t hang up” The caller says before I say hello. It can only be one person

“What do you want Dan” I ask. He is really getting into my nerves because I block him and he uses another number.

“May I please see you tomorrow. You can choose the place you want us to meet” He says with his pleading voice.

“I don’t want to meet up with you Dan. Whatever that you want to say just say it on the phone and stop calling me after that” I say with an annoyed voice.

This guy is going to turn me into a crazy woman because what he’s doing now is not so cool. It’s been two full weeks since he’s been calling.

“Look I can’t say it over the phone and trust me it’s serious and matter of life and death. He says. Should I go meet up with him?

“I’ll decide on the date and where bye” I hang up without giving him a chance to talk.

All along Travis has been looking at me. I will just conclude that he loves eye contest because he does it without fail. I turn to look at him, still his leg is on top of me.

“Why do you love staring so much?” I ask. He chuckles. The sexy one

“I don’t just that you always find me turning to look at you” He says.

“Okay if you say so” I say. Leaning back on the couch

“I asked you a question” He says. Oh I thought he forgot about it

“May I please tell you when I am ready?” I say

“There’s never a right time to something babe” He says

“I promise you won’t ask that day. I will just tell you”

“Is he the one who was calling you now?” He asks. He sounds so concerned. I nod. He stretches his back and wiggles his shoulders.

“Are you in pain or is everything good” I ask. I don’t see is sleeping it’s already to 9 am.

“My shoulders are just tense and my back is painful” he says yawning.

“Do you want a massage” I ask. He looks at me briefly.

“If you don’t mind” He says.

I instruct him to take off his T-shirt if he doesn’t mind. I stand to fetch basin, towels, massaging oil, coarse salt and plug hot water. Oh Lord!!. I find him shirtless. This man has the finest body, funny enough he doesn’t attend gym. He’s tattoo on his left rib. I put the things on the table and lay the towel on the couch.

“Okay. Lay down this side” I say and he does as instructed.

I fetch the water and pour it on the basin with the coarse salt. I deep in the towel in the hot water and pat it a little then run it on his torso. He flinched a bit. I know it’s kinda hot but he will thank me later. My sister does this to my dad. After some time I put on the massaging oil and run my hands. I don’t know if that was a moan or groan but I am turned on. I continue moving my hands on his torso. I move to the shoulder and do my thing. I massage his shoulders gently, he puts his hand on top of my left hand and he says I must stop a bit.

“Am I hurting you?” I ask. He says no just that…. Well that’s the answer he gave me “Should I continue or stop?” I ask.

“You can continue but be a bit rough” He says

I continue massaging him. I try to be rough but I am not familiar with it. Finally I am done I use the towel to wipe him off the oil and stand to take the thing back to the bathroom. I look for new toothbrush and bathing towel and put it on top of the basin. I go back to the lounge and find him still laying.

“I left toothbrush and cloth for you in the basin. You may go and rinse your face while I make breakfast” I say.

“Okay Just give me a minute.”

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The things that Litha is doing to Travis are unexplainable. He is lost for words. He has never felt his way before even with his wife, yes the bond was there but what he is feeling now can’t be compared.

At first he thought the kiss was just meant to be like that and now the second one he got more electrified than the first one. There’s this chemistry that is just there and he is not sure if he is the one feeling all this or Litha too does. Right now he can’t even stand because he has a b***r and it doesn’t look like it’s going to go away anytime soon, mind you he’s wearing track pants.

He finally gets up as Litha is busy in the kitchen with breakfast. He walks to the bathroom that he is directed to and gets there. He brushes his teeth and cleans his face. He then heads back after peeing and making sure the b***r is not there.

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