Chances being with you

Nightmare

I suddenly woke up. I am breathing heavily, and I am filled with sweat. As usual, I had another nightmare. I hate nightmares.

I wiped the sweat on my face with a tissue and looked at the digital clock near my bed.

It's 3 am.

I suddenly heard my stomach rumbling. I am hungry. I went to the kitchen to eat something, but the fridge was empty.

Oh yes, I forgot that we would close tomorrow. So there is nothing inside the fridge.

I went back to my room.

I know that I still have a 1000 peso bill.

I grabbed my wallet.

I can grab some food for myself and maybe some snacks too.

I wore my favorite hoodie and slowly went outside because I didn't want to wake my Mom up.

As I went outside, I could feel the air was cold. Not a single person can be seen on the streets. Just some stray dogs sleeping.

Luckily, 7eleven is open. I went inside and bought myself a hotdog.

I saw a familiar person with long curly hair sitting on the bench outside of 7eleven. As I looked closely, I realized that it was Augustine.

What is she doing here?

I watched her eat a donut as she frowned. She looks depressed or something.

Should I approach her? She and I were not that close, but she obviously needed someone to talk to.

I nervously went near her, and I also bought a coffee.

No…

I am too shy. I should probably mind my own business and just leave.

But it was too late, and she saw me.

"Hey, Alex!"

She let out a fake smile. I know that it's fake because I always look at her smiles.

"Hello."

I shyly responded. Hiding the extra coffee that I bought for Augustine.

"Can we talk? I am a bit lonely here."

Sure, she can talk to me—HA?

My crush wants to talk to me?

Am I dreaming or what?

I sat beside her and nodded. Pretending that I am not nervous at all.

I gulped, and I could feel the sweat flowing on my face.

"Hey. Why are you sweating?"

I did not realize that she was already looking at me.

Damn. What should I do?

Uhm, yeah. The coffee. Give her the coffee Alex.

"Huh? Ah. It's just too hot here."

I said as I pretended to fan myself.

Alex, you forgot about the coffee.

"Remove your jacket then."

She chuckled. She might notice that I have a crush on her.

"Uhm, it's fine."

I handed the coffee to her to change the topic.

My heart is beating so fast and loud.

This is so humiliating.

"T-thank you."

Why am I stuttering?

Alex, stop gay panicking.

I can smell her rose-scented perfume, and I am way too near her again.

Well, this is too much for me to handle.

"Why are you thanking me? I should be the one thanking you. Dumbass."

Augustine just chuckled and drank the coffee I gave her.

I scratched my head because I just realized that I was overreacting.

Maybe if someone could hear my thoughts, they would tell me that I am a simp.

Well, that would be very embarrassing.

"So, tell me, Augustine. Why are you out here? Alone? Do you live nearby?"

Augustine shook her head, and I could see that something was bothering her.

"My feet lead me here. To the café where I first met you. I don't know, but talking to you makes me calm."

I could feel my cheeks burning.

What are you saying, Augustine? Is this supposed to be a confession?

"Ha… Maybe you're just sleepy."

Augustine shook his head again.

"Nope. I am fine. You make me calm. Can we be friends?"

Ah. Friendzoned. I almost forgot that we were not that close for Augustine to like me.

Alex… You forget that not everyone is gay like you.

Augustine might be straight.

"Y-yes. We can be friends."

"Good. Then I can do that."

Augustine suddenly grabbed my waist to hug me.

She hugged me so tight that I couldn't breathe.

Her hugs feel so warm. This feels so good and comforting.

I suddenly felt something wet on my shoulders.

I looked at Augustine, and I realized that she had started crying.

"Are you okay?"

She did not let any word out of her mouth, and she just shed tears.

I rubbed her back to assure her that I was there.

How I wish I could make Augustine happy.

What is the thing that makes her happy?

Think Alex, Think!

I looked around my surroundings until I found something.

I wiped Augustine's tears and stood up.

"Come with me."

I grabbed her hand and dragged her on the way to the cafe.

"What are we doing here inside your cafe?"

"Let's do something."

I smiled and took an eco bag with me. I went outside and Augustine followed me.

" We're going somewhere."

I started my engine and smiled at Augustine.

"Where are we going?"

"Just ride on my motorcycle. Even just for a little while. I want to make you happy."

Augustine did not ask anymore questions and just rode on my motorcycle.

Its still dark and I am pretty sure that we will get there by dawn.

I know for sure that I like her. I don't know if this is the appropriate thing to do. To meddle in her life. But I don't want her to be sad and I want to be part of her life forever. I want to make this person feel that she is not alone in this world.

I am still unsure whether she will be part of my life romantically, but at least I am her friend now.

Its a good start. I am willing to take that small chance. This is better than not trying at all.

"I like you Augustine."

I whispered as I drove. I know that she will not hear what I just said because of the noise of my vehicle, but deep inside my heart I want her to hear it.