UNCERTAIN LOVE

My sleep was disturbed by the glimmering of the sun that shone through my white curtain. I tried falling asleep on my new super soft, newly gotten bed until a shock came through my body as I remembered that I had a job to apply for. oh nooooooo!!! I yanked my self up and I rushed to take a bath. I stepped out of the bathroom into my carefully furnished room, themed with my favourite colour blue. 20 minutes gone, oh yes! am almost done. I wore my carefully placed clothes as today I am expected to dress MORE carefully than ever aaaaaahhhh!!!!! ; one of the things I hated, dressing to full coverage. I looked at the clock filled with fulfilment when I realized I was 10 minutes late, I ran out of the house. Walking on the streets filled with unknown people, the sun smiling, roses looking lovely as usual, friends jogging or just taking a coffee and ME looking more lonely. Then it dropped on me, that deep depression that always come when I remembered how I've been tricked by several by people in my journey of searching for a better life. I have never dated a guy before, I wouldn't cause I'm not ready to face that heartbreak that shatters the hope of smile and sends their inner most romantic emotions to hell. I'd rather be alone than have someone suspect my every offline or busy'd call for cheating. I've never tried but I know I'll be awful in a relationship. I'm known in my home town to be very cute, wise and charming. At the age of 16 I won the hearts of all men and women in my neighborhood with my diligence, intelligence and hard work. All the young guys claimed "destined to be together" to me as I was best described as shaped. I was always given scary glances of admiration which at first disturbed me but I got used to it as it the life of a girl. Even as I am walking some dudes silence their conversation to stare at me. "just ignore them and enjoy the attention" mom would say, and trust me that's the best way or you just return the stare until they are tired or confused. Every week the same routine is repeated and that is, looking for a job, getting employed and then get fired due to the acclaimed distraction I cause even when I'm not at fault, the working dude just couldn't mind his business he just kept staring until he remixed up some papers which the company made a great loss for and then he blamed me when he was questioned and I beared the consequences of being "too" attractive. I came to a part of the street, the most busiest street of all where business men and women would rush to work. More than hundred in a lane but no one bumps into anyone. I ran through corners when I finally arrived at my destination "THE SURMOUNT"