Vulnerable

Episode 19

*** Warning: A few Cuss words ***

I felt this excruciating pain tug my heart and even though the kiss lasted for only a few seconds it seemed like forever and I felt betrayed.

Tears welled up in my eyes, I don't know why it hurts but it friggin hurts.

Why would Derrick let her kiss him.

He told me he has nothing to do with her yet he allows her throw herself all over him.

Derrick pushed her off him but he wasn't violent about it and I hated that.

"What the f**k is wrong with you ??" I heard Derrick growled.

I started making way for anywhere but where Derrick and Julian were.

I shouldn't let this hurt me.

I give Julian the victory by getting all sad in front of her.

So, I wiped off my tears so that Julian wouldn't see how much her actions affected me.

I pulled off my best nonchalant look as I walked out. Even though my heart felt like it was getting ripped off.

The pain was so consummating that I almost lost a step when I heard Derrick call.

"Audrey!"

I composed myself and increased my walking pace. I made way to the place that served as a solace to me right before I almost got r***d.

I had no choice, it was the only place that my mind could think of.

I rushed up the stairs with the Library as my destination.

I didn't care if it was almost time for the morning assembly.

I just wanted to hide and cry where no one would see me.

It's something I always did whenever my father rains cusses at me.

I got to the library and quickly opened it, using the spare key in my school bag.

I saw Derrick approaching me, he seemed to have been walking on a fast pace too. So, I quickly turned the door lock open before Derrick could get to me.

I didn't want to face him right now.

I wasn't ready to face him.

The door opened and I quickly rushed in. I was just a tiny bit late to stop him from getting in as he waged the door and I couldn't forcefully close it because Derrick has more physical strength than I do.

"Please go away" I said, giving up in my attempt to forcefully close the door

"Just hear me out"he said in between sighs.

"I don't want to hear you out! I saw what I saw and there is nothing you can tell me about it. Just please leave. I really need time to myself right now" I pleaded because I was this close to tearing up again and I so don't want him seeing that.

"You saw what you saw and you can tell that I wasn't at fault!" He said almost in a yell

"Are you yelling at me right now???" I asked. My eyebrows arched in question and my eyes narrowed down at him.

His voice lowered as he said,

"I'm sorry, I'm not trying to yell at you. I'm just trying to explain to you that I wasn't expecting to get ambushed by Julian. I was simply taking my wallet from the car, when I did that and closed the car door, I was instantly ambushed in Julian's crab-like hug. I Honestly did not mean to hurt you and before my head could process what was happening, she kissed me and you would notice I immediately pushed her out and got angry at her actions" Derrick explained.

"It doesn't change the fact that the image is stuck in my head and it's the only thing I can think of when I look at you! You did not act fast enough! You should have pushed her away immediately she hugged you." I paused and nodded my head.

This rant is useless

"Just leave! I don't want to even look at you right now" I said in defeat

"Audrey, please... Try to understand me, you know I would never try to hurt you intentionally. It's the last thing I would ever do to you." He said and I could see the flash of pain written in his eyes as he fought between showing his pained emotions and staying all manly and emotionless

I didn't know what to do.

I was beginning to feel bad for him

But then, the thoughts of Julian ambushed my thoughts and I decided to take a sit on one of the library chairs.

"Audrey?" Derrick called

"I would really appreciate if you stay quiet or leave, preferably. I really need some time to myself"I said quietly.

There were no words spoken after that.

Derrick didn't leave. He just took a sit and watched me the whole time as I decided to take out my Chemistry workbook and did some Organic Chemistry workings.

The bell rang, signifying the first class of the day which was Physics.

We walked to class with him maintaining a few distance behind me and taking a sit behind me in class.

The whole of Today's class went in a breeze and there was no trace of Julian in sight.

Tomiwa and I had a few discussions here and there from how her meeting with her mum went to how Derrick called to ask about me to how she spent the night at her boyfriend's place and to how she watched the whole ordeal of what happened this morning with Julian and Derrick.

She seemed to find the look on Julian's face very comical when Derrick shoved her off.

With the way Tomiwa mimicked her expression, I couldn't help but laugh about it too.

I wanted to tell Tomiwa that Derrick and I were now a couple but then, I didn't.

I'm still upset about the whole Julian thing that happened this morning.

I have never felt that much heartbreak before.

Maybe, I'm overreacting.

But I feel hurt and that's one feeling I'm very certain about right now.

A few minutes till the end of school lectures today, Julian walked into the class.

And as usual, she walked to Derrick!

Urgh! She is beginning to get on my nerves.

She leaned on Derrick's desk, obviously to disclose her cleavage.

"Can you please give me a ride home? I forgot to come with my transport money" she said

"Then Trek home!" Derrick said

"You know this school's distance is very far from home. You remember my house, right? We have so many memories there, don't we?" She asked saying the last words in a sultry manner.

"Shut the f**k up!" Derrick said with a sense of anger in his tone.

"Don't tell me you have forgotten. You used to tell me how you loved every inch of me, Just Like that time we had that mind blowing ... s*x" She said as she whispered the last part.

Of course, I could hear it because Derrick was seated right behind me.

Wait!

Derrick and Julian have had s*x ???

Sex is very intimate and I know it's something you do with someone you have deep feelings for.

My heart tugged again and the pain just keeps hitting me harder.

I quickly put my books into my bag

"Tomiwa can I please go home with you? Not the hotel suite, please?" I pleaded.

"Urhm... Sure?" Tomiwa said, totally understanding. we stood up in a bid to leave and just then the school bell rang, signifying end of today's school lectures.

I hastened my footsteps as I didn't want Derrick noticing I already left till it was too late.

But sadly on getting to the school hallway,

"Audrey!" I heard Derrick call me again.

Deja Vu

He was quick to catch up with me.

He placed his hands on my shoulder and at that moment, his hands sent me hot feels not in the sensual way but in the provocative way.

"DON'T TOUCH ME!" I said it in the meanest and coldest way I could.

"Just hear me out"Derrick pleaded.

"Hear you out??" I asked

"Yes" he replied

"Look, Derrick it's only been less than 24 hours of us getting into what I believe is a relationship and I have experienced more hurt than I have ever experienced in my entire life. I can't live this way and I believe my life was way more painless than it is at this moment. So, please go back to Julian and keep consumating yourself in the erotic feelings that come with good s*x and good time. I'm so Done. I can't do this anymore and please do me a favor by leaving me alone!" I stated

And honestly, I have no idea where those words came out.

I looked around and we have made quite a scene.

Shit!

And wait, I just openly disclosed we were in a relationship.