CRUSH

Finally Got A Contract With Him

I woke up this morning with a terrible headache. Ouch! What's making my head ache? I was hale and hearty just the day before. Anyways, I managed to get up from my bed to get ready for work.

Monday! Urghh! I hate Mondays! They're always so stressful. How I wish every Mondays can be my off but whatever, here I am on a Monday morning preparing for work.

I kinda slept peacefully, and since my breakup with Damian, it's like a load has just been lifted off my chest.

Of course, Damian's a load!

He never gave me peace of mind and always weighs me down. But now, I'm free from him. I'm free from worrying too much about his next move. He's free to do whatever he likes with any girl, I don't care.

I stepped out from the hot shower and patted-dried my body. I managed to get dressed up because this headache is a killer. After that, I went to the fridge to get something light to eat and drink.

Today is another day to drool over Crush. Haha. But why would she be in the picture? Anytime I think of those two times I saw Crush with her, I'm always uneasy.

I'm jealous already. She couldn't even wait for Crush to settle down in the company before shooting her shot. Or if it's Crush who shot his shot, whatever!

Damian. How the hell did Damian and Crush know each other? Damn. Or did they just greet randomly? But who greets a stranger randomly in a restaurant like that? I'm very sure that they know each other and I'm gonna find out. How? I'll find out.

***

Me and other fashion designers were at the design studio designing some clothes for the upcoming Vanity Fashion Week.

Vanity Fashion Week is the biggest fashion event in the country. It is filled with a lot of glamour and sparkles. It is where celebrities all over the country, and even outside walks the red carpet in extravagant clothes.

It is an opportunity for fashion designers to showcase their pieces and ideas to the public. It is a time for the paps to get bucks from celebs’ pictures and videos. It is one event that every fashion lover looks up to, where everyone is allowed to stan their fave celebs and the celebrities are allowed to showcase their identities without fear of judgement or criticism.

I, personally, feel so honored being one of the designers for the fashion week. This is another highlight in my career. It's something I've always looked up to as a career booster, and now it's here. I'm so excited!

I sketched on my papers, did some erasing, wrote down some things, just like that.

I glanced at the other designers and they were just busy in like fashion. A light music was playing out of a speaker and we all vibed to it. ‘Lovin You,’ my favorite song at the moment.

Just then, the door opened and some young people carrying some new mannequins walked in.

Finally! The new replacements are here. A senior designer tailed behind them and then someone followed. Who? For a moment, my heart stopped beating. Dear heart, why are you always killing me every time I sight him?

“Hey,” the senior designer drew our attention. “I know y'all are busy and I don't mean to interrupt but we've finally got our new mannequins.”

We all smiled and cheered.

I couldn't get my eyes off him, Director Crush, as his eyes roamed the design studio. Bro just loves it.

Suddenly, he started walking towards my table. I adjusted on my seat and quickly went back to my sketching and pretended like I didn't notice him. God! Why is he coming over?

I threw a glance at him and damn! He was looking straight into my eyes. My breathe stopped for a moment.

I wanted to smile to ease my tension but the smile was afar off. My heart that stopped beating a while ago was revived. However, it started beating so fast.

I felt so uneasy already as I could feel his presence coming nearer.

“Let me see your deigns for a moment.”

My heart stopped at once when I heard his voice, and my hand trembled in the pen.

Wait, he wants to see my designs? Wow, I'm so lucky. I smiled in my mind.

I slowly looked at him, and damn! He wasn't even looking at me.

He was looking at another designer next to me. I swallowed so hard that I almost choked. Envy ran through my face as she handed him over her sketch paper.

“It's beautiful,” he said smilingly while nodding his head in approval, and the girl smiled shyly.

“Thank you,” she said.

Wait, is that a blush? Don't tell me she's blushing already. But which girl wouldn't blush when Mr. Handsome compliments her?

Director Crush moved over to the other designers’ tables and stole glances at their sketches.

Damn! He didn't even notice me, he didn't notice my sketches. Was I invincible? Or what if he saw mine but it wasn't good enough?

What was so special in Ashley’s designs that he only asked to see hers?

“Hey,” Ashley poked at my side, “my designs are Director Crush-approved already,” she said, smiling.

I gave her a very fake smile, “your luck.”

She chuckled and bit her lips. Wait, don't tell me she has a crush on him too.

Damn, girl! I'm not happy for you. What's so special with your designs? Director Crush admiring your designs doesn't me you're gonna have an extra pay, I thought in jealousy.

Deep down, I was hurt. Did he just ignore me like I'm nothing in the room, or am I overthinking it? Am I always the least he notices in the room?

The other time, he asked of my name. At first, I felt lucky that he was going to know me but he made it clear to me that it was just some random curiosity that hit him. And now, boy just snubbed me.

God! I'm so insignificant to him.

At least, he should notice me, I whined.

Whatever! I continued working on my sketches. I stole some glances at Ashley and she was just smiling to herself, feeling fulfilled that Director Crush admired her design.

“Go girl,” I eyed her in envy.

I worked on my designs quietly in hurt but then I was pressed. I needed to wee.

I went out of the design studio and headed for the toilet. When I was done weeing, I washed my hands and headed back to the design studio.

I passed where a huge mirror was hung on the wall and I stopped to admire myself. I checked myself out and did some little adjustments.

God, I'm so beautiful, I thought while admiring myself.

Director Crush thinks he's hurting me by ignoring me. Nah, he's the one to lose. He's the one to lose out on my beauty as there are many guys that are dying to get me. Haha. But deep down, I knew I was hurt at the fact that he doesn't even give a f**k about me.

“You're beautiful just enough,” a man's voice spoke at a distance and I turned at the direction of the voice.

Shit! I'm dead again.

There was the almighty Director Crush staring at me at a distance with a smile.

He walked closer to me and my heart started beating so fast. Wait, this is the moment I've been waiting for, when he'll notice me, only me.

“Thanks,” I smiled nervously.

He came closer to me, while I was almost trembling to the ground. He raised his hand and touched my face. Damn! I'm dead. My whole body shook at his touch and what is that wet feeling I think I'm beginning to have down there?

He stared directly into my eyes. This was the most contact we've had. I could smell his cologne from his body. He has such an expensive body scent.

I stared deep into his beautiful dark eyes that I've always longed to look at everyday.

“You're just as beautiful as your designs,” he said while smiling.

His hand stopped touching my face, and that was a temporary relief. My heart wasn't in support of my body now, it has never been whenever he was around me or even at the thought of him.

“I've gone through your portfolio and you're such a pro,” he said and smiled again, without giving me the chance to reply to his previous statement.

“There's a contract I'm affiliated with and I need a private fashion designer. I want you to work for me,” he smiled again.

Damn! I'm dead, I'm so f*****g dead.

Is he serious? And am I seriously experiencing this moment?

This was the same guy that I felt thought of me as the most random in the room. This was the same guy that I felt didn't even notice me and doesn't give a f**k about me. This was the same guy that I thought ignored my sketch at the costume room, meanwhile he has gone through my portfolio.

Probably he didn't bother to check out my sketch because he felt it would be as perfect as what he saw in the portfolio.

Probably he didn't trust Ashley enough that was why he asked to see her design. This was the same guy who made me feel so envious of Ashley a while ago meanwhile I'm the winning girl now.

This was the guy who I felt unjustly ignored me because I don't matter to him, meanwhile he's had me on his mind since.

And this was the same guy whom I thought was impossible to get his attention, meanwhile he's here complimenting me, touching my face, making me feel weak and now wanting me to be his private fashion designer for a contract.

Damn! I almost screamed ‘yes.’

“I know this is coming to you so impromptu and I'm sorry about that. If you can't, it's okay. But I really want you to work with me,” he said and smiled again.

God! His smile is a killer.

I swallowed hard. Why would I even reject such an offer in the first place. This is the moment I've been waiting for where I get a chance to meet with him. Now, I'm not just meeting with him, I'm working with him privately. If I don't accept this offer, I'll be so jealous of the person that will accept the offer, especially if it's a girl.

“No, no, it's okay. I would really love to work with you. I'm open to it,” I said nervously and smiled.

“You're going to be stressed out a lot considering the fact that you'll still be busy with Vanity Fashion Week,”

“Being a designer is something I've always loved doing. It's my passion and I know it can be stressful, but I don't mind going through all that stress. I'm open to every opportunity,” I said convincingly. Why won't I? Haha.

“Take,” he handed me a business card with his name, address and w******p contact on it.

“You'll message message me after and I'll give you more information about it,” he said.

“Alright, no problem at all,” I nodded.

“It's okay, have a good day,” he smiled, patted my shoulder and walked away.

Damn! I felt so relieved. It's like a huge load have been lifted off my chest.

Haha! I smiled. What just happened? Director Crush happened!

Did he just cosign me? Haha! I almost screamed at the thought of it, and I threw my hands in the air happily.

Damn! I can't believe it. I can't believe that he actually wants me to work with him. That means I'll get to see his handsome face regularly. I smiled and bit my lips. I'm lucky, I'm so f*****g lucky.

Damn you, Ashley! Haha. I got him. I got the almighty Director Crush.

“It's not really a big deal, Pheebs,” I heard an interrupting voice speak behind me and I turned back to look at who dares interrupt my state of euphoria.

Immediately my smile began to go down gradually at the sight of her.

Director Crush's girlfriend. She gave me a little smile.

“He's a tough guy, you've got to deal with him,” she smiled and walked away.

Nah, it's you I've got to deal with, b***h. I don't care how tough he is, I can handle it. All that matters now is that I've got him, I've got your man and you're just jealous I'll be working with him, haha.

Anyways, deep down, I was jealous of the thought of both of them together. I wish she could just be out of the picture so that I can have a full grasp on Crush.

‘She just have to get the f**k outta my way because I got him now,’ I thought and smiled while heading to the design studio for finishing touches.