My Own Destiny

Father, I beg of you

I quickly stood, brushing my dress off from sitting on the floor. I left the small storage room and went right to my father’s large oak door and knocked.

“Yes?”

My father answered. I opened the door, walked in and gave a small bow of respect.

“Father, I need to speak with you.”

I tried not to make eye contact with Brutus. I had not felt the connection he spoke of but felt my face heat up when I noticed his eyes on me.

“Leave us.” My father said simply with authority, making the others in the room bow and leave. The tension was thick in the air. I could feel everyones Wolf on edge from their conversation.

I could tell I had not caught my father in the best of moods, but maybe after what Bernard and Brutus had talked with him about, maybe that would help my cause.

I may have to force out some tears to appeal to his fatherly, protective side.

When I lifted my head from the bow, I could see my father's crystal blue eyes held specks of orange from his wolf. His wolf was fighting for control. I was not sure why he was this angry.

Was it because Bernard questioned his choices? Bernard is our Beta and it is his job to help look after the pack. He hadn’t been disrespectful from what I had heard.

I could feel the weight of my father's gaze on me and knelt to the ground, again bowing my head. Maybe now was not the right time with him this angry.

“Stand my daughter, why is it you bow before me like a servant?”

I stood, straightening my dress, and gave a weak smile, “Sorry father, I can feel your wolf is strong and angry at the moment.”

I could see his eyes changing back as he was fighting for control of the beast inside.

“That was not meant for you sweetheart.”

My father gave me a warm smile, making my own smile fade.

“Father, I fear what I have to say may not keep your good mood upon us.”

My father narrowed his eyes, “I already know you plan on leaving us in a week’s time.”

I felt my shoulders sag, I had almost forgotten that I had agreed to leave in one week, it made me sick to my stomach, the thought of being in that pack with him and his sexist father.

“No father, I only agreed in fear he would make me leave today.”

“Today?” My father cut my words off. “You were not supposed to leave for the Crimson Moon pack until after we celebrated your 21st birthday.”

“Jullian decided he wanted me to go back with him immediately and I….” I hesitated.

“Out with it, my child.” My father said in his booming voice.

“I was afraid you would agree to let me go. Jacques is a powerful Alpha and can be very convincing.”

‘Well, that’s a nice way to put it, that you think your father is a wuss when it comes to the Crimson Moon pack.’ Mia said, making me shush her.

My father sighed, “Do you have so little faith in me? Jacques and I have an agreement, it is not up to Jullian to alter that agreement. I would not concede.” He paused, thinking, “But now you have made your own agreement.” My father sighed, “I wish you would have spoken to me before making such a decision.”

I squared my shoulders and met my father’s eyes. “Father I cannot go through with this.”

“I will talk with Jacques on this, but I am not sure how Jullian will react since you already agreed to go with him in a weeks time. Maybe you and he can visit more often.”

I took a couple steps closer to my father, “No father, in light of what happened last night, I cannot be Jullian’s mate.”

I heard the door quietly open behind me and glanced over my shoulder, afraid who might have entered. I relaxed as soon as I saw my brother Nate.

“Sweetheart, this agreement has been in place for a very long time, it will be fine. Jullian will be a strong protector and provider for you.”

“Father, I am not sure what you know of, about last night, but Jullian tried to force himself on me.” I felt the first sting of tears, just saying the words out loud.

My father’s eyes flickered towards Nate, then back at me. “I am aware, Nate and Brutus informed me.”

“Then you must understand why I cannot be with a male like that.”

My father stood, walking slowly towards me, “You told him to stop and he did. You are a young couple, he got excited, that is a good thing, he is finding a connection with you.”

I let the horror of his words show on my face, “A good thing?” I know I had raised my voice, something I rarely did to my father, “A good thing?” I looked at Nate, whose eyes had gotten larger, watching us.

“Father, he was about to r**e me, the only thing that stopped him was that I told him I….I was a virgin.” I could not help but hesitate, we didn’t talk about these types of things in our household.

“Do you know what his answer to that was? Oh, he would be gracious enough to wait for us to officially mate, so until then I could just use my mouth on him.”

I heard some sort of noise come from my brother. I could not tell if it was a snicker, a snarl or what.

My father tilted his head, watching me. “Sweetheart, I am not sure what your mother has told you about adult relationships but that is an acceptable form of….affection.”

I exaggerated rolling my eyes, looking at the ceiling,

Mia was rolling around, laughing hysterically in my head.

“I know about oral s*x father, but I was not ready to perform an act like that on the male I had just met.”

I could see my father's face turning red. I wasn’t sure if it was from embarrassment at having this conversation with his little girl or from anger at me rolling my eyes or with Jullian trying to force me to do things with him that I was not ready to do.

“Do not roll your eyes at me young lady.” I saw him glare at Nate, so I could only assume Nate was about to burst out laughing at our conversation.

“Jullian did not force you to do any of those things, correct?” My father asked me.

“Only because Lucian interrupted us, then Nate and Brutus came along.” I know I had raised my voice again, hell the guards could probably hear most of our conversation.

I could see my father was losing his temper, I could see the orange swirling around in his eyes again.

“I will talk with Jacques, let him know that Jullian needs to be more…. delicate with you.”

“What?! No, he is a sexist egotistical pig, I cannot be mated to him!” I yelled.

My father gave me a sad look, “Aurora, your mother and I had an arranged mating, it took a little time, but after a short time, we grew to love each other.”

I took a deep breath, I had to pull in my anger, or my father would just dismiss me as an emotional female in hysterics. Something he would say to my sister and I when we were younger and throwing a fit about something.

“Tria was seen by several sources leaving Jullian’s room this morning.”

My father opened his mouth to speak, closed it, looked at Nate, making me glance at Nate who looked back and fourth between my father and I.

“I had not heard this, are you sure?”

“Yes, Clara, her sister and a few others saw, Tria made a big production out of it.”

I could finally see my father’s facial expression change.

“I am sorry for that; I will speak with Jacques before they leave. That is not acceptable behavior.”

I felt a wave of relief wash over me.

“I will tell Jacques of Jullian’s indiscretion and we will be sure a repeat does not happen. You will not leave to go to their pack next week, but Jullian can visit again next weekend if he wishes. When you feel comfortable enough, you may visit their pack.”

I felt my stomach drop and could not breathe for several seconds. My father was still expecting me to be mated to that monster?

“But father….” He held his hand up to silence me, “You need a strong Alpha to protect and provide for you. Jullian will be able to fill that roll for you. I am sorry.” He said, as if to dismiss me.

I saw Nate move., almost to block me, “Father…” Nate stared, and my father let out a growl, “The decision is final. Leave now, I need to speak with Jacques.”

I turned to walk out, I could feel my tears coming and did not want to cry in front of my father and Nate. I rushed out of the room. I could hear Nate calling me via mind-link.

‘I just need to be alone.’ I told him.

I decided to go back to the storage room. I wanted to hear what my father and Jacques had to say to each other.

I gently closed the door to not alert anyone that I was here.

I could hear Nate’s voice, he was angry.

“Why would you force this on her?”

“You wouldn’t understand, he will be good for her.”

“Good for her? Not when he is whoring around with other females. Come on Dad, he slept with someone from our own pack, almost like to rub it in her face. She didn’t give him what he wanted, so he found it somewhere else.”

“Jacques will be here any minute. I suggest you leave and let me handle this.” My father still sounded angry, but it was now a mix of other emotions.

“I will be Alpha of this pack someday, shouldn’t I be around to hear this?”

I could hear my father sounding defeated, “Not this time.” Then with more force, “Leave.”

I heard the door slam as I cried silently to myself.