My Own Destiny

A Day of Beauty

The next day, Lucian hurried off after training to shower and get ready. He was ready just before eleven. I made my appointments all in the afternoon, wanting to have lunch first.

The forty-something minute drive was quiet. It was unlike Lucian to be so quiet. I wondered if he was just in a bad mood or maybe he was sick of accompanying me on these types of outings.

Finally, I broke the silence, “I am sorry you are always the one stuck bringing me out to my beauty appointments.” I said, watching his reaction.

He gave me a quick glance, smiled, then trained his eyes back on the road.

“It is my honor to accompany you on your outings, you know that.”

I shrugged, although I knew he couldn’t see my actions.

“That is what you have told me in the past, yet you are not yourself today.”

“I just have a lot on my mind.”

I moved in my seat so I could watch him better. “What is occupying your mind?” I asked, curious why my fun loving friend was suddenly withdrawn and melancholy.

He glanced my way again, “Some things are not for me to share, okay?” He sighed, “Let’s just enjoy our day. Soon enough you will be leaving us.”

I frowned and turned back to watch the road. Was that what this was about?

We decided to have lunch first, then my nails, facial, toes.

“I have a hair appointment, then if you don’t mind, I figured we would have dinner here in town.”

We were walking towards the salon and Lucian grabbed my hand. I closed my eyes for a brief second, enjoying the warmth his hand had to offer.

“I would love to stay out and have dinner with you.” He gave me a playful smile that warmed my heart. I would miss Lucian so much once I left the pack.

After the salon, I wanted to stop at a couple stores at the outside mall. I tried a few dresses on and bought a few things I didn’t really need, then headed over to Victoria Secrets.

“I’ll be out in a few minutes.” I said, knowing Lucian wouldn’t want to go in with me.

I could see his eyes clouding over, “Need to buy something sexy for Jullian?” He growled out.

I was just walking away towards the store and if it were not for my super wolf hearing I would not have heard him.

‘Oh no….Lucian is jealous.’ Mia said in a sing song voice.

I turned to face Lucian and took a few quick steps to stand in front of him.

“How dare you, I need a new bra and maybe a few new pairs of underpants, which I have no intention of Jullian seeing anytime soon. I did not save myself all these years just to throw myself at him the first chance I got.”

I could see the red hue fill Lucian's cheeks; he was embarrassed by his words.

I turned, huffing off into the store.

As I looked around the store and my temper cooled, I felt a little bad. I hadn’t taken into account how Lucian would feel about this, after all, he has had a crush on me for years.

A lacy little nighty caught my eye and I frowned. I would love to be able to wear that for someone one day. There have been many times over the years I felt like giving in to my desires, but I remained strong. I quickly picked up the nighty in black and hid it amongst the items I was buying.

When I was done paying, I found Lucian on a bench not far from the entrance.

“Ready to eat?” He asked me, our previous conversation forgotten.

“Sure. Where to?” I asked happily to not have to talk about my purchase.

“The usual?” Lucian asked as we made our way to the car.

“Sounds good, I’m starved.”

The little Italian restaurant we came to often when we went into the human town was only moderately busy. I loved coming here. They had huge portions of food which I never finished, then I would bring the leftovers home and eat my leftovers instead of the scarce food that was provided to me at home at dinner time.

The restaurant was always dimly lit, giving off a romantic vibe. I always imagined I would someday come here on a date with Jullian.

We were sat quickly and put in our order, then the deafening silence returned. We both seemed to be deep in our own thoughts tonight.

‘Do you think it’s too slutty looking?’ I asked Mia.

‘No, you should have gotten a garter belt to go with it.’ Mia replied.

“Aurora…..Aurora?” I heard being called and snapped out of it.

“I’m sorry.” I gave an embarrassed smile, feeling guilty about buying the garment.

“What’s wrong?” Lucian asked, furrowing his brow in concern. He was sitting across the small round table from me, and I could see his adorable little dimples as he gave me a smile.

“Come on, talk to me.” He pleaded.

‘Why don’t you ask his opinion of the little nighty?’ Mai goaded me.

“What do you think of those garments they sell in Victoria’s Secret?” I asked softly.

His smile faded; I think he was a little caught off guard at our question.

“Uh, like what the bras and panties? I mean they are necessary, right?”

I let out a frustrated sigh. “No, like…. The other stuff.”

“Uh…like the fancy nightgowns?” I could tell he was treading lightly to see where this was going.

“Yes.” I looked down at my silverware, suddenly finding the design in the handle of my fork fascinating.

When I glanced up, I could see a huge smile on his face, deepening his dimples.

“You bought something, didn’t you?” He laughed.

My eyes snapped up, meeting his, crap, I did not want him to think I bought it specifically for Jullian this weekend.

“Maybe.” Then I quickly added, “But nothing I plan on wearing this weekend or anytime soon. I just thought…someday I would want to wear it for someone.”

He just watched me for a bit, I could see the swirl of Amber in his eyes, his wolf was close. I was so confused by his reaction, I know he had a crush on me but that was all it is.

“Some of the items they have are very sexy.” He said softly.

I shrugged, “Like in a good way?” I questioned, unsure if that was good or bad.

Lucian laughed again, making me frown. “When is sexy ever bad?”

“I don’t know. Has anyone ever worn something like that for you?” I asked and regretting my words as soon as they left my lips.

Now it was his turn to frown. I was pretty certain he had been with a couple she-wolves over the years, but he always avoided admitting it to me.

“No, no one has ever worn something like that for me.” He hesitated, “Its not like I have had much experience.”

He licked his lips while still watching me, “I’ll tell you what, let me see it and I will tell you if it’s a good sexy or a bad sexy.”

“What! No!” I responded a little too loudly, then looked around, hoping I had not drawn attention to us.

Lucian let out a deep husky laugh, “It’s not like I asked you to model it for me.”

I shook my head, ‘Show him, what's it gonna hurt?’ Mia said.

Lucian scooted his chair closer to me. “Come on, just a peek.”

I groaned and handed him my bag. “Its black.”

He started to pull it out of the bag, and I jumped towards him. “Don’t take it out.” I said louder than I meant to, making him laugh harder as he lowered the bag so it was just under the table.

I put my hands over my eyes. I couldn’t even watch him look at that. I could hear Mia in my head laughing at me.

“Wow.” I heard Lucian whisper. Making me peek out from between my fingers, I could see him rifling through my bag so I grabbed my bag back from him, “Hey, stop going through my under garments.”

“Oh, I am so going to be picturing you in that tonight when I’m lying in bed.”

Again, Lucian caught me off guard as I sat with my mouth hanging open and could tell my face heated up with a deep red blush.

He just shrugged, “Hey I’m male and I have to relieve my s*****l frustration somehow.”

‘Oh my, he just admitted to m**********g while thinking about us.’ Mia said as she laughed, rolling around in my head.

“Well, tonight took an uncomfortable turn.” I mumbled as I grabbed my glass of water.

“I think it’s time for the check.” Lucian said as he waved the waitress over.

The forty-something minute ride home was even longer and more excruciating than the ride to town was, as we sat in silence the whole ride home.