Girl In Hell

I look around my bed as I feel weaker and weaker. With my family surrounding me, my mum, dad, and little sister. My poor little sister, she wasn’t told what was going on, since she is only 5, and she was so scared. I would tell her right now, but I am too weak to speak, I couldn't even move my mouth much. These past 3 weeks have been a living hell, and there was no way I could end my life sooner. I just had to wait, just like everyone else. I am no one special, I’m just another person that they have to see every day. They go back to there family, and they live normally like I don’t even matter to them. Like they only take care of me to get there paycheck. Opening my eyes again, I see that I was in a hospital now. It was at this point where I knew there was no way that I could live, not even for the rest of the day, and now, I’m finding it hard to breathe. I couldn’t believe that this would be the end of my life. I wanted to live but at the same time, I just wanted all of this to be over. I just wanted to end all of the pain that comes with cancer, and my dying wish is there to be a cure for cancer, other than chemotherapy. I then hear the door to the room I was in open, and I hear the doctor say something, but I couldn’t understand what he was trying to say. I then start to look around the room to see if there was anything that could help me sit up, but there was nothing, so I had to do it by myself. I groaned in pain as I got up. I guess the doctors heard me, so when they turned around, they saw that I was almost sitting up. One of the doctors screamed out “NO!” while the other one ran up to me, and pushed me down and holds my hands against the bed. I let tears out and start to move around in his arms. I then heard a scream. It was me, the second I realized, I stopped immediately, now with footsteps coming towards me, I saw my bp, and heart rate start to drop, and it's dropping fast. With my vision slowly going black, I close my eyes ready for the next thing in my life, the thing that I've been waiting for the past 9 months. 9 months ago, my mum and dad told me I only had 6 months to live, but I have managed longer than that, I have lived until now. With my vision going black, I take in my final breath. Then I hear the iconic long and solid beep. I woke up after what felt like seconds, which was really several weeks. When I got the energy to open my eyes, I saw that I was in a blue room with what looks to be 1’s and 0’s all over the place. I got up but I was still a little dizzy from just waking up from the death I had on Erath. Taking about planets where am I? I look around trying to make any sense of this place. Was this my mind, or some after-life, I don’t know, but I know what this all was. Shaking my head I try to stand up, but I fall down just before I got myself stable. I start to panic as I fall down, thinking that I was going to fall down forever, but I don’t I feel myself land on the steady ground. WIth my vision only now clearing up, I see that there are five people in front of me, and they were all sitting behind a desk. One had red hair, and I don't mean the natural red hair, I mean their hair was a blood red, I couldn’t tell what gender they were because I couldn’t see how long the hair was, and I couldn't see the details on their face. The redhead was as far left as you could get. The person to the right of the redhead was a person with blond hair, and this time I could tell it was a girl because my vision was starting to go back to normal, instead of the pixly vision I had earlier. She had long eyelashes and a bright pink lipstick on, to complement her dark skin, compared to the redhead which was as pale as someone that cant get tanned. At this point, I stopped caring about the “people” and started to try to listen to what they were saying, but it was just white noise, but I have a feeling that they are talking about me. I don't know why, but I do know that this had always happened to me when I was still alive, but this time I wasn’t going to be a crybaby, this time I was going to stand up for myself. Determent to stand up for myself, I stand up and this time I don't fall down. The five people look at me wired, but I didn’t care, I just wanted to be free. I ran up to them with pure anger in my eyes, ready for them to suffer the same fate as I did. Just as I was about to punch the blond haired girl in the face, the girl pushed her hand against my body, and I stopped in mid-air for a second, but as soon as I realized, I start to fly back, and I scream at the top of my lungs. All five looked at me with the same anger I gave them, I started to panic. I didn’t know what to do. So, I just cry and begged them to not hurt me, but they came closer, and they didn’t stop when they heard my screams. Then I saw a flash of light, and a figure stands in front of me; “My children… Don’t get angry at her, just send her to hell.” I know that it was a guy now, and I know he is a god. I then started to cry even more, not able to get any words out to defend myself. The god-like figure then turned around to me, and he spoke in a very rough and demanding voice: “You are going to hell my child, because you didn’t believe in me, and because you tried to kill my children!!!” Tears swell up in my eyes, as I think of what ways that hell could torture me, they are willing to kill anything, just because they are in hell with them, but then I spoke up. Taking a big deep breath in, knowing that I couldn’t get anything worse than an infinite time in hell, could it? I don’t care anymore. Now taking my deep breath out, I let out a massive scream that sounds like bloody murder, followed by: “I HATE YOU, GOD!!!!” His eyes opened wide as he hears me say those words, and quickly spawned his staff, and said the following: “Send this child to hell, as she has been forbidden from entering heaven for all of eternity.” Then seeing a flash of light, I closed my eyes, knowing that I couldn’t ever talk to god again, or ever see any of my family ever again. I fell to my knees, knowing that I messed us my whole eternity. Shutting my eyes tighter than I ever have before, I start to see a blue spot appear in my vision, followed by a green one. I shook my head and opened my eyes wide, to see that I was in hell. I didn’t know what to do, but one thing I did know was that I was in hell. Looking around, I see that there is like a maze type thing, with walls in every direction, but then after blinking a couple of times, I see that a person was waving there hand in front of my face. I jump back to shriek in terror. Thinking that it was going to hurt me. I then hear multiple footsteps and open one eye, to see that there was a lot of people with horns on their heads. I am shocked. I turn around behind me, to see that there were even more people with horns on their heads walking towards me. I close my eyes and hope that this was all a dream. I just wanted to be a normal child, I wanted to have the life that I never had.