I Reject You

Amara POV Standing on the edge of the cliff, overlooking the forest and mountains. The view is spectacular.. I came here to find peace. All I found was turmoil. The sun streamed through the crisp trees, baking my skin. All I felt was cold, anger and at the same time a fire in me that wanted to burn down the world... How fitting considering my Dark Red hair like embers of a dying fire... I would burn down this entire valley if I could. Burn it all. Have every inch of memory burn. Perhaps then I can find peace. I can feel Isis becoming restless and my skin she has been pushing herself to the front and trying to take control. Just like I can be control in wolf form, so can she in my human form, majority of the time its turns into a riot of unleashed anger raining down. Being part of the Egyptian lycan bloodline has its pros and cons. Other wolves and humans who know of us tremble in fear when our wolf presents itself in human form. "NO" Isis, I need to be in control and feel this. "We could just leave, we don't have to deal with this" Isis snaps at me.. "And have the entire pack hunting us down?" "There is another way..." Her smirk reminds me that she will not this time turn the other cheek "Are you out of your mind! " "They deserve all to burn" "True but what then... Take the pack over since we will be last wolf standing? Rule a pack of ashes" "What then? Just accept the fact that tonight after the ball the MOTHER will just marry us off?" "Do we have any other option? Tonight we play nice, accept that we might be shipped off, but as strong wolf we will make the choosen mate life miserable and he will gladly reject us.." "We will be free.." I let Isis run, it might be the last time for a while before she can fully take control.. unlike me where I'm flaming, she is dark, jet black fur, eyes like two embers, and then there is the fires.., it happend twice before..I was a child scared when rogues attached and I lit the entire pack house on fire... My fear and terror triggered the fire.. some say its a curse from SET others a blessing from RA. Which ever its kept the wanting Lycan Alpha's and Beta' to claiming me...Second time we never think about. Bury it deep..As Isis runs and feel the soil under her feet, wind in her fur I know in my soul that this will be the last time for awhile before I can let Isis out.Walking up the stairs into my "glass treehouse" I can smell MOTHER is here.My little piece of solitude ruined once again by MOTHER and her demands of choosing a mate. "MOTHER, what brings you around?" I say as I walk in and grabbing a robe off the hook, the silk drapes around my curves, clipping my hair back. MOTHER hates my red hair.. " Amara, don't be clever with me", she gets up from the chair, fitted suit and sharp face, wrinkles appearing faintly. Her age has not diminished her beauty, she has embraces her title as the Ice Luna, rulling in my fathers stead after his health failed, white hair, white skin and ice blue eyes... "Amara, I'm here to remind you that tonight I want no excuses or funny business from you. After this ball you will be presented with 3 options, you choose one of them and and we can move on from the Luke business and secure our packs future" With a clipped tone. "DONT YOU DARE SPEAK HIS NAME HERE! " Blood rushing to my ears . Soft like a whisper... "Don't you dare raise your voice at me, Amara. You might hide away in your glass cage up in the trees but let me remind you it was you who killed him. Your might surround yourself with the gods of old but your no better than SET himself, you will do this. I gave you your freedom and time like you asked. I gave into you demands for healing , enough is enough! it's your turn to do your duty to this house and pack" Her wolf being close and ice eyes makes me shiver.. As she grabs her scarf and walk out the door I fall to my knees and sob. "why!!!" I lay on floor looking up the ceiling after sobbing for an hour... Moon goddess why.. Why curse me, have I not suffered enough. Isis whining soflty... we don't want to go through it again. Walking into my open plan bedroom & bathroom.. filling the tub, hoping the water soaks away my fear and anger. Jasmine envelops my senses and bring a sense of security. As I get into the bath I soak and feel the heat being absorbed into my skin.. Tonight I make those 3 choosen idiots run for th hills.. In silence washing over my body. I'm curvy, strong, a golden brown skin of my endless time in the sun, RED hair like red wine, color of blood,depending on your taste.. My yellow / hazel eyes glistening Stepping out the bath tub. Drying myself off slowly, I picked the perfect dress.., black. Mourning my freedom. while others will wear all frilly and poofy gowns I'll go for the sleek and elegant. Slipping on my underwear. I look hot.. boy lace shorts.. corset.. black.. I might hate the idea of being forced with a mate but I have definite needs.. a release needed...