Same Planet but Different Worlds

Chapter 7 The Pit

Flynn's POV

Worse yet, with the amounts of wild females plummeting because of disease, starvation, or even abuse, it seems as if women will be out of this world soon enough to leave us to die alone and that thought breaks my heart. I just wish there was something we could do to build relationships with them into partnerships once more.. But the elders have told me time and time again that those types of thoughts were what ended the world in the first place, so I should just get them out of my head, but that is easier said than done.

Especially since I honestly hate, with every inch of my body, the way things are here when it comes to the females. But the other men don't care very much at all, and I am looked down on for even giving a single thought to the females and how they must be feeling. These thoughts are why I have been disrespected, not taken seriously or looked down on for many years, which is partially why I have just started putting my time and energy into the world outside of this compound, because the men in this place have a very hard time understanding anything that comes out of my head.

They are perfectly content with their meaningless lives that only consist of building, hunting, or cleaning as they hope to do a good enough job to be able to land time with the females in the pit. That's why they have created the pit a long time ago, to be able to give all men access to the little bit of women that reside here. That time is always hard for me to even comprehend though, I can't imagine that the time spent in the pit could be remotely fruitful for the mind of either beings in there.. The only way it can be even considered fruitful at all is because of the result of creating more men for the compound.

I shake my head in disgust at that thought. It feels disturbing and uncomfortable for me to even imagine in my head what I have seen many times occurring within the pits. I would love there to be more than just physical use for them, but since there is literally nothing that the females say, let alone think. They are on the brink of being just like the dogs that we have for hunting. They cannot speak one word, they only grunt and growl like beasts that do as they are told. It's a sad sight, at least to me.

Sadly enough, since this is the only life we have known, many men laugh at the old markings we are told about, and the illusion of what life used to be, as if it's just some bad story or joke to tell for fun. But we were never there and never will be there again, so who are we to say that the old markings are wrong? I can't say that, and wish there was more to those markings.

Since there is no more to the markings that I can see to learn about females or this old way of doing things, or how to even try to get back to that point. I only go off of what I can see in my everyday life and that is beasts known as females are used only for pleasure and reproduction. That's all that most the men care about when they think about the females. I try to discuss the old ways of life and how if maybe we gave some respect and attention other than physical to the females, then maybe they would get back to that point.

But those thoughts have only gotten me in trouble with the elders and of course the leader. They don't like that I think these thoughts and tell me time and time again how those kind of feelings are not good to have, as if they are a plague to my mind. They talk about it as if I am a horrible male just for feeling and thinking the way I do. But no matter how many times they tell me this, I can't seem to stop thinking like that. It's hard to stop something from entrancing your mind when it is all you have ever wanted for yourself. So I just keep those thoughts to myself now.

Maybe those ideals will change eventually. Especially since the numbers of elders have been going down, almost as fast as the numbers of females and I think I know why. But no one will confirm nor deny my ideas on this topic. But I would speculate that since the plethora of men have their ways with the little bits of females on a regular basis, that this has created some issues for all of us. But the elders dismiss my ideas and keep bringing up the fact that since we have done things this way for so long, it has helped by creating more beings within our compound. But I say that doesn't exactly help, because it is more mouths that we have to feed. But then they state that it isn't bad, because we need to get bigger to ensure that we will survive throughout the years.

I guess I can understand that, but that doesn't change the fact that because of these escapades with the women that are frequently used, it has started to make the men physically sick, so when the women have the babies they are sick as well, ending up dying for some reason or another. Even if they don't die it's one less person to help get the food that we all need, making life much harder than it needs to be.. or at least that's what I think. But they phrase it as being better if they die off so they won't get others sick and they less mouths to feed.

Either way, I hate the pit and the effects that it has on the men and women of the compound. But no one here will change their ways even if I begged them to. They can't or just refuse to see things from my point of view. I can't even try to explain to the elders or even my fellow companions why but the pit disgusts me. They tell me all the reasons why I should love it and logically I know that I should love the idea of it, but I don't. I cringe every time I even imagine going into the pit.

I did go into there once when I was younger and it was incredibly difficult for me to try to get hard. I couldn't even imagine wanting to f*#k an animal, but my friends kept telling me to not think about them as animals, think of them as one of us since they are humans. But that's easier said than done, since they act and sound like animals. So it's hard to imagine them as one of us, let alone look at them in that light for long enough to get hard.

All I could see that night and what still seems to stick with me to this day, is that I saw the terror in the female's eyes as I entered the pit. They started shaking and hiding as much as they could, which isn't much. Some even growled at me, I think trying to get me to stay away from them. The sad and influential part for me is that my friends didn't seem phased by the females reactions, they just cheered me on, telling me to pick one and f*#k her.. but I couldn't. The terror shown in their eyes, sent a sinking feeling within me that made me want to turn back without hesitation.. and I did.

I don't want to mate like that. It doesn't sound appealing at all. When I left that pit I threw up instantly, causing the men to laugh at me. They think I got nervous and couldn't handle it, but I just couldn't get myself to even try, it quite literally disgusted me. These natural feelings plus the reactions from my friends made me feel as if there was something wrong with me. I still have my friends of course, but they continue to say there is something wrong with me for not wanting to partake in the prizes of the pit. But I can't get myself to go into the pit ever again after that horrifying experience for myself.

Maybe it's for the best, since one of my friends recently passed away from a disease that I still speculate that he acquired through mating with the females. They wanted to make sure that no one else caught it, so they pinpointed the last woman he mated with and killed her, thinking she was the one who made him sick as well. But I don't think that is the case, since he is one of the individuals who would sneak in there at all hours to be with many different females.

Besides, it's hard to imagine that it worked at all like they had hoped, because like I said, many men, not just my friend, would sneak into the pits after dark and I bet more than my friend f*#ked that woman regularly and even moved onto the others that he had relations with as well.. So I imagine that we will be seeing in the coming days if any more men get sick. The pit has been making things much harder around here, even though I am sure that many men would disagree with me. But maybe that is the pain of just losing a close friend getting to me.

It made me feel so incredibly heartbroken to not only lose a friend but to watch them kill off that woman, that they think started this, as if she was a diseased animal. When I know almost for a fact that it was the men using the women as they please. It was a very hard thing to not only watch but try to defend as they told me that I didn't understand because I don't go into the pits, so I have no idea what the women are like and that it is their faults.

But that is hard for me to even think about, let alone watch. Even if they were the worst being ever, I don't think I could watch them get killed, especially since it was done in front of her child, which I can only imagine would be hard to see for anyone, especially a child that has no one else to watch over them. It breaks my heart but maybe that's because I lost my mother at a very young age as well, so I can slightly relate to that little girl.. I was told that my mother died from a disease.. but now after watching that horrible situation take place, this makes me wonder if she died on her own or if she was killed.. Maybe it is best that I don't know the truth to that question.

The main leader, Octavious, has always treated the females as if they are animals only put on this earth for our amusement, getting all the men who live here to do the same. His reasoning is that they are not much smarter than the animals that roam around anyways so why does it matter that we treat them like the animals that they seemed to be. He is a man who doesn't think much of the people around but only of himself, pushing his ideals on the young minds that will hear them because of the position that he is in. But he was a man that took over by force and there hasn't been a person to go up against him since, so this is the man we have leading us in the next years to come.

No matter what position he has, I think he can tell that not all of us like him or think like he does. Especially when some of us try to go against the fact that he thinks women are just for breeding and nothing more, because they are dumb animals in his words, so we bring up the fact that we have heard multiple times from the elders that many years ago they were known as our equals. This makes the main leader mad. He doesn't like to talk about that and even got rid of the markings within our compound that he could find that depicted this. I see that as intimidation or maybe wanting to hide a truth from us.