I COMMAND YOU

ELEVEN

'Oh my God!'

That's what I kept saying in my mind as I ran back to our bedroom. I can't believe Commander Apollo and my lips are touched together! The heartbeat of my heart is beating fast. What is happening to my heart? Why is it reacting like that? This is the first time this has happened to me.

Do I already have feelings for Commander Apollo? Or just because I was kissed for the first time in my entire life? I hope the last one is the right answer to what I'm feeling right now. Because if the first is the answer to my heart. It can't be! Commander Apollo and I are enemies and, for sure, we will not agree on everything. Maybe on our first date he will take me to the shooting court and, worse, he will make me his target! Just thinking about that makes my hair stand up.

It's a no,no,no, for me! I never dreamed of having a soldier boyfriend. My type is those crown princes. The Prince looks clean and charming.

I stopped running when I was at the door of our room. I put my two hands on my knees. The knee pain I was feeling earlier is gone. Earlier, I really couldn't run another round. But now my energy seems to be back. I don't even feel tired from running now. Does Commander Apollo's kiss have magic? I hope not. I don't want to be addicted to his lips.

I was about to enter the room when I saw Pocholo in the corner of the bathroom. That part is hidden. So I was even more curious about what Pocholo was doing there.

I slowly walked in his direction. I took every step carefully so that Pocholo didn't feel that I saw him there in the hidden part of the bathroom.

The bathroom is not included in the room. It is located outside. So, if you want to take a shower or pee, you have to go out. It's a hassle. I am not used to such things. And the more intense. The boys' bathroom. It stinks! I thought my nose had separated from my body because of the stench when I smelled it. That experience was torture for me.

"You're really hot Francisco. I wanted to kiss you earlier in our training season."

I heard Pocholo say. He was kissing a picture when I peeked at him. I raised my eyebrows. Francisco? That's a man's name, isn't it? And he wants to kiss that Francisco?

"If I were a girl, I might be the one who courts you. Omg. You're really handsome Francisco. Give me one kiss, please" he said. There was flirtatiousness in his voice.

"Francisco?" I asked curiously. I can't bear not to speak anymore. Is that Francisco a boy or a girl? I'm confused.

"Ay! Francisco!" he exclaimed loudly. He quickly turned his back. "Beau?" His eyes widened in shock.

"Yeah, it's me.Who's Francisco are you talking about?"

I saw sweat dripping from Pocholo's forehead. Based on what I can see from his facial expression, he is nervous. It's like he saw something scary.

"It's nothing. Forget it" he averted his eyes away from me. But I was not satisfied with his answer. I want to interfere in Pocholo's life. He's the only one I always have with me here at camp. Maybe I might find out that he is a criminal or not. I never know. It's hard to trust now.

"Who is Francisco? And what is that photo behind you? I saw you even kiss it" I said. I crossed my arms and tapped my foot on the ground. I am waiting for his answer. There's an idea playing in my mind but I want to hear it from his mouth. I want to confirm it.

"It's nothing, Beau."

"Give me that. Show me the photo", I insisted.

"It's not really important", he even hid the picture behind his back, but because I was disobedient. I snatched it from his back. I pulled it hard. "Beau!" I successfully got the photo.

"Is this Francisco?" I asked when I saw the picture. He's handsome. Tall and fair skinned. His eyes are narrow and his lips are full. That's the reason why Pocholo wanted to kiss Fransisco.

"Beau! You shouldn't take what isn't yours", Pocholo said angrily to me. He took the picture from my hand and he put it inside his jogging pants.

"You want to kiss Fransisco. I heard you say that. Aha! You have a crush on Francisco?!" I teased him. I didn't care if he was angry with me. He has nothing to fear.

"Shhh...don't be loud. Someone will hear you."

"If you don't want them to hear us, tell me your secret. I won't judge you"

"No. I have no secret". I could feel Pocholo's nervousness in his voice.

"Really?" I challenged Pocholo. "You want to kiss Fra-"

"Yes! Yes! Just shut up now", Pocholo replied in an irritated voice. I couldn't finish what I was going to say because he covered my mouth.

I quickly removed it. Yuck! Maybe he held it somewhere else!

"You're disgusting! Your hands might even get dirty"

"It's your fault. You're making noise" he blamed me.

I rolled my eyes at him.

"Admit it"

"Okay, okay.. you're the only one who I will tell you this. I hope you don't spread it." I nodded in agreement with what he said. I was excited for Pocholo to open up to me even though I already knew that.

"I'm gay, Beau"

There was a moment of silence between us. After a few minutes, Pocholo looked at me in surprise.

"You're not angry? You're not going to judge me like everyone else?" he said.

"I told you. I won't judge you. What's wrong with being gay? As long as you don't step on anyone, there's nothing wrong with being gay. Remember that," I said.

"Beau.." I saw tears in the corner of his eyes. I think he was touched by what I said. "You're the only one who told me that. All my family members work in military service. They won't accept me for being gay. It's hard to tell my family. They will judge me. They will be angry with me". Tears continued to fall from his eyes.

I feel pity for Pocholo. His situation is difficult. The weight on my chest has also disappeared. I am safe with Pocholo. He doesn't like me. It's good because I won't think if he's a maniac or if he has lust for my body.

"Don't cry. The time will come, your parents will accept you. I know it's hard but, keep being strong."

"Thank you, Beau. Anyway, I feel relieved. I have released the heavy feelings in me"

I hugged him tightly. We are crying together. I don't know why I'm crying. I wasn't a crybaby before.

"Thank you, Beau. Thank you very much"

I removed my hug from him and grabbed both of his cheeks. Our faces are close to each other. There is no malice in that for me. Especially since I found out that he is gay.

"Be strong, Pocholo. You will get through this too."

"Yes. I can handle it" he gave me, a small smile. The earlier nervousness in his voice was gone, it was replaced by a determination to fight.

I wiped the tears from Pocholo's cheeks. We look like fools here. Crying in the dark corner of the bathroom. And at the same time, it's dark.

"Orenciana and Salvatore, what are you doing!?" Commander Apollo shouted at us. Out of nowhere, he suddenly appeared in front of us.

Pocholo and I quickly separated. Commander Apollo might think we're doing something lewd here in the dark part of the place. I know his brain was working differently.

"Why are you two kissing?!" Commander Apollo shouted angrily.

Huh?