You And I

Chapter 14

Meghna's eyes wiggled open. As she adjusted herself inside that warm comforter, she let out a prime wheeze, batting her lashes, as her vision took its time to accustom itself to the view. All what she could see was dribbles, sprinkling down that would hardly wet the land. A kind of fine rain, that would always make the spot likable and friendly. She could also feel the smell of the rain, mingled with the air that she breathed. She felt all fresh. However, or whatever didn't make her feel like her city had made her feel! Chennai! She missed the city gosh damn so much. Its been a month and a half since she moved to NewYork, and this newly found climate at NY; made her miss her city love so much.

On feeling a sharp pain hitting the whole length of her right arm, which was bundled up tightly to mend the bone that was fractured. It was a bit major c***k. However, the doctors over there suggested her stay under observation for a week. It's been three days now. Four more days and she could bounce back home and re-join, her internship program. She, however couldn't stay laying at the bed all the twenty four by seven. As her right arm muscles interwove causing a spasm with the resistance wearing away at her joints, she could feel a worst pain in her hand. On rucking those hair fringes that fell on her face, behind her ears; with her left hand, she turned her neck aside out of the way from the window side.

As soon as her eyes happened to verge upon the man, sitting on the chair; with his head derived on his strong arms; keeping it on the bed; bending down, Meghna's breathing had started to hitch, on the apprehension that it was Amey. Her breathing had gone more worser now, seeing him taking his head up above from his hands; and stretch out of laziness; with his sleepy eyes, still closed. Meghna sat startled, seeing Amey in front of her.

Why was he there?

As Amey, rolled out of the sleepiness; his gaze met her's, attaining the thought that she was startled by seeing him there. Amey, adjusted himself on the chair, taking his palm to rub his beardy face . His face appeared like a mere bush, with a tuft of shaggy, unshaven hairs left around. Even with all those, he looked hot like a hell, and managed to give Meghna , a tachycardia the moment she laid her eyes on his face.

Tears started to ballyhoo! She didn't bother about breaking down in front of Amey. He had seen her in her worst, which actually means becoming deranged on facing him, doesn't matter to her.

All it mattered was him! Amey!!

Why is he here now?

Her eyes moved out of his gaze and distracted itself to her sweaty palms. This guy was making her nervous, even now. s**t! Her eyes didn't seem to stop its irrational, aimless whirls throwing up all the woes that she had buried in her. Water works were implementing its duty, truthfully. All the while, Amey's gaze, admitting the guilt was stopping over her water mask, that was covering her face. Her hands struggled to moved to her face to sponge off the tears.

Within which Meghna could count as a minute, he was there; with his untamed arms launched forward , to take the woes off her face. The scalding touch, was making her heart leap to her throat. She felt him on her, with that searing touch that tried to convey a limitless piles of apologies. Her eyes shut down with that, making a lone ball of tear slam between her lashes. The isolated ball of tear, rolled down; isolating itself furthermore. Amey's eyes struggled and stewed over her, pretty perturbed face.

An unspecified moment where there were no words! At all!

Within Meghna could reimburse herself from something that made every inch of her skin, blight in liveliness; He had already fallen on his knees in front of her. His head, with an unsettled expression was making him, look spiritless. It wasn't Amey, who would always flash a heart- stopping smile whenever his eyes happen to meet her's.

Hanging his head down in shame and humiliation, his hands flapping down with no action. He was still breathing hard. Meghna wasn't looking at him. She had no power left in her to see Amey, like that. One reason was that!

With his hands hovering up to dishevel his untamed hair, his eyes struggling to hold on to all those emotions that he was trying to show her; his lips moved,"Meghna!" Indeed, it was a rustle. Meghna's breathing started to pick up in its race. Tears were washing her face down, would be an understatement!

"Enough of tears, baby!", he breathed, with his face expressing the same amount of pain and hurt. Meghna, had no pretty words to face Amey. Yet, she mustered up the guts to face him.

"After all, that's what you had left me with!" Those words escaped her lips as a gasp between the sobs. She didn't really expect herself, that the moment she meets Amey again, would rumple her and discompose herself. She'd no intention of spitting out any words that could hurt him, further. But, what called dignity and self-esteem took over her.

"I know, Meghna. I didn't trust you. I've been such a crook. I didn't believe you when you begged me to do so. Damn! I didn't.", he let it all out, with his eyes getting watered. Meghna was witnessing him, welling up tears for the first time. "Give me an another chance, Meghna. To show you that I wouldn't leave you in tears, one more time. I just can't bear seeing you this way, or I can't endure this kind of life without you in it. It is just.. I am feeling all lifeless."

"Only to have Aarav threaten me implying you, my sick brain got to know how it would be to have someone threaten you like that. I felt it. I felt the same what you felt for me. Meghna, from the moment you left the home, I am just hating myself. I just hate myself for making you go through this hell. Well, give me a chance to sum these all up, love! Please." He gasped, looking at her in a mushy manner; that moved her heart to an extent.

"I don't want this to hold up, Meghna. Please. I can't-"

"You didn't trust me Amey!", her dry lips, moved on one another, leaving out a scratchy sound. She couldn't bear him seeing like that, torn up and weak. Yet, he at the least should come to know what she had gone through all these days.

"May it be any relationship, Trust is the base. When you don't even trust me, what is this marriage for? You made me lose faith in our marriage, Amey." She let it out, between sobs. Amey's heart ached to hear those words from her.

She had lost faith in their marriage!

He had completely failed, as a husband and as a man.

With these thoughts rifling him into a mess, he looked at her longingly with his blue orbs changing into a lagoon. The blue lagoon of remorse. Meghna felt herself breaking down into scraps, seeing Amey that way.

"Please forgive me, Meghna!"

Her face was looking straight, at her fingers that were fidgeting themselves, in pain.

"Forgiveness doesn't matter here, Amey. After all, there's no angst left with me. It is just the fact that you didn't trust me. Just that..", her sobs making her pause in what she was about tell, she started wailing.

"You promised me a forever, Meghna!" His eyes were narrowed, in doldrums. He couldn't stop those words from being uttered.

"Well, you made me break my promise!" She mumbled between her sobs, that made him feel disgrace of himself. He , himself couldn't forgive him; for what he had done to her.

"It is all me. I know. I am asking you for one more chance. Please. Don't I deserve it?", he asked, with his face etched with abashment.

Meghna's heart went upside down, hearing him beg for her forgiveness. She wanted to tomb herself in to his arms, and wail against his shirt. She did really want that one thing, right now. To wail, on him.

"Please..", it was just a gasp from him, this time. Her eyes moved to him. She gulped in a gush of air and decided to let him know, all what was running in her mind.

"I am not the same,  Amey. I don't feel the same way. I am so broken. Broken into shatters.. You've always been that one missing piece of me; who could complete me and make me feel solace. But now.. I don't think this can be mended any sooner. You made me weak..", she muttered, with tears welling up in her black eyes.

"That doesn't mean that I don't love you. I've always loved you and it is forever. Nothing can change that. I don't think I can be the same. Everything will take-"Within she could complete, Amey cut her off with an eagerness in his voice,"I will wait.. I will wait for you.", he gasped.

"And we're going to let something like this, happen between us once again; I am telling you.. I can't bear.. I can't bear it myself and I can't bear seeing you besetting yourself..", she mumbled looking away from him. And he felt it all like his school days, again; to see her talk like that, squeezing her lips.

It was kind of.. No! It was so adorable.

"Actually Meghna.. It is not us.. It is me.. I was the one, responsible for this mess.. I can mend it Meghna.. Just.. Just give me a chance.", he said , with his lips letting out those words of hope. Meghna's eyes let those welled up waters, flow down; with a weak smile, taking up her lip, making it lurch, delicately. Amey being shaken up, seeing her tears and smile together, making a scene on her face at the moment; couldn't stop feeling guilt. More and more of guilt!

Jumping up to his heels and laying his arse behind her , and eying her closely, with a worthwhile, gaze.

"Can .. Can I.. hold you?", he asked watching her, with his haze making her realize what he really felt. Meghna's eyes teared up more, having him ask the question. Obviously, only he has all the rights to hold her! 

Meghna's hands moved on it's way, to reach his hands, trembling. Only to clutch his hands, and tow it along with her's and make it cave, on her cheeks; she felt all of her , rejuvenating! And to this gesture, he felt like she had forgiven her. Amey's hands cupped her face, with a small smile creeping on his lips; that felt like a reflection of her's. She wanted to lean in and entwine into him; wanting not to give up very soon; she inclined back.

In sometime only when they heard a knock in the door, Amey took his hands off her face. "Must be Krish and Julie!", he scrambled to the door; as he mumbled those words. Meghna's brows shot up in exclamation. "Krish is here???", she yelled, being unaware of what was happening around her.

Last night, when Amey was talking to Meghna; Krish and Julie were out to eat and got a take out for Amey. He hadn't eaten all the while, until they met Aarav. And again, when he was fed with a take out from Burger King, he let it go fritter, after taking a few bites on it. And then, he suggested that he would stay there with Meghna. When both of them objected this, He somehow made them refute, with what he suggested. And then after talking to Amey for some more time, Julie took Krish, to her apartment; and Amey stayed back.

All the night, sleep wasn't in good terms with him. There was no couch inside the room, for Amey to sleep. He then managed to lay his head on the bed, and his arse on the chair; behind the bed. On watching Meghna's face in hand, he fell asleep, slowly.

Oh boy! This is what he had been longing for!

As soon as Krish and Julie, strode in; Meghna yelped in joy! How much had she missed him all these days!!

"Hey.. Jackass!", she outcried, with her face gaining up all of the glee. She was now smiling wide, ear to ear. She didn't expect Krish to be there too. "Doe! How are you?", he asked, as he leaned forward to hug her and peck her temples. Meghna smiled, as her eyes welled up all again.

She was becoming too emotional these days, like a pregnant girl!

"I am fine!", she smiled relievedly. She really felt a wave of relief cambering on her, to have Amey and Krish there. Julie was smiling , amusedly; with her eyes trying to express something to her. Meghna's face turned cryptic, finding out what was that. "How come you're here?", Meghna batted her lashes, to Krish. Krish stifled a giggle, and faked a hurt ," You think only your husband will miss you! I just came to remind you of myself."

Meghna chuckled, at his dramatic reply. "Stop it drama stripling!" Krish chuckled back. Seeing all these, Amey stood beside Meghna, seeing her happy. He felt happy too. Never once, did he think about all those wealth, that he had handed over to Aarav. He really didn't. All that had influence at the moment was, Meghna! On seeing a gesture in Krish's eyes, asking him to come out for a moment; Amey excused himself, and followed Krish.

When they'd gone out and the door was shut, Julie jumped to the door and locked it, and turned to Meghna with her face full of teeth. Meghna, being amused by her weird, crooked smile; shook her head in amusement.

"Meghna Meghna Meghna..", Julie sang as she jumped to the bed, nearby Meghna; clutching her left hand; arrestingly. And the coo, that Julie just gave didn't fail to make Meghna chuckle.

"Now what's gotten into you? What happened!!", she rolled her eyes at Julie, who was simpering sincerely, all wide. Julie, smiled full-fledged and leaned forward and whispered,"Krish, has asked me out!"

"Wh-at!", Meghna chuckled, widening her eyes in amazement. She was really on the seventh heaven, hearing this. She truly couldn't believe hearing that her little brother, c*m friend c*m almost everything had finally taken a step to his love life! . "Believe me.. He asked me out.. He.Has.Asked.Me.Out!",Julie shouted in excitement .

"Uff.. finallyyyy!", Meghna chortled, sighing a relief. Indeed, a happy sigh. Julie was smiling wide, as if someone had ripped her mouth.

"Minimize this! As if someone has dug a hole."Meghna giggled and compressed her mouth. Julie giggled back.

Whilst, the girls were talking about all these, Krish and Amey were talking about the stuff , that happened the previous day.

"Is she convinced?", Krish asked worriedly. He was actually feeling pity for Amey. Basically, that was the other reason why he didn't allow Amey to fly alone to NY. Amey, nodded his head in an assured manner. Krish smiled at him, and suddenly being have to face the fact that Amey lost everything for Meghna, his face dimmed down.

"What are you going to say about all those happened yesterday?", he asked, being troubled.

Amey's brows got knit, and he shook his head in negative."She will not get to know anything!", he answered sternly; being concerned and clutched to what he opened up.

"Arj-"

"No Krish. No talkbacks. She'll not know about me, giving everything to Aarav. She is feeling too weak already. She is not my Meghna.. And I am responsible for this condition of her's! I want to cure her. It is highly impossible for me to be big about, she being weak like this." He gasped. And Krish nodded his head complying with what Amey said.

"Okay! Amey. As you say..", he stood for what Amey, said. And suddenly being happen to prevail upon the factualness , Krish snickered,"Amey?"

"Huh?"

On letting out a huge sigh, he unwrapped it,"I've asked Julie out." He scratched his neck, craning his neck down. Amey, guffawed and patted his back and stuck his palm out for a handshake ,"Dude! Welcome to the club."

Krish, giggled back.

After their short conversation outside, Amey strode in and Krish stood out, waiting for Julie.

"I am leaving!", Julie cooed, as she leapt forward to give her a bearhug!

"Don't forget to wear something nice." She giggled as she saw Julie, running out in excitement. And now, all again it was only Amey and she! He traipsed in, as his eyes stayed up on Meghna. His lips were stretched wide all the while. On grabbing a chair behind her, he kept watching her; with the smile dominating his face. He looked truly happy. Only to see a pile of papers, on the other side of the bed; Amey strode to the other side to pick up those papers.

Those were the divorce papers and she had signed them.

Amey's face went orderless seeing the scribbling of her signature, at the end of those useless paper. Meghna was watching him, doing things all the while silently.

She also didn't fail to notice the prompt, panicking changes in him; as soon as he comprehended that she had signed them. On taking his gaze from the paper to her face, he gasped apologetically. "Meghna?", She didn't want to see him like that. She wanted to take the bite out and allay him. With a spirited smile, zipping her mouth; she mumbled "You asked for it!"

And with that whimsical smile, he knew that she was conning him; he left out a smug look and conveyed,"Look at me and say Meghna!"

He definitely knew , how to make her go out of order. Meghna smiled in her rims, and mumbled to herself,' I, myself don't know what will happen If I look at that eyes!'; on rolling her eyes mentally; she mouthed,"I won't look at you." Amey, smiled amusedly gaily, as he muttered; "I heard what you said!". He smirked.

Meghna , being crushed she rolled her eyes at him and looked at him  like you-will-never-change.

Amey grinned at her, and he enjoined,"Seriously asking. What is this?", he asked pinning out the signature in the divorce papers. "Seriously saying, You.Asked.For.It!", Meghna threw the lime light on each and every words, widening her eyes. Amey, smiled slyly; "You said the same after our first kiss!", and winked at her.

This guy! Gosh!

"Kiss? Really?", She c****d an eye brow. "Don't even think of all that, now.", She rolled her eyes. How Much ever seriously, she tried to talk; It was hard for Amey to muffle his bickering giggles.

In sometime, his phone buzzed and he took the phone in his hands and moved towards the porch,"I will be right back!", he announced. There was only a glass door; and Meghna could see Amey doing things over the other side. Amey, being smarty pants; turned aside while he talked on the phone.

Few minutes into the phone call, Amey turned to check Meghna. And she was tossing and stirring on the bed; with her face becoming a mess. Amey hung up the call, and strode in to check her. She was exerting all of her force on the emergency call, button that was given to her to call an attendant. On seeing Meghna fight with the button; Amey giggled,"What're you doing baby?"

"This stupid button is not working, Ameynn!", She screeched, still pressing the button wildly. Amey, giggled more and said,"What do you want? I am here. Tell me!!"

Meghna's face went haywire, as she stuttered;"Amey.."

Amey stood watching her, closely; expecting her to tell something.

She was still stirring on the bed. "IwanttopeeAmey!", she let all those words plunge down, hastily. Amey, couldn't get a word.

"What? You want to.. what? I don't get you!!"

"Peeee! Peee! I want to pee, Amey! Go, call someone. Pleaseeee! ", she shrieked, shrinking her face in embarrassment. Amey, getting panicked all of a sudden, coming to her to pick her up,"That's it? I can help you!", he offered sincerely. He was all sincere.

"No! Stop!", she got dismayed, and shouted,"You're embarrassing me! Go, call my attendant!" She gritted her teeth. Amey, let out a frenzied sigh and ran to the attendant to call her to attend Meghna.

And after the Pee bustle, they spent that day; talking,playing, giggling. For dinner, Amey had asked for delivery from the nearest taco bell. She munched upon the tacos, and it was the time to call it a night. He didn't forget to feed her, the right meds. Only to see, Amey sitting on the chair; and laying his head on the bed; Meghna felt too bad.

"Amey!", she called. He lifted his head up to meet his gaze. She moved to the the corner of the cot, she pointed out the nearby empty place, she said,"Come, sleep here. It is not possible for you to sleep like this."

Amey smiled wholly and dabbed her head. "No baby! Sleep. It might hurt your hands! I can manage with this!"

"No! It won't hurt my hands. See, the cot pretty much big. Two can sleep. Sleep here.", she said, crimelessly.

No more appeal!

He nodded, steadily and took the other side of the bed. With that they slept off. That was the longest night, with the most contented sleep after a heck of days. For both of their souls!

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