What my Heart Desires

Chapter 5

Drex’s mouth devours mine like he needs me to breathe. His body pins me against the shower wall. I can feel every glorious inch of him, and I do mean every inch. His hardness presses into my pelvic bone by my hip. Grinding into me.

His kisses are rough, demanding, almost painful in his need for me. He nips at my lip, hard, but not enough to break the skin.

He starts kissing up my jaw until he gets to that secret spot behind my ear. He gives it a sweet kiss, like a long-lost lover.

“Gods I’ve missed you.” He whispers softly in my ear. He nuzzles his face into the crook of my neck. I try to move closer to him, I can’t fight the urge to touch him. I want to run my hands all over his body, to lock my hands in his hair and kiss him for eternity.

His hands tighten around mine, lifting my arms a little higher, making me stand a little taller. His body holds me still and I whimper in protest. Drex makes a tsking noise, still nuzzling my neck. Trailing kisses up and down my jaw, neck and shoulder.

“And just where do you think you are going, my love? I haven’t even gotten started. You have to learn your place.” He murmurs softly against my skin.

Drex places a soft kiss right over my pulse and pulls back to look at me. His eyes locking with mine, with such intensity it takes everything in me not to look away. His tone goes hard, almost angry. His jaw tightens, like he is restraining himself from the force of his words.

“You will never leave us again. You will not be leaving our side for the rest of your life. One of us will always be with you at all times. You won’t complain, you won’t protest, and you WILL NOT try to give us the slip. I will chain you to our bed if I have to. And you will tell us everything that has happened between the day you died until now. I know you haven’t told us everything, but you will. Do I make myself clear?”

The hard determination in his voice rocks me to the core. I’d be lying if I didn’t admit that his commanding tone turns me on immensely. But I’m a different woman than I was two years ago. I’ve hardened and any naivety I had is long gone. I don’t follow orders very well anymore and that is going to ruffle their feathers.

I give him a sassy smirk. “Make me.” My voice is laced with challenge.

Drex’s eyes widen in surprise. He’s so used to their mate doing what she is told that the idea of me challenging him was very unexpected. The response is so unlike me that his grip on my hands relax. It’s not a lot but it’s enough to slip out of his hold. I use a little of my extra strength and speed to get out from his arms and turn him so that now his back is to the shower wall.

Drex’s eyes are still wide open as I mimic the way he was trapped me against the wall. My hands are on his chest and move slowly to his shoulders. His hands hang loosely by his side. He’s in such shock that he doesn’t move.

I’m not nearly as strong as him so I knew if he wanted to break away from me, he could, but I knew he wouldn’t. He liked puzzles, he liked being able to predict how people will react. He assumed that nothing has changed. I’m about to show him that they have no idea who I am anymore. I just became his newest challenge.

I get on my tippy toes to whisper in his ear. My lips brushing against the rim, my body aligned with his. “If you think I’m still that sweet, innocent little girl I was 2 years ago, you are horribly mistaken. If you want me to be a good little lap dog, you are going to have to catch me first. I take orders from no one. Not even you D.”

I bite his ear. Hard. Drex hisses, he takes in a deep breath as if to argue but I’m already out of the shower grabbing a towel and moving back into the bedroom. I don’t look back as I shut the door. I didn’t want to see his face. I’m sure he’s hurt, he doesn’t understand. I’m a little sad that we can’t go back to how it was. We were so happy, so in love. We didn’t know that it wasn’t going to last.

I don’t know if we will ever have that again. Too much has happened. Way too many secrets and a lot of pain. Roman and Drex are going to have to get used to the fact that I am my own person. I’m not going to take orders and just get pushed aside. I have a life, a job. I’m not letting go of that just because I just happen to walk into them at a dance club of all places.

It still pisses me off. My sources led me to believe that they were in Russia on a business trip. They weren’t even supposed to be on the same continent, let alone the same state. I either got bad intel or they gave everyone the slip. But why? Why are they here? And where the hell is Roman?

I’m slipping into one of Roman’s t-shirts to sleep in when the bathroom door bangs open and knocks against the wall. Took him long enough. I sigh and turn towards him.

Drex is still butt ass naked, dripping wet and seething. Oh, yeah. He really did not like my answer. His eyes are starting to turn red, which only happens if a vampire is horny or angry. The older vamps have better control over it but I’m assuming that Drex is officially lost it. I’m surprised that it took as long as it did. His soul has been starving without me. His vampire is rising to the surface to take over, to claim his mate.

I stand there amused. It takes a lot to get a reaction out of Drex, so to see him lose control is a sight to see. I really shouldn’t be so amused but what a view. He has a lovely set of abs, a six-pack that I would love to get re-acquainted with. He is still hard and breathing heavily like he just ran a marathon rather than take on little ole me.

Damn, I’ve missed them so much. It’s nice being the one to one-up-them for a change. Roman and Drex always took pleasure in showing me the ropes of their world and experiencing my reaction to new things or pointing out if I’ve done something wrong. Now it’s my turn. Lady karma, she really is a b***h.

I put my hands on my hips and try to hide my smirk. Seriously, there is no reason for me to be smiling right now. I’m not sure what is wrong with me.

“Drex baby, you are dripping water all over the nice carpet.”

He makes a hissing sound and suddenly he’s in front of me, grabs me by the hips and tosses me on the bed. If I was anyone other than his mate, I would be getting my ass out of dodge. But since he literally can’t hurt me, I have nothing to fear. Okay, maybe a little but not in the way you think. I’m not sure how our souls will react to being re-united after being apart for so long.

I get a surge of excitement though at his primal reaction. He took off the kiddy gloves, and honestly back then I would have been shaking. Now, I’m thrilled. It turns me on, and I accept him with open arms.

In a blink Drex had me tied to the bed frame, using the sheets that are now in shreds around us. I’m given no more time to think. Roman’s shirt is ripped off me, hanging loose off my shoulders and he is suddenly pounding into me. No more foreplay.

I scream at the intrusion. My body was primed but the shock of him suddenly inside me was intense. He stretched my core, tight from two years of celibacy.

My scream excited him even more. His thrusts come hard and fast, like he’s scared I’m going to disappear. The bed slams into the walls from the force of his movements. The sounds coming from me are a mix of pleading and whimpering. I’m so close. I can feel my climax building.

My world explodes as I feel Drex pierce my throat with his fangs. Thousands of fireworks go off behind my eyes, my skin tingling, my body in complete bliss. He sucks at my neck and each pull brings another small orgasm. I don’t know where his body begins and mine ends. For these few blissful moments the world and all my worries fade away.

I can feel half of my soul healing from our newly formed connection. It feels even stronger than last time. The need to be by him always, the eternal love, and the need to protect him. All of these intense feelings slam into me and I can’t breathe.

Drex picks up the pace, I’m going to have bruises later. I feel him stiffen and growl into my neck. He cums inside me, hot and pulsing. I feel his tongue on my neck, licking at his bite. His saliva helps heal the incisions faster.

I’m glad he thought to do so, my brain is mush right now. I wouldn’t have remembered that my body heals a little faster than it used to. Not as fast as a Vampire or a Werewolf but definitely faster than a normal human. He would have noticed, and I don’t want to lie to him. Not any more than I already have to.

I don’t know how long we lay in bed for. I’m wrapped up in mate bliss and it’s hard to think past s*x when you form the mate bond. Even though I technically already had them, something unexplainable happened when I died. They didn’t disappear but it was like being cut off.

That actually worked in my favor. I feel horrible for saying that. The agony was unbearable still. But it kept me under the radar. If for one second, they believed I was alive, they would have hunted me down.

Speaking of bonds. Coming out of my lustful haze I realized I was wrapped around Drex like a boa constructer. Well, this is awkward. Drex doesn’t seem to mind at all, which makes it worse.

He’s rubbing a hand up and down my back while his other arm wraps around my hip and cups my ass holding me flush against him. My head is laying on his shoulder while I’m nuzzling his neck. I immediately stop, my body stiffening.

I feel him sigh, his breath rustling my sweat slicked hair. Ugh, I’m going to have to take another shower.

Drex stops rubbing my back, his grip on my ass tightening. I slowly open my eyes and look at my surroundings. The bed is definitely ruined. The sheets were ripped to shreds, the headboard is cracked, and I can feel springs poking into my back.

The fact that Roman has not made an appearance since I came in here to shower, has not been lost on me. “Where’s Roman?” I ask breaking the silence.

I feel another sigh. “He is a little busy at the moment.” I feel a kiss on my head, the stubble from his cheek pulling at my hair.

I stiffen even more. Busy my ass. Nothing would pull him away from his undead mate. “Oh really? Pray tell what was so important that pulled him away from his not dead wife?” I ask. Not bothering to hide the steel in my voice. I might not have wanted to be found but damn being ignored hurt more than I wanted to admit.

Drex gives a dark chuckle. “Relax, my dear. He’ll be back.”

Now I’m really suspicious. He was damn near almost feral when I left him in the living room. There is no way he went to “run errands”. I sit up and turn my glare on him. “Where is he?!”

Drex’s left eyebrow goes up. His eyes are alight with amusement. I’m being a hypocrite I know. Wanting to be alone and all but I’m pretty sure that ship has sailed.

He rolls on top of me, pinning me to the bed. Drex brings his lips to me ear and whispers, “He’s a bit tied up at the moment. I wanted you all to myself for a while, baby. He will get his turn.” He bites down on my earlobe. Sending a distracting shockwave of pleasure to my core.

“What?!” I shriek.

Drex pulls back just enough to look me in the eye. “You are mine. You are his. We discussed it after you left to get in the shower and decided we should come to you one at a time. We didn’t want to scare you. We are not human. Our demons have been close to the surface ever since you left us. We didn’t want to risk hurting you. Roman is locked up downstairs for your own protection. When you are ready, I will go get him.” He pushes a piece of my hair behind my ear.

“Roman agreed to this. He even volunteered to be locked up. He knew that his werewolf was getting too close. He wanted me to be there to help keep him at bay if needed. You are only human after all.”

Aw. Okay, my anger has fizzled out and now my heart is a pile of mush. Damn. I wanted to be mad. I really did. Besides, he was right. If I was still human, and with the mate bond so frail, it might not be enough to keep Roman’s werewolf in check.

However, I’m not completely human anymore.