NINA When you live a life full of disappointments, you begin developing a coping mechanism. Well, when you have lived a life full of disappointments, there is only but one way to deal with the heaviness that comes with one not getting what they desire. You learn to simply not desire. Dispelling all hope for a better life, or a better job or a better relationship will save someone from a lifetime of heartbreaks and pillow sobbing. At one point in my life, during which my father repeatedly treated me like an abomination, I stopped believing in the concept of hope. I simply floated throughout life, living through the days without expecting anything more than I already had. Until Seth came into my life. He was glorious. He was broody for a child but I could not blame him. He was sweet and

