Man of my Dreams

Chapter 10

Psh. Whatever? What to rooftop? Suicide?

“It's okay uhm, hell what the heck. I am not going to commit suicide. I am completely aware of God, and those who commit suicide are unloved, and I am loved duh,” I frowned.

“I'm just looking at what's bigger. That is why I visited it. I want to commit suicide but you came, annoying. Maybe because I am unloved, or there is just no word such as love; that is bullshit. You know maybe love exists but a mistake can shutter love forever and life without love is worthless. Worth suicide.” he said in a happy tone. I was left speechless, and I have no thoughts as of now.

The edge of my lip rose to simply curse.

“No, don't. I mean suicide is wrong in all aspect. Life is simple, come on. When you can't laugh because of your problem, I have a motto: la aspects the problem. Do. Come it, okay?” I tried to hide the annoyance, and life is very valuable. You can't have another life again if you lose it there are many struggles to live, and will he waste the time of his life? If he could donate it, better. But no, he can't, so he must take care of it instead.

“Indeed,” he replied thoughtfully. The annoyance can be heard.

“Indeed?” I asked confusedly, “Indeed,” he replied thoughtfully. I was stunned.

“Really?” He stared at me for a long time before grinned foolishly. How do I know he smiled even while wearing a mask? Well, I just felt he did grin.

“I don't know why but i feel reassured by your presence. Maybe I should thank you,” Ha! I stared at him sarcastically.

“Yeah, you should. Thank me thoroughly,” I said proudly.

“Eh, you're crazy; you are a student here, aren't you? You are fortunate, right? I'm talking to you nicely, do not frown at me.” He laughed.

“Go ahead and return to your home then. Are you happy at that point? I will stop frowning,” My eyebrows rose.

“You are funny. I want to know you more, but my clock is ticking so fast,” he said calmly, and then he turned away. Eh!

“Partake in your excursion is what I want now. Yeah honest speaking! I am afraid about something you would do, but duh, I don't know you, so Nah. Do what you want to do, sucker,” I said, but I never looked back at him.

I continued to visit and removed the foul air of that man in my system. I tried to enter the library, but the librarian closed it because of too much ache early. I also like the gym, arena, and whatever, though I have already seen this establishment. I cannot help but be amazed every time I see it. This school is very big and very prestigious and it is advanced technology, beautiful architecture the standard teaching and luxurious student life.

But I think it's easier to study with an average public school in the province because every structure is close to each other. Not as here as it seems. Acres have to be walked before reaching the next lobby. I would have walked to the building when I looked at five men at the entrance of the exercise room.

I went back to the rooftop, hoping to see that man again. The class doesn't start because it is still 7 in the morning and the course starts at 8. There was no man on the rooftop, but I saw him on the field. He is walking to the gate.

He will probably go home. Good for him. I hope he will not take his life. I believe every human being is in love. There is no unloved. You need to change your toxic mindset to a healthy one. That is what I do when I am sad, anxious, or depressed.

If I got in yesterday or earlier this day, I went for it, and maybe I would not have had trouble waiting for my class because if Kiegan arrived yesterday, I could tour him right away. If we arrived earlier, I could go out for a while, but now, nah, I don't have enough time. That's how frustrated I was when the ladder was found faulty to the third floor when I was climbing for my first-period class.

“Psh, the second week of class sucks, are the steps faulty? I haven't seen you, but your bag is here already.

“Too early, eh?” Kiara immediately complained

“Hey?” I answered him. We all waited for our teacher. Some are playing guitars, and some are chit-chatting. Some are playing mobile games, and some are flexing their finances and capabilities. For me, nah, I am just going to sleep. That is more satisfying that way.

I don't have the luxury. I don't have money, fame, and money, but that guy called me lucky. Am I fortunate for having what? Am I fortunate? Well, maybe yeah. I pity him, and he must walk into the straight path of life's darkness. I pity him for being hopeless because I always have hope for everything. I pity him for being sad. Being sad isn't that easy. It invests a lot of emotion and tears.

We, humans, are pathetic. Some want to be alive, and some want to die. Some want to eat, and some want to go on fasting for different reasons. Some want this, but some hate it, ironic, strangely ironic. I wouldn't say I like it.

We cut trees for our papers, then we write into our paper the phrase, 'save trees' 'bullshit, isn't it? I don't know either. Maybe, we are all right. We all have our respective points. That is why we must not judge someone. Because two different answers may be correct, not because that guy does not have the same answer as me does not mean he is wrong; I just haven't seen life from his perspective.