Lighting The Fire

6

Sabrina

My feet had a life of their own, leading me back to my house. I could feel Kyle's presence following behind me as I continued to walk. My wolf had not stopped crying out in pain, and my mind was all over the place. How had this happened? Why would the Moon Goddess do this to me?

I walked up to my door and unlocked it, resting my forehead against it. I stood there, not knowing what to do. All my hopes and dreams have been ripped away from me. All the plans that I was making for here have been ruined as well. There is no way that I can stay here and watch my mate be with another she-wolf.

"Gwen and Lily are on their way here to see you. They're mated to the Beta and Gamma. Alpha thought that you may need some female companions to help you through this." I nod my head in response. "I'm so sorry, Sabrina. You don't deserve this, and I know that our pack is hurting right along with you. Do you want me to stay, or would you rather I left?"

"I'll be fine, Kyle. Thank you for walking me home." I turn and give him a sad smile.

"I know that I should try and talk you into giving him a chance, but know that some of us here in this pack feel the same way you do about mates. We are waiting too. You're not alone."

Kyle turns and walks off, heading back toward the packhouse. I open the door and make it no further than the couch. I sit down and stare into nothing. I have no idea how much time passes before I hear a knock on the door.

"Come in," I say in a voice that doesn't even sound like mine.

In walks to she-wolves who look like they have been crying. They both come and sit on either side of me. We all sit there for a few minutes, saying nothing. Each one of us is lost in her thoughts, not knowing what to say to the others.

"My name is Lily, and this is Gwen. I'm mated to the Beta Eric, and she is mated to the Gamma Zack." Lily says in a small voice.

"It's nice to meet both of you. I'm sorry that it is under such circumstances." I chuckle darkly at this.

"Sabrina, I have no idea how you're feeling at the moment, but please know that you don't have to go through this alone. We are both here for you. The pack is all hurting for you. Even though you have not mated with Oliver, there is a connection that has already started to form between you and the pack." Gwen says.

"I don't plan on making the pack suffer much longer. As soon as I can figure out what to say to him, I'm calling Sebastian to come and get me. I will not stay and watch my mate be with another. I'm not strong enough for that." I put my head in my hands and let out a long breath.

"You're leaving?" Gwen asks.

"What choice do I have? I know you can't understand what this is like because you're both with your mates, but this is t*****e. My heart has been ripped from my chest, and I can barely breathe. Goddess only knows what it will be like the next time I have to witness them together." Tears pour down my face again as I think of seeing them together.

"First, let me say that there is no excuse for what he did. But, Oliver never would have done it if he knew that you would get this hurt. He probably thought you would come from a pack that didn't care about waiting for your mate." She stops as if she's trying to think of something more to say. "I guess what I'm saying is don't judge him on his past. He can be a moron, yes, but he wants to be a good mate. " Lily says.

"I'm sure there are things in your past that you don't want to be judged on, same goes for him. He only wants to be given a chance." Gwen says, taking my hand and holding it tight.

"I know that you should never judge a person based on their past. The problem I'm having is that I witnessed it. I heard him call her Baby. Then I had to listen as she talked about how happy they were together and how he was going to choose her to be his mate." I run a hand through my hair trying to gather my thoughts.

"I was happy for her. I thought to myself, at least she's happy. If she couldn't find her mate, at least she was happy. I didn't agree with what they did but, I didn't think about their mates. Goddess, she must be a wreck. She loves him, and now his mate is here, and she must be heartbroken." I could feel myself sympathizing with her.

"Spoken like a true Luna." I hear the male voice and whip my head up to see Eric and Zack standing in the doorway.

"Sabrina, the last thing you should be doing is feeling sorry for her. They both knew that there could be consequences to what they were doing. She knew that she would have a mate out there and so would he." Eric says in a soft voice.

"She also lied to you about Oliver naming her as his mate and luna. He never said anything of the sort. We both heard her admit to lying about it. He always told his flings that there would never be anything more than fun to what they were doing. Not that it will make you feel any better to hear that." Zack says.

I know that they all mean well by trying to talk to me, but right now I'm so hurt that I can't think straight. I need to talk to someone else who feels the same way I do about mates. I need my best friend.

"I need to talk to my friend about this. He will understand me better than I even do." I say to them and take my phone into the kitchen.

"Hey! I thought you had some bonfire to go to tonight." His voice sounds cheerful, and it makes me homesick.

"I don't feel like celebrating anymore, Seb." I try and keep a steady voice, only to fail miserably.

"Brina, what's wrong?" His voice is full of concern.

I tell him everything about what happened and how I'm feeling. I let it all out, and I know that he is the only one that I can trust to understand how hard this is for me. Being all alone in the world has been hard for me. Sebastian and his family were the only ones that were ever there for me.

So finding out that the one person made specifically for me, didn't wait to share themselves with me and only me, is killing what little trust I had left. I fought hard to be able to trust Sebastian and it took years for it to happen. How am I supposed to do that with a person who may or may not have given up on finding their mate?

"Brina, I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how you are feeling. Do you want me to come there?" He asks in all honesty. He would leave this minute if I ask him to.

"I don't know what to do, Seb. It hurts so much to know that what I have cherished and saved for him, he has been giving to Goddess knows how many she-wolves. Seeing him in the act is burnt into my memory light a horrible nightmare I have to relive every second. What should I do?" I cry softly into the phone.

"Do you think that he would have hurt you like this on purpose?" He asks softly.

"Everyone that knows him well said he wouldn't," I answer, not knowing for myself since I haven't really been around him.

"Do you agree that you shouldn't judge him on his past before he knew you were his mate?"

"Part of me does, and then part of me wants to strangle him and never see him again," I say. I hear Seb chuckle on the other end of the phone.

"There's my feisty friend. Sabrina, I think that if you don't give it a chance, you may regret it for the rest of your life. Yes, he messed up bad, like really, really bad. But, we all make mistakes. If he cheats now that he knows who his mate is then, yes leave him. At least give him a chance to make it up to you and fix it." His voice lightens, and it sounds hopeful.

"When did you get so smart and philosophical?" I huff out. I hear him laugh and sigh.

"I'm not. I'm just your best friend who only wants you to be happy." He chuckles, and it makes me smile.

"What should I do, Seb?" I ask honestly, having no clue what I should do.

"Give me a chance to prove myself to you."