Becoming

BiggestDisappointmentEver2

Thinking back to last Christmas was a bad idea. How could I make a stupid joke like that and then end up pregnant only four months later? I look up at my parents who are looking at me expectantly. "I uh... I don't know how to say this but uh, I'm..." I take a deep breath not knowing how to say this.

"You're pregnant." I look up at my mom who just spoke, there is no question she just knows. I slowly nod and i hear the sharp intake of breath my dad takes. I know he didn't want this for me and I know my mom is so disappointed.

"Who's the dad?" My mom asks and looks like she doesn't know how to feel. "Do you even know who the dad is?" I look up and hate how it sounds like my mom thinks I'm just some w***e opening my legs for whoever.

"I know who the dad is..."

"Does he know? Are you dating him?" she asks again.

"Yes he knows, and no we aren't dating." finally my mom seems to be understanding a little.

"You don't have to marry him or date him if you don't want, I know that is ideal but it doesn't mean it has to happen."

"How did you get pregnant?" This comes from my dad and luckily Melody is right there to help me out.

"See dad, when a mommy cat and a daddy cat love each other very much..." she says in her best cat in the hat impression. I giggle a little and tell my parents what happened.

"It was a first date, I met him at dancing and he asked for my number. I didn't mind, hes kinda cute and we went on a first date. He found out I'm a culinary student and asked me to come over and cook his favorite dish, so I did. I made a chicken curry over rice and we ate and had a drink, his friends wanted him to go out with them so we went and met them. I had a lot to drink and remember getting in his truck but I don't remember getting back to his apartment. I remember being in his bed and him on top of me, then i remember waking up and him still on top of me and then I woke up the next morning. I didn't really remember what happened but I had a horrible hangover and got up gathered my things told him bye and left. 5 weeks later im showing all the signs of pregnancy so I took a test..." I got it all out with my parents just looking at me with different expressions not saying anything so I continue. "Well... I took seven tests actually, I wanted to be sure."

"Were they all positive?" my mom asks.

"Every one of them."

"What the f**k?" my dad is pissed and I don't know if it's at me or the situation. "You were r***d and you didn't f*****g say anything? What's his name? I'm gonna find this little s**t and we are pressing charges."

"No dad, it's okay, I don't wanna make things difficult and he's my kids dad. He was drunk too so he probably didn't mean it like that. I don't want me kid to grow up with their dad being labeled as a rapist." I quickly tried to diffuse my dad's growing anger.

"Sam, she's right. There's no need to press charges. It takes two to tango and she's the one who got drunk." my mom says looking like she can't believe me. I am shocked by what my mom's reaction was. I thought she would be more understanding.

"She's 20 for Christ's sake, he gave a minor alcohol and then r***d her!" My dad is seething now and I need to diffuse the situation quickly.

"It's okay dad, mom's right. I don't wanna press charges. At least not now, but if I change my mind I'll call you."

"Okay, I still think you should." I know he means well, but I don't wanna make this more complicated than it already is, plus it's his word against mine. I'll never win a r**e case against him. I watch some more tv with my parents before I go downstairs and get some sleep. The next morning my parents are both in their interrogative positions when I get upstairs.

"Where are you going to live?" mom asks me.

"What do you mean?"

"Do you need to move home? I think it would be best so we can help you with the baby and you can get your life on track, babies are expensive and you're gonna need some help."

"I'll think about it, but it's probably the best idea for me." I respond not knowing what else to do, she's right. I won't be able to make it on my own in that college town with my baby. I need to go get ready for this baby shower and pretend like im not pregnant in front of all mom's church friends. Going downstairs I shower and get dressed in a cute floral dress and head upstairs. I know mom and dad will help me through this and even though they wanted more for me, they aren't mad.

Getting in mom's car, I see Meoldy coming out the garage door and start to get in the backseat.

"Hey, thought you could use a buffer with mom today, I know she wants you to go and you'll never tell her no." My sister knows me all too well.

"Thanks, I'm nervous and I know they are disappointed." I say as mom comes out to get in the car with the presents she wrapped for the baby shower.

The baby shower was fine and I got to spend a lot of time with Melody and by Sunday I'm so glad im going home, but I know it's only to put in my notice and get ready to move home.