That one moment

chapter 18

Brax's pov 

When I saw Elle at the dance I couldn't stop my heart racing at the sight of her. She looked beautiful. As I walk towards her I hear Nick on stage talking about being in love with someone he hasn't treated well, I don't know why but I knew it was about Elle. He starts singing Ed Sheeran Kiss me. I have to force myself to not throw up at this, I watch Elle and she looks between Nick and Alicia, she must think he's doing it for her, I can see the hurt in her eyes and it pains me for two reasons firstly I hate seeing her sad secondly I hate that she's sad over him, I wish she would open her heart and mind to the idea of 'us' I thought fake dating would just some how become real but I should of known better. I will never get her heart, instead I have to watch him win her back, he doesn't deserve her for all he's done. When the song finishes and he confesses the truth behind their break up it somehow doesn't seem like a good enough reason. I mean the girl developed a serious disorder because of him and it's being treat like it was nothing. I couldn't control myself and I had to speak up I can't just let Elle forget all the s**t she has to put up with slide like that. 

When me and Elle finally got out of there I could breath again I held my breath practically the whole time waiting for her to run into his arms but to my delight she didn't and she left with me. Maybe just maybe I stand a chance, but I have to tell her how I really feel for her to consider me. We walk back to hers hand in hand and I mentally prepare myself for what I'm about to say. How do you tell someone you have only known for about a month that your in love with them. I don't want scare her but I don't want it to sound like it's a friend thing. God who knew this would be hard back in America I never had trouble with the ladies, this seems different maybe Ellie's the real thing. 

We get to hers and she steps in but I freeze, this is it my do or die moment. She looks back and is worried why I'm not following her, the moments her hand touches me relief consumes me and I find the courage. "Elle I need to tell you something, I know this isn't the best time but I need to get it off my chest." I run a hand threw my hair. "Ok Brax, you can tell me anything." Come on Brax you can do his man up.

"Elle, I..." 

I wrap my hands around her waist and pull her into me crashing my lips on to hers she doesn't respond at first, a second or two later she kisses me back and it's like magic. It was perfect and I couldn't get enough of her, she snakes her arms around my neck and I couldn't be happier. We pull apart "Ellie, I like you, I really like you. I know Nick has confessed his love for you and I just want you to consider me when you think about you want to do. Please just tell me you'll consider me." I practically beg, I'm hoping my voice doesn't give me away that I could just break down and cry right now. "Elle please say something." I bring her out her thoughts. "Brax, of course I will consider you, I had no idea you felt like this never in my wildest dreams would I have thought two guys would be interested in me. I just have a lot to think about, and after that kiss that's all I will be thinking about." She tells me. I smile knowing I have an affect on her. I peck her lips one more time and wish her good night and walk hope happily. 

The weekend drags for me and I can't think of anything other than Ellie, I try and distract myself, I decided to give her time and space to sort her head out she has a lot to think about and I don't want to come across as clingy or needy or something she doesn't want. She also needs to make this choice on her own. As much as I want her to pick me I want her to be happy and if that means seeing her with Nick I will suck it up and be happy for her. I can't lose Elle and regardless of who she picks I still want her in my life even as a friend. She's the first person I have even opened up to and when I'm with her the pain of losing my sister subsides and I feel like I will survive the day. She has a spell on me and it's one I'm happy to be under. I spend the weekend cleaning my house top to bottom making it sparkle, I thought my mum was going to have a heart attack, I catch up on all my homework, made dinner I don't think I could of done anymore. I even tackled my bedroom. 

Monday couldn't come soon enough and I was happy I was finally going to see Elle of two days with out her. She texted me earlier telling me she wants to walk on her own. I can't lie I was crushed but I understand and I don't want her to think I'm some whiny child if I don't get my own way. I get to school and stand by my locker which is near hers, I want to 'accidently' bump into her when she gets here. I patiently wait and take a quick scroll around the school that's when I noticed Nick standing with a guy called Finn I think, he's standing a little further up than I am, I'm guessing he is also waiting for her. I bring my attention back to the school doors and see her walking in, She looks beautiful, tired but beautiful, I guess this has been keeping her up all night. She heads to her locker not glancing at anyone. I see Nick following her and i follow suit and step up beside her. All three of us look at each other "Ellie" I say breaking the silence between us. 

Nicks pov. 

I follow Elle and Brax out the hall but see them no where in sight. I run to her house and watch as them two stand on her door step talking. Anger, pain, jealousy and fear all hit me like a ton of bricks when I see him kiss her. What hurts the most and witnessing her kiss him back. I was heart broken, this is the first time I think I have lost her. I just assumed assume she would run back into my arms once she learned the truth behind our break up. I guess things changed, my feelings for her never stopped though. I love her more than anything. I get closer so I can hear what they are saying without being caught. 

Brax soon leaves and a part of me wants to go home and sulk another part wants to beat him up for stealing her from me but the biggest more irrational part of me wants to confront her and that's exactly what I do. I bang on her door frantically "Brax, Stop bang.... Nick" She says while swinging the door open. I'm disappointed she called out his name, maybe she wanted to see him,  She looks shocked to see me. "Nick what are you doing here?" She asks. But the anger from seeing her kissing Brax is clouding my judgement. "What the hell do you think your doing with Brax" I shout out. It's more aggressive than I intended. "What are you talking about?" She asks like I've just made it all up. "Don't act stupid. I just saw him kiss you and what's worse Elle you kissed him back!! I can't believe this Elle I thought you loved me" She looks at me and I can see I've upset her. "Look Nick, you need to calm down. Firstly, Brax kissed me, he confessed his feelings for me and I wont lie I did kiss him back. Nick I do love you but I can't help that something has developed between me and Brax, he came into my life when I needed someone." She tells me honestly. I just want to smash something, scream and cry she likes him. "Oh come on Elle, his feelings for you aren't genuine, he's only saying this cause he hates me and doesn't want us to be happy." 

"Why do you find it so hard to believe he likes me, is it because I'm not skinny or beautiful huh?" She huffs out. "No Elle, that isn't what I meant. You know I think your perfect, I just don't trust him Elle." I try to rectify the situation. "Nick, I just need to be left alone ok, I have some stuff I need to figure out." She tells me. "Stuff being me and Brax?" I ask irritated. How did this happen that she's even considering being with him. I grab her waist and pull her into me crashing my lips to her, I can feel her hesitate but she does kiss me back eventually. This should help her decide both of us have kissed her now, there has to be more passion in one these kisses and hopefully it's mine. Me and Elle belong together, I know we're destined for each other. We pull apart and I can see the shock on her face. "Elle, I hope that helps you chose. Good night beautiful and just know that np matter what I will never stop loving you." With that I leave. I go home and update my family what happened as they waited eagerly to see how my plan worked out. Sadly it didn't have the ending I had hoped for but I still have a chance to be with her.  

The weekend drags and I spend most of it moping around the pool, I spend some with Katie to help take my mind off Elle but sadly nothing worked, I'm going out my mind thinking of her what if she's with him right now. I know she said she wanted to be alone but she could still be with him. Monday morning finally graces me with her presence and I eagerly get ready and head for school. I wait with f/inn by his locker honestly it was just an excuse to see her, I half expected her to walk in with Brax but to my delight he was already at school standing by his locker. I wish I could like him or be nice to him but he's corrupted her, planting false ideas in her head. She walks into the school and it's like a breath of fresh air, she looks perfect. She makers her way to her locker passing me without so much as a glance. when she gets closer to me I can see her eyes have bags under them and I wonder how much sleep she's gotten this weekend. How is it a hard decision the clear and obvious answer is to pick me. All three of us stand in a triangle and Brax breaks the silence first. I roll my eyes at him, "Morning beautiful" I charm in. She doesn't look impressed with either of us. What have I done, I'm just as much of a victim I was being blackmailed. "Brax, Nick I know you guys are waiting for an answer but I just don't have one yet I'm sorry." she tells us sadly. "It's ok Elle, you just take your time. I'm not going anywhere" Brax tells her making her smile. What the f**k. "Elle, is my nickname for her. Only I call her that" I spite out towards him, causing him to give me a confused look in response. "Elle. It's not a hard choice, I love you and I have since I first saw you. I can give you everything you have ever wanted, what can he give you huh?" I say arrogantly not my finest moment I know but I need to try anything. "Nick, don't be this person." She tells me. "What Elle, tell me what you want and I'll be him ok, this isn't a hard decision I'm clearly the better guy." I rush out. I can't lose her. 

"Your right Nick you have made this decision really easy for me, I pick Brax. He's everything you USE to be. Goodbye Nick." She says slamming her locker shut and taking Brax's hand in hers. I see his face is half shock half smug. I watch as they walk down the hall together. What just happened, have I really lost her. I stand there in complete shock of what just played out in front of me. He looks back at me smiling a victory smile. That should be me right now! I wont give up I will win her back if it's the last thing I do and if I have to send him back to America to do so I will. Mark my words Brax this war has only just begun.