That one moment

chapter 12

Elles pov 

I wake up early getting my self ready for school, I have only been out of hospital this weekend and my mum has told me I can take as long as I want off school but I think I am ready besides I can't wait to see him, Saturday was perfect how can someone be so incredible. He just makes me want him and fall for him no matter how much I want to hate him. After our perfect date, if that's what you can call it, in all honestly I have no idea what that was or what we are I think he is still dating Alicia I hope he's not though. 

I make my way to school listening to some music while walking. I get to my tree and I feel the panic but instead of taking my pills I just take a few deep breaths and try to mentally prepare myself. "Morning beautiful" I hear his deep sexy voice behind me. "Morning Nick" I turn to face him and he just smiles. "Can I walk you to class" he asks. I nod unsure of what to say. We head for the main doors when I hear her voice calling him. "Nick what are you doing with her?" She spites out taking his hand in hers. He stands there in silence and honestly I have now had enough of this. "Nothing. We were just passing each other" I say glaring at him. "Don't speak to me loser and stay away from my boyfriend" She yells at me. "Understood, and he is all yours, this is clearly what he wants" I leave before she can say anything hurtful. Why do I keep doing this to myself. Why do I let him in and out of my life at his convenience do I mean that little to him.

I head to the ladies room before history to just get 5 minutes to myself after that encounter with Nick and Alicia. I stand over the sink and the door opens "Elle" I see him moving towards me. "Nick, what was that back there. I thought after the weekend you and I were..." 

"Elle, I want nothing more than to be with you but right now it's complicated, and I can't explain it." He sighs in frustration and leans back onto the counter. "Come talk to me when your life isn't so complicated then. Goodbye Nick" I walk past him and head to history

 I start my day and everything seems to drag, all I can think about is Nick but the more I think of him and see him with Alicia the less I want him, I feel worthless and used, I just wish I understood what I was or meant to him.   

We get to English and people have slowly finished their assignments I have been granted extra time to complete it due to being hospitalized. "Nick can you come up here and tell us about your work. I don't want you to read the whole thing just give us an outline of what your remake of Romeo and Juliet story is about." The teacher asks encouraging him to stand at the front of the class room. He gets up and stands at the front  of the class room, he looks at me and I just stare into those beautiful blue eyes. 

"My Romeo and Juliet story is about a guy, Romeo who is deeply in love with a girl, Juliet. Before they can have their happily ever after they have to overcome some difficult obstacles that are trying to keep them apart. He has done some awful things which have hurt Juliet and he knows that Juliet is questioning his love for her and I can see in her eyes the pain he is causing her which kills him. It kills him. He hates knowing he is the reason for her tears at night, all he wants is to hold her and love her but he can't right now, but once these obstacles have passed I am, I mean He is going to beg for her forgiveness, he is going to give her the world, treat her like the princess she is because he loves her and he has since the moment he laid eyes on her." His words pierce my heart and I just look down I can't respond, I've made a decision and I plan on sticking with it. Me and nick are over for good. 

Class finally finishes and I pack my things and get ready to leave. "Elle" I hear outside the class room. I turn to look at him and role my eyes, "What now Nick." I demand. "Elle about this morning I'm sorry I just need a couple of days ok, then I'm all yours" he reaches for my hand but I snatch it away. "NO NICK! This ends now. We are nothing you made your choice this morning I'm fed up of being a joke to you. You seem to take my heart and repeatedly break it. No more. It's over, I don't want anything more to do with you. You and Alicia really do deserve each other, after all the s**t I have gone through these last few years nothing compares to the hurt and heartbreak you have inflicted on me." I storm off not wanting to look at him any longer. 

Nicks pov 

Letting her walk away from me is one of the hardest things I've had to do. I love this girl but she's right all I do is hurt her and I hate myself for it. I head out the front door and I'm stopped by a couple of guys in my wood shop class. "Hey you ok Nick" I heard Dave call. Dave is a cool guy he has red hair, freckles, green eyes and a jokers personality. "Oh hey yeah I'm good thanks just trouble with Elle." I rely. "Ohh yeah I saw her leave a few minutes ago crying I hope she's ok" Finn says. Oh god she was crying I am a monster. "I'm such a dick." I breath out. "Anyways fellas I'm heading off I guess I'll see you guys tomorrow I start walking. "Hey Nick, we're going to the diner for a drink if you want to join us were pretty good listeners and it looks like you could do with a friend" Dave says. I turn to look at them and they both give me weak smiles I can see they are trying to suppress their sympathy. "You know what, that sounds really good." They walk with me to my car and James drives us to a diner near by, both guys are commenting about my car.

Once we get in there we all order some drinks. I tell them everything from the moment I laid eyes on Elle up to current affairs where I am being blackmailed. I haven't told them my plan to screw Alicia over. I want that to be a surprise. "s**t. Mate what are you going to do?" Dave asks. I sigh and slump back into my seat. "Poor Elle and she has no idea what's happening she really believes you have feelings for Alicia" Finn says. "I hate lying to Elle, I just want to keep her safe, I can't tell you the fear I felt when I thought she over dosed." I finish the last of my drink and me and the guys talk about other things. These guys are actually really cool. We start talking about the popular kids at school "We really need to throw a party, get ourselves on the cool list" Finn laughs out. "We can throw a party at mine on Friday night if you want" I ask and they both look at me. "Really your going to throw a party?" Dave says and I can't stop myself laughing. "No guys. Were going to throw a kick ass party" The both laugh with me and we discus the details of the party, they agree to do fliers while I sort everything else out. 

I get home just before dinner and greet my family. ever since Alicia blackmailed me into dating her they are always so keen to ask for updates on my current situation. My face fell when I told them about my conversation with Elle after school. I ask my parents about the party and they are more than happy only if I invite Elle though. She was my one and only guest I just hope she says yes. 

I get ready for bed and text Elle knowing it would be pointless. 

Me - Good night beautiful. I choose you and I always will. X

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The next morning I wake up I'm not surprised she didn't text me back but I am disappointed. I get ready for school like usual and head down stairs. James drops me off at school and I make my way to my first lesson. I smile knowing I will see Elle again. She doesn't let me sit next to her so I'm stuck next to Alicia and Tori again. We start the lesson and Principle White walks in. "Morning class I would like to introduce you to a new student his name in Brax he is American, I expect you to welcome him" She leaves and I can see him standing their nervously. He's about 5.5 light blonde hair and brown eyes. He's a bit geeky with thick black glasses framing his face. "Welcome to England. I hope you enjoy it here please introduce yourself then take a seat" The teachers kindly says. "Hi I'm Brax it's nice to be in England"  He goes and takes a seat next to Elle and jealousy instantly comes over me. They start talking and I can see she's catching him up with the lesson plan. All I can do is watch them. 

After class they walk together I start to follow them when I'm yanked back by Alicia. "What do you want" I rudely ask her "What's wrong baby" She takes my hand in hers "Lets go to class. I speed walk into the hall way where I see Elle and Brax laughing and talking , looking at a poster for the Halloween ball. Alicia must of clocked on that I was looking at her because she marches us over there "Morning losers" She says. "I think it's really cute that you losers have found each other." I see Elle role her eyes at this. What surprises me is most is Brax's response. "It's funny that is just what me and Ellie was saying about you two losers." I smile at his comment glad someone isn't afraid of her. "What ever. I just hope you two aren't thinking of entering the Halloween contest. Me and Nick are clearly going to win that" She flicks her hair over her shoulder.  He puts his arm around Elle and I see her smile at him. Why does that hurt so much. I feel my heart pounding a little harder than normal. "You bet we are, that's if you would accompany me to the dance Ellie?" He asks and she looks at him shocked. "You want to go to the dance with me" She asks. He smiles at her "Of course I wouldn't want to go with anyone else" He tells her. She smiles at him and nods yes. They walk past us with him knocking into me and Alicia, usually I would kick his arse for something like that but knowing he's doing my job in protecting Elle I let it pass. I watch as they walk down the hall and I can here her laughing with him. "Who does he think he is" Alicia scowls. I lower my head and walk out the school doors there is no way I can put up with this today. 

"Honey what ae you doing home" My mum asks worried when she see's me walking into the kitchen. "Mum I've lost her. We kind of had a fight this morning because she thinks I pick Alicia over her. Then we got a new student today and he and Elle have become friends. It's been an hour and he is already putting his am around her and they are even going to the Halloween dance together. I was going to ask her in a couple of days when I can dump Alicia. f**k this is painful. I hated watching her laugh and smile with him. I think I have really lost her this time mum." She wraps me up in a hug then stands and grabs a plate of chocolate chip cookies from the side. "Have a cookie" She offers I grab one but it just reminds me of when I shared them with Elle. "Son if you truly love her you have to fight for her, don't give up. And when I say fight for her I don't mean in the literal sense I mean in the metaphorical sense." She laughs out. I let out a small chuckle. "Thanks mum" She kisses the top of my head and heads back into the kitchen. I go to my room and decide to write my English essay I base it on my relationship with Elle. 

Elle's pov 

Walking down the hall with Brax I can't help but look back and sneak a glance at Nick to my dismay I see his head lowered and him walking out the school doors. I feel bad but what can I do he was the one that wants to be with Alicia why do I feel guilty. We get to Brax's locker. "So who was that b***h" He asks me. "That was Alicia, she's the school bully. I am her biggest target she has been making my life a misery for the last 3 years." I tell him. "Don't you have any friends to defend you" I look down at my feet and shake my head no. "I use to have a friend Tori but she became Alicia's friend. Then there is Nick. He was the new guy a couple of months ago and we were friends well I thought we were becoming boyfriend / girlfriend he told me he loved me then he dumped me and is now with Alicia. He's the guy who we just spoke to" 

"Oh you mean the guy that who wouldn't take his eyes off you." He playfully nudges me. "So you and Nick huh?" I shrug my shoulders. "I think were finished, he keeps telling me it's complicated and he's hiding stuff from me, he tells me he hates Alicia and that as soon as he can dump her he wants to be with me but I'm fed up of being his fall back girl, in the last 2 months I have never felt heartache so much, it's like a roller-coaster ride" He shuts his locker and looks at me wide eyed. "Ohh.. your in love with him." He smiles at me. I pull on his jumper leading him to our next class. We get to maths and I'm a little disappointed not to see Nick but I ignore it and chat with Brax's. As we talk I feel a presence loom over us. "Yes..." He says I look up and see Tori standing in front of us. "Hi I'm Tori" She tells him holding her hand out for him. He looks at me with a questionable look. "Is this the Tori?" I nod yes, knowing he's refereeing to my ex friend. He gives her a look of disgust and she looks at me confused. "What do you want?" He spites out. "I'm sorry have I offended you or something?" She asks. "Just go, your too cool to talk to us right?" He mocks. "What did you tell him?" She hisses out in anger at me. I just look down. "I wonder when you were bad mouthing me if you told him your a pill popping eating disorder fat b***h" She states. He slams his hands on the desk and stands up towering over her small frame with his larger one "You shut your f*****g mouth you nasty b***h, don't come and talk to me again" She storms off to her seat and I can feel his eyes on me. "Ellie are you ok?" He asks worried. 

"I'm ok. You know she's right. I take anxiety and anti depressants I am also in therapy. I was released at the weekend from hospital because I have an eating disorder. I get called fat daily and I have had enough of it so I ate very little and made myself sick as much as I could. Sometimes when it gets too much I still make myself sick." I tell him truthfully. Usually I don't open myself up to people specially people I don't know but as I'm sure he is going to ditch me soon there isn't any point in hiding what the school already knows. I would like to know how she knew about my eating disorder probably Nick. He pulls me into a hug "You know there is nothing wrong with you. Your not even fat you look really good" I smile at him "Thank you, Brax are you ok you seem more upset and angry with her comment than me." I question. "I promise I will tell you about it soon, I'm just not ready to talk about it yet" The day goes by relatively fast I have Brax in all my lessons and he even partners up with me in P.E. but through it all, all I can think about is what he can't talk about I hope he is ok, I'm sure when he's ready he will tell me and I'll support him no matter what. 

It's the end of the day and me and Brax walk home together he's just moved to my street he is about 10 houses away from me. We talk and laugh all the way home. I get home and for once I'm happy and content with myself. I sit on the sofa watching Vampire Diaries and I can't stop smiling, In therapy I'm learning to not be afraid of letting people in and see the real me. My phone beeps and I take it out my pocket. 

Brax - Thanks for a good first day, I have always hated being the new kid. What are you doing tomorrow after school fancy hanging out? I would say tonight but my mum will kill me if I don't unpack. 

Me - HaHa, we wouldn't want that, we got a dance to go to in a couple of weeks. Yeah that sounds good, I'll show you around. 

After chatting to Brax for a bit my mum comes home and I help her cook dinner telling her all about my new friend. She generally seems happy for me. She tells me all about her day she has finally quit her job at the supermarket now that she has finally got a full time job at the hospital she has also almost completed her training to be a surgeons assistant. I head up to bed and lay thinking about my mum, I want her to have someone special in her life she deserves it she always puts me first and she has been threw so much and has no one to love her and be there for her. I grab my phone. 

Me - Lets do it.