That one moment

Chapter 10

Elle's pov 

I wake up feeling like crap I cried all night knowing that Nick had s*x with Alicia, I really can't believe it. I hate myself I should have never of been his friend. I drag myself out of bed and get ready for another crappie day of school. As I approach the school doors I hear the whispering but today it feels different, I notice the way they look at me some have pity in their eyes. I lower my head as I walk to my locker where I see almost half the school. I walk past a group of girls "Oh my god, there she is. what a freak" 

"I wonder if it's true?" I have no idea what is happening I step to my locker and see in black paint 'FAT  PILL POPPING VIRGIN' on my locker. What the hell is this is all I can think. I see Alicia, Tori and Izzy. I have had enough I march over there. "What is your problem" I find myself shouting. "Hey what's going on" I hear Nick's voice. I turn to see him and a few other guys approaching. "Elle what's wrong?" My heart melts at his concern. I look at my locker and he follows my gaze "Fat pill popping virgin" He whispers it to himself. "What is this?" He asks demanding an answer from Alicia. "You humiliated me at the party last night because you decided to kiss this fat ugly b***h I am simply doing the same to her but telling a couple of secrets of hers. The whole school knows your a fat virgin, to be honest that doesn't surprise us, you would have to be blind to want to sleep with you but what we didn't know is how you are a drug abuser and yes the whole school is now aware of your pathetic habit." Alicia states. "How did you even know about that" I ask, panic fulling my body. "Why Nicky of course, he told me all your secrets from when you were at the lake. When are you going to get it that people like Nick don't go for fat ugly people like you. Now stay away from him before the whole school finds out just how pathetic you are" Alicia says shoving me. I look at Nick. "How could you. I really trusted you. Shame on me." I storm off and go home, I hear the mocking and the students laughing at me. I hate myself how could I of let him into my world. 

I get home and I have so much pent up anger I take it out on my room destroying all I have to offer. I head to the kitchen and binge eat everything I can after all my only real friend is food and always will be, I tried so hard to be the person I thought Nick would want but Alicia is right girls like me never get the guy. After I eat my body weight in food I automatically feel guilty and go and throw it all up. I instantly feel better I lean back against the cold tiles and embrace the coldness through my thin top. I smile in relief. I needed that, that release, that control over my body. I brush my teeth and have a shower then head for my room cleaning up all that I have broken and hanging my clothes back in my wardrobe I don't want my mum to ask questions. I take a nap and am woken up by my phone ringing I see it's Nick I ignore his call. I decide to take the first step in moving on and bock and delete his contact information. I hate knowing I don't have him anymore but it's for the best he's a liar and can not be trusted. How could he tell her my secrets I really thought I meant something to him. 

I'm woken up by a sudden thump to the front door. they must be banging pretty hard for me to hear from my bedroom. I drag my lifeless body downstairs and open the front door to a stressed out Nick. "Elle, I've been trying to reach you." He rushes out. "I lean on the door so he knows he isn't welcomed in. "I blocked your number Nick. I want nothing to do with you. I really thought you loved me, Alicia is right some one like you doesn't belong with someone like me." I start closing the door but he pushes it open and barges in... "Well come in why don't you" I say sarcastically. "Elle look. I am so sorry I have so much I need to tell you-" He stops as he looks through the kitchen. He enters slowly and gawks at all the empty wraps and food container on the floor. "Elle what happened in here" 

"What I do best apparently. Nick I want you to leave, Leave my home and my life." I say defeated. "I cant do this anymore." I state while the tears fall down my face. I tried to be strong but I couldn't. He steps closer to me taking me in his arms but I reluctantly pull away. "Why don't you go have Alicia in your arms your good at that apparently. once your finished f*****g her you can tell her more of my secrets for you pillow talk." I turn and run away heading upstairs as I get near the top I can hear Nick calling my name but it seems distant, my eyes start to blur losing my vision. I try and carry on climbing the stairs but my body feels heavy and dead, what is happening to me. 

Nicks pov 

"Elle" I call out as I watch her fall I try and catch her but it all happens so fast, I go to her lifeless body "Elle" I call out again, I feel the tears already in my eyes. I grab my phone and call James who rushes in the house "James we need to take her to the hospital help me get her to the car." He helps and we carry her to the car, we both stay in silence as we drive, neither of us know what to say, I feel sick if anything happens to her I will never forgive myself, I wonder why she passed out, she has been looking a little tired I guess it's from our recent break up. I ask James to call my parents and inform them of what has happened. 

When we arrive at the hospital I ask them to call her mother. They wheel her into an operating room and I feel so helpless just pacing back and forth outside the room she's in. "son calm down everything will be ok" My dad say trying to comfort me, I'm not entirely sure when my family got here I look at my dad giving him a weak smile. "Nick. Where is she? How is she" I hear her mum calling while running down the hall. "The doctors haven't come out yet, were still waiting.""Oh god please don't let me lose another child." She cries out. I feel so bad for her she already lost her son now she might lose her daughter. 

What felt like hours later a doctor comes out. "Miss Jones" He calls out looking between us all. She stands up tears running down her face. "Hi Miss Jones I am Doctor Carter. Can we talk privately" He asks looking at me and my family. "It's ok this is her boyfriend and his family what you say to me you can she to us all." Oh god I feel like a jerk Elle obviously didn't tell her about me breaking up with her. "Ok well if you can follow me we will take this into my office" He informs us leading the way. We get there and take a seat all of us on edge worried of what he is going to tell us. "Miss Jones have you noticed anything out of the ordinary with Ellie?" "No doctor why what's happened.""Well this may be hard to understand but I believe you daughter is suffering with an eating disorder." "What. She doesn't have an eating disorder!" "Miss Jones I understand this is hard to hear but you daughter fainted because she is seriously dehydrated and lack of nutrition's. Her stomach content is empty. I saw when they brought her in how lose her clothes are she's lost some weight. Has her behaviour changed lately or have you noticed anything different." I watch her mums facial expression change as she stands and starts biting at her nails. "Oh god. Oh god. I should of realised." She starts crying. "Miss Jones what is it?" Doctor Carter asks. "There's been a few occasions where she was sick. The first time was about a few weeks ago she said she wasn't well. Then a few days ago she said that she had food poisoning. Oh god how could I not of known, she always goes to the bathroom after eating, I never really took much notice before, I certainly never thought she would do this to herself." My heart stops beating. Elle has an Eating disorder. "Miss Jones these types of disorders are mainly psychologically has anything happened to make her start this." He asks her. "No Doctor nothing. Nick do you know anything" She looks at me with pleading eyes. 

"Erm…" I run a hand there my hair and rub the back of my neck. "Oh god this is all my fault. I'm the reason she did this to her self. I broke up with her a couple of weeks ago maybe more and …. and started dating Alicia she kept asking me if it was because of what she looked like. It's not like that at all though. Please is there anything I can do?" I beg. her mums expression hardens. "leave." She harshly says. "What..." I stutter out. "Leave her alone. I don't want you anywhere near her. She's already had such a hard life, first her dad then she loses her brother then her only friend and now you. I know about the bullying that your girlfriend is behind making my daughters life a living hell. I really thought you were different, just leave" She looks back to the doctor "Please tell me she's going to be ok." she cries out. My family stand to leave but I refuse I need to know she's going to be ok. I need to explain to her mum why I broke up with her it wasn't through choice. "Our main concern right now is the concussion she has from falling down the stairs, Unfortunately she is very weak so we wont know when she will wake up, we will be keeping her here till she is in a more stable condition. we also want to keep her here till we are satisfied she can hold some food down with out throwing it up. We have her on a list to meet with a psychiatrist to help these underlying issues that caused her to do this to her self. Miss Jones I need to tell you that this is a serious condition and if we cant stop and treat it, it can be come critical and fatal." Her mum starts crying harder and I let my tears escape my eyes too. "When can I see her." Her mother asks. "I am happy for you to sit in there and wait for her to wake up. If you want to wait with her I am happy for that too but I don't want her room over crowded." He says looking at me. I just give him a weak smile and turn to Elle's mum. "Please" Is all I can let out her mum sighs and nods in agreement. We make our way to Elle's room and I tell my family to go home and that I will call them when there is an update. 

As we sit in there her mum is holding her hand while I sit the other side holding her other hand. "Elle please come back to me. I am so sorry, I promise I will do better be better for you. I love you. Just wake up please" I whisper to her. I see the look of disgust on her mums face and I don't blame her I am the reason her daughter is here. "please don't act like you care about her." She hisses at me. "Miss Jones it isn't how it seems. I love Elle more than anything I know it's crazy to say cause she has only been in my life for a month but I love her. The only reason I broke up with her is because I am being blackmailed by Alicia. She put a hidden microphone on me the day Elle ran away and we sat by the Lake all afternoon. We played 20 questions and she told me all about her. Things no one else knows. Alicia threatened to tell the whole school if I didn't break up with Elle and go out with her. I didn't want to do this but I honestly didn't know if she would survive everyone knowing all her secrets. I just wanted to protect her.  I am so sorry and I promise I will spend the rest of my life making this up to her showing her how damn sexy and beautiful she is." I tell her while my eyes never leave Elle's face. I glance at her mum and smile softly at her. "I never liked that girl. I don't know why she attacks my daughter but I wont stand for this anymore." "Miss Jones please don't do anything I already have a plan in action to take revenge on her but it sadly takes time I am hoping by end of October which is in a few weeks this will all be over with and I can tell Elle everything and beg and grovel for her forgiveness and a second chance. I love your daughter and all I want is for her to be happy and I want to be the one who makes her happy." 

"I believe you. Can I know your plan to get back at Alicia?" I Spend the next 10 minutes going over my plan and she just smiles and laughs. "I guess you approve" I laugh out. "After all the things she's put my daughter through, she deserves everything that's going to happen to her.""Miss Jones. When this is all over with I know Elle is going to be sceptical into trusting me. I have the perfect way I want to apologise but would you help me get Elle there, I know if I ask her she wont show up." She interrupts me. "Of course I will. I just want her to be happy and I know you make her happy." 

Elle's pov

The darkness is consuming me. It's taking over my world, I keep running away from the darkness but it's faster then I am. I try to scream out but nothing leaves my mouth not even a squeak. All I want is Nick. He would keep me safe or at least he would of before he started dating Alicia. "Ellie-belly" I hear. My heart stops and I turn to hear his voice. There is only one person that calls me that, "EDDIE" I scream and as if by magic he appears in front of me. I kneel down and cuddle him in my arms. It feels so real I just cry into him. "Eddie. I miss you." I feel his little arms wrap around me. "Ellie. Be strong please do it for me. You need to wake up before the darkness completely takes over you." He whispers to me. "Eddie I wont leave you again. You and mum are all I have I am so alone without you." I beg. "No Ellie you are not alone. There is someone else in your life who loves you. Just be patient I promise everything will work out. Elle I love you I am sorry I couldn't be your sidekick anymore but I had to go it was my time, but this isn't yours." He says. I wonder when he become so wise and grown up. I feel him slipping away from my hands my body feels like its falling and all I can do is scream. "EDDIE DONT LEAVE ME AGAIN" I beg. "Ellie I am always with you. Be strong for me." Are his final words to me before my body hits the floor with a thump. 

My eyes slowly open and I see a white room, my vision is a little blurry and I hear the sound of beeping beside me. I look around and see my mum and Nick asleep either side of me. I slowly lean up trying to not disturb anyone. I try to get off the bed but my body is so weak I fall and stumble onto Nick. His eyes immediately shoot open. He catches me in his arms and we just stand there him holding me in his arms. We look in to each others eyes. He looks a mess, his eyes are all red and bloodshot like he hasn't slept in days. "Elle your awake" he breaths out. "Nick what happened why am I in the hospital." I question. "Elle. You fainted, I couldn't wake you up so I brought you here. Can we go talk somewhere. I bet your hungry lets go get something to eat." he takes off his jumper and pulls it over my head I slide my arms through and snuggle into it's warmth and his scent. Oh god how I have missed this. We head to the canteen in the hospital and he orders us both a sub, He brings over the food and hands me my chicken and bacon sub with a coke. I look at the food and I feel sick just by looking at it. I feel a warm sensation on my hand I look up to see Nick watching me. "It's ok beautiful. I am right here with you." He grabs his sub with one hand and starts eating. "Mmmm these subs are good" He chuckles out with a mouthful of food making me role my eyes. I take a small bite of my food and he gives me a disapproving look. 

"Elle please tell me why?" he asks softly. "Why what?" I asked confused. "The doctor told us everything. He says you have an eating disorder." 

"Nick you wouldn't understand your a god. Every girl at school is always drewling over you or trying to hit on you. I mean look who your girlfriend is. I look nothing like her I... I'm fat and ugly everyone says so." His face hardens and I can see he's angry. "Elle! You are a goddess, you are perfect. I love every inch of you, every curve everything about you is perfection in my eyes." I role my eyes at him "Nick your just saying this, we both know it isn't true." It goes silent for a while and he keeps urging me to eat something. I take a few more small bites but it's making me feel sick. The urge to be sick is there. I stand to leave to head to the bathroom. "Elle where are you going?" he questions. "Just the bathroom" His grip on my hands tighten. "Nick what's wrong""Elle I'm coming with you, I promise you we will beat this disorder together I will never leave your side again." He tells me it makes my heart melt but then I remember what happened 2 weeks ago. "Why don't you go and sleep with Alicia and don't waste your time with me." I spite out breaking my hands from his hold. "Elle please sit I need to talk to you." I talk a seat. "Elle I didn't sleep with her. I would never please just give me till Halloween and I promise I'll explain everything." I just nod I don't understand why he's becoming so secretive. "Elle we can't leave till you eat just a little more please for me" He gives me his cheesiest grin, I take a few more small bites then I am defiantly finished.  

When we get back to my hospital room my mum is still asleep I check the time and see it's 4am "Nick what day is it?" "It's Thursday"  "Nick how long have I been out for?" I mumble "a little over a week" I look back at him shocked I thought it was just a day or two. I sit back on my bed and Nick sits next to me wrapping his arms round me I lean myself into his chest enjoying every second of his touch. "Elle" he whispers in my ear "Hmm" I hum, "your beautiful" I smile and a small blush heats my cheeks. I lean on my side and cuddle Nick close to me while I drift off to sleep.