Love Apocathery

I remember watching the X-files with Trey when we were 13 years old as we had our first kiss! He held my hand and then gently kissed me on the mouth! That was the first but not the last of the kisses! They only became more intense as we grow older! He was promising that we would be medical examiners and that we would be lovers! That being said I took his word as he never had broke a promise in my life! I kissed him and again and I believed this! “We could be like mulder and Scully!” He said. I giggled at the thought of that. That was not the first promise that he made with me after words! I remember watching the x-files with Trey and his sister Anna for we loved the x-files and anything forensic science related! At that time 2002, I lived a simple life as Trey and Anna hamster lived across the street! As much I as I liked Anna, I had feelings for Trey for the longest time! We (Trey and I) had dated for the next five years that was until he threatened to poison his boss because he was fired for the job that he like, video store clerk! He was a tv and movie buff at the time but since then he ended up going to juvie for a while for that threat! I wanted to be there with him, but I couldn’t bare to see him in there! What I did not except was that he would find his future girlfriend from a cell mate’s sister! That I did not know until the rumours went around the school and I was about to graduate with honours! So instead of hanging with my friends I was sulking at home and had my awards and diploma mailed to me! It was f*****g sad…..what was worse was that I started experiencing bullying from two girls, who were my friends at the time! I thought the rumour was speed by them! Little did I know that I would find out during my first semester in university that he would confirm the worst! He was dating someone else! What happened was that I got a letter from him Dear Nikki, I am sorry for not being able to keep the promise as I was lonely and I wanted to someone to be there with me! For the longest time I was dating the sister of a cell mate whenever she came to visit! That was how it started, and then we exchanged letters and then when I got out I was able to be with her again! This girl is named April and she is the love of my life, now! I wish it was the case maybe in another life we can be together fully but I still cherish our time together! But that is the past! I am sorry to break your heart Trey Hamster I remember going to a forensic science class, and he was there! He was talking to his friends about something about whatever! He did not even look at me. And if he did it was like I was a worm. I was devastated from being with him. He was also in pre med at the time, though I never saw the girlfriend….i know she was there figuratively! That was until we bumped into eachother in a university coffee shop! It was awkward to be talking to her. She was blonde and she was perfect! She did not have to wear glasses. Where I had to wear glasses and I had black hair! I could not stand the sight of her, there was nothing going on in her head! What did he see in her! I did not know if she was university or college! I did not want to know her to be honest! I tried to move on and got no where with finding someone else! As I see that he was able to move on with life I could not with her around! Trying to get along with him was strained to be the least, I hated him for not keeping his promise….and he still was in love with me. His eyes said it all and know the tables have changed! I was going to break his heart somehow! I did not know but he was going to find out sooner or later! That last time when I saw him, we were graduating from medical school and he was still looking at me with love in his eyes. I did not know but that was the last time I thought I would see him! Was he single or what I did not know! Which made me hate him even more! What I did not like was the rumours instead being straightforward, and even if he was it hurt like a bastard! I would still not want to do anything with him! Then I saw her in the graduation audience! That was blood boiling for me! That was the last I would see of her! Or hear of her. Something tells me that she was not as loyal to him! Which made me want to cry at the thought of that! About 3 years later I would unexpectedly see him again! And this would be very much as traumatic as seeing the letter as we weee still strained in our relationship! I wanted turn tail and run when he was running my job interview! And that I would see the ring on his f*****g finger!