Dear diary

9 feb - 14 feb

Dear diary I started my job I am a bit scared because this job is like so new to me I have no experience in this field plus the feeling of not disappointing her and trying extra hard is always there I am so scared that I  will do something wrong and I actually did make mistakes and it feels so hygtvhgjuy I feel so embarrassed and crap  I don't wanna disappoint her I want her to be successful in every sector of life. This week sure was hard I hope I make it out .I got real sick yesterday and was throwing up the whole day to the point that I thought I might die from the pain I was having I had no power to get up and move I couldn't even go to the hospital due to covid situation here I had  a hard time coping up with the pain I Hope it goes away completely. I think i might not be able to eat without fear for some time once again XD . I think i shouldn't be this hard on myself but I can't help it. Dear life be linear . Do i have a good voice i don't know . Do my friends need me I don't know . me out 

i hope you all had a lovely week . Thank you for not giving up.