Full Moon Defenders

Chapter 6

AURORAS’ POV

Me, to sleep in the same room as him? What is wrong with him? How could he think about such crazy things?

“You have totally lost it, brother. We can’t sleep in the same room.” I told him, hoping that he would realize how crazy that sounded.

“Why not? We used to share the same bed when we were kids, remember?”.

I could not understand the innocent look on his face. Was he really serious?

“Yea, but we are not kids anymore, in case that you haven’t noticed.”

“ But we are still siblings, sister. That hadn’t changed and it never will.” He was right but still….it wasn’t possible. Not from my point of view. No, I will not share his room tonight or any other night ever again.

“As far as I know, there is only one bed in your room.”

“ And it’s big enough to fit us both” he said, as that was the real problem for me.

“Have you looked at yourself lately?” I asked him, pointing him out from head to toe. “ You have grown up quite a lot in the last 3 years. I am sure that the bed is trying its best to hold you every night.”

He looked down, analyzing himself with a confused look on his face like he had no clue about what I was saying. “ What’s wrong with my size?” he asked, rising up his shoulders.

He is just a big boy who doesn’t even see what is in front of him. It was impossible to try to convince him that we couldn’t sleep together even though we had done that many times before. Things are different now. Maybe he sees me only like a little sister but I didn’t. I never forgot that there are no blood bounds between us. To me, he was Alexander Asmi, the son of the man who offered me shelter and protection. I preferred to call him brother every time I addressed him ,trying to convince myself that this is the way I should see him: as a brother and nothing more. It was easier when I was just a kid but things changed. I can’t say that there was a certain moment when that happened. The change in my thoughts came naturally. I started to observe things that a sister would never see . I had thoughts that a sister would never have about her brother. And now he wants me to share the same bed with him? Only over my dead body.

“Look, brother, I appreciate your care , believe me, I really do. But it’s not appropriate to share the same bed. Try to understand. I will sleep in my room and in my bed. It’s not that cold. I have an extra blanket and that should be enough. Really, go now and tomorrow we will see what we can do with the window. Ok? Good night!” I told him, hoping he would do just so, and I headed to the wardrobe to find the extra blanket. He should take his leave now.

“The hell you are.” That’s all I heard before I felt two hands around me spinning me and lifting me off the ground. I have no idea how, but I ended up on Alex’s shoulder, with my butt in the air, heading to his room.

This can’t be happening.

“Are you out of your mind? Just put me down already. I told you , I am not going to sleep in your room”. My words had no effect on him. It was useless to fight like a fish on the ground; he didn’t put me down until we reached his room. He slowly closed the door, then the window, then he pulled aside the cover from the bed and only after he took my shoes off , he gently laid me down on the bed and covered me like I was a little kid who had just fallen asleep in his arms.

I frown. My eyes wide opened were looking at him searching for something in his wardrobe. I thought that nothing could shock me more until he showed me one of his t-shirts with a smirk on his face.

“ Are you OK with these pajamas?”

“That’s it. I am leaving” I said, uncovering myself ready to get off the bed, but before my foot touched the floor, he was in front of me , blocking me with his body.

“ You do know I will do it over and over again until you understand that you will sleep here tonight, don’t you? Look , I will give you two options: sleep with my t-shirt or naked. Your clothes is full of dirt. So, what’s your choice?”

Unbelievable. Am I really doing this? Am I really going to sleep here? Is he really asking me to change my clothes or to sleep naked? What the hell is going on tonight? Everything went crazy. I must stop this.

“ I will not take your t-shirt nor will I sleep naked in your bed. But let me tell you what YOU will do.” I told him as serious as I could and he put his hands on his hips, waiting curiously to hear what I had to say.

“ You will step aside so I can get off the bed and then you will not do anything to stop me when I get out of this room. Got it? Now, step aside.” I was looking at him, waiting and praying that he would simply move from my sight. Laughing was not exactly what I was expecting from him and yet, that’s what I’ve got.

“ Sister, if you want another show like earlier, why don’t you simply say so?. I will not back down and I will not care about what the people from the pack have to say about our…let’s call them little misunderstandings. Now, if you really want to have all eyes on you again, I will not stay in your way. Do whatever you feel you must do, but listen carefully when I’m telling you that you will not leave this room tonight. So, what’s gonna be, sis? Another show or will you change your dirty clothes so we can finally go to sleep?” I couldn’t stand the look of triumph in his eyes.

Of course, I didn’t want another show and it was not because of me but because of him. I didn’t want to put him again in a bad light in front of the pack. Even though he said he doesn’t care, I know how important it is that the pack trusts him and respects him. That’s what an alpha should be for his pack: respect, trust , admiration. I wasn’t helping him at all with my attitude. I said I wanted to change that, right? Well, now was the time to start doing it and to finally show some obedience to the future alpha of the pack, my beloved big brother.

“Fine. I will do as you say, Alpha.” Of course he didn’t like the sarcasm in my voice but he won, didn’t he? Nothing matters anymore. I grabbed the t-shirt from his hand and then I realized that I needed some pants too.

“ Don’t you have some pants since you were little? I need them too”.

“Oh, but don’t worry, sis. What you have is enough to cover you all, from head to toe. I will give you some privacy”.

I waited for him to disappear in the bathroom so I could take off my dirty clothes and put on his long white t-shirt. He was right, I didn’t need pants. The t-shirt was like a dress covering even my knees, but the idea that I had only my underwear under that ,didn’t make me feel any better.

Well, I will have to go with it. I untied my hair and I lay down again, covering myself up to the chin. I made sure I wasn’t facing his side of the bed and I closed my eyes. I could hear the water falling in the bathroom. He must be taking a shower. Mmmm, the thought of the effect of hot water on the body made me wish for a bath too. With that thought in my mind, I fell asleep.

….

A nice feeling made me wake up. He was there, near me in bed. I couldn’t see him but I could feel his presence. His fresh smell awakened my senses and his slow breathing made me want to turn around and face him. He wasn’t sleeping. Our gazes met and for seconds that seemed like an eternity we couldn’t say anything. We look at each other, trying to read each other's minds. We were so close that I could see myself in his eyes. They were never this black or maybe I never noticed. Under his look I felt all my strength was going away and another feeling took its place. I suddenly had to be hugged, touched, dependent on those eyes that are looking so deep into my soul without being able to read anything though. I can’t lose my head now. I must pull myself together and stop thinking about all those crazy and unhealthy thoughts.

“What are you thinking about?”he finally broke the silence and I couldn’t feel more relieved.

“Brother, there is something that I need to tell you.” Now was the time to be honest with him and tell him what I had just decided.

“I’m listening.”

“I am sorry for what happened earlier. I know I have put you in a bad situation in front of the pack and it was the worst moment to do so. In two days you will be named the Alpha of this pack and you need them to see them as you already are: their leader. You mean a lot to me. You have no idea. After my father died, you have been there for me even though your pain was bigger than mine. But you understood how lost and lonely I felt that day and you promised you would take care of me like my father, your father, did until his last day. I know you have been there for me all the time. I felt it with all my heart. You are all I have left, brother. You are my all , you have no idea what you mean to me. That is why I promise I will do my best to support you. If that means that I should change my bad and reckless behavior, I will. I will be obedient and I will never put you in a bad light again in front of anybody. That is my promise to you, brother.”

That was it. I finally did it. I never thought that I would have the guts to do it, to open my heart to him like this, but I did it and I've never felt more at peace.