A family of her own

Chapter 6

Chapter 6Maddie’s pov

I was kind of shocked to hear from Marcus. I had been avoiding him at all costs. I was hurting so I closed myself off from everyone. I couldn’t be around children right now. It just hurt too much. I have sunken into a deep depression.

So, when he called and asked me to dinner with him and Jaylah I decided to say yes. I missed Jaylah so much. She made the fact that I could never be a mother bearable. She just had a way of making everyone feel better. Right now, I needed that.

I couldn’t continue to push her away. She didn’t deserve that. I know Marcus must be wondering what’s going on with me. Maybe I should just tell him. Then again, I don’t know if I can. I have yet to be able to talk about it. It just hurts so much. I need someone to take this pain away.

Was Marcus strong enough to take that on? I wanted him to be. With Marcus I could have a family. I already loved Jaylah. It wouldn’t take much for me to fall in love with him.

Maybe tonight I should make a move. Show him that I am interested in him. I mean I really have nothing else to lose. Taking a chance could turn out good for me. I needed something good in my life. I really liked Marcus. He was everything a woman could want in a man. I just needed to help him see I was worth taking a chance on.

I went to my closet to find the perfect outfit for tonight. Lately I have been a sweatpants and t-shirt kind of girl, so I wanted to put effort into how I looked tonight. I needed to get off my couch and out of this house.

I took a shower then blow dried my hair, so I could try and tame it. I had no clue what to wear yet, but I would figure that out. I knew he was cooking tonight so we wouldn’t be going out. So, I needed to be casual but still look nice. I was nervous, but I wanted to look polished and put together.

I decided to just wear a casual dress and curl my hair with little make-up. I didn’t want him to think I was trying to hard to impress him. I have a feeling the only reason he invited me over is for Jaylah. I am sure she misses me, so he is only doing this for her. That man doesn’t want me. I have nothing to offer him. I am unemployed and broken. I should change after all this wasn’t a date. It was a man trying to figure out why his daughter’s favorite teacher just up and quit.

I went back into my closet and grabbed my favorite pair of skinny jeans and grabbed a cute shirt. I pulled my hair back into a ponytail and left the little make-up I had on. Now I looked casual but still felt cute. I felt more myself in this then I did the dress. If this was a date, I would go all out but it wasn’t. I put on my shoes and looked in the mirror once more.

I grabbed my purse and my keys then headed out to my car. I had taken so much time getting ready that if I didn’t hurry, I would end up being late. I didn’t want Jaylah thinking that I wasn’t coming. I wasn’t going to let her down. I missed her so much. It was going to be nice seeing her. Maybe I could go back to watching her once in a while. Being around her made everything else in my life hurt a little less.