A family of her own

Chapter 10

Chapter 10Maddie’s pov

Marcus and I have been dating for a few weeks now, and it has been amazing. He is such a wonderful man. Jaylah seems to really love having me around as well. She is such a great child. Marcus has done a great job raising her alone.

I was scared he wouldn’t want me when he found out I couldn’t have children. So, we sat down, and talked about it. He said that since he had Jaylah it didn’t matter to him if we could have more or not. That when it comes to that we could always adopt. He was so understanding. It made me fall even harder for him.

I actually almost told him that I loved him, but I stopped myself. I felt it was too soon for that. I didn’t want to scare him off. I’m already scared that we are moving too fast. We haven’t even been together that long and well we have already made love. It was incredible.

He was gentle and loving. I have never felt beautiful until I met Marcus. He makes me feel as if anything is possible. I just don’t want to rush it, and then have it end. It already seems as if it’s too good to be true. I mean I have this amazing man that I have fallen in love with.

Then he has this beautiful little girl that I love as if she were my own. He is giving me the one thing I have always wanted. I feel like we are a family. Today when I was watching Jaylah while Marcus went to a meeting, she asked me if I would be her mommy. I didn’t know what to say.

Thankfully Marcus came home before I could say anything. Once Jaylah was asleep, I told Marcus what she had said. He told me he would talk to her about her mother. I didn’t want Jaylah to be upset that I talked to Marcus about it.

I would love to be a mother to her. Marcus acted standoffish after I told him. He even said he was tired and needed to be up early. I left wondering if I messed everything up between us. Did he think I was trying to take his late wife’s place? Because I would never do that. She was Jaylah’s mother.

I didn’t want to replace her I just wanted to be a part of their lives. I felt he should know. Maybe I should have just kept it to myself. Now I feel like I have ruined everything we had. I had a feeling Marcus would soon cut me out of his and Jaylah’s life. I felt broken all over again. I knew I should have just let them go. I never should have let myself get attached. I never should have fallen for Marcus.

I got home and went straight to my bed and let the tears fall. Once I let one fall, they all came, and I just couldn’t stop. I cried for my mother that has been long gone. For the child I would never hold. For Jaylah that is so broken an only wants a mother. For Marcus that will never allow himself to love again. For all of us.