A family of her own

Chapter 11

Chapter 11Marcus’ pov

I needed time away from Maddie to think about what she just said. I know I was a jerk to her, and I feel bad. I just need to process all of this. We are moving so fast. I never thought I would move on after my wife Addie died. She was my everything, and I loved her practically all my life. How can I just forget all of that so fast?

All she ever wanted was to be a mother. When the doctor said that it was either save my wife or our child, she told me to save our baby. She spent her last breath bringing Jaylah into this world. Now Jaylah wants to call Maddie mommy. I don’t want her to forget what Addie did for her.

I felt so torn right now. I want to be with Maddie. She meant a lot to me. Having her in my bed felt right. I thought that’s what I wanted. Now I am confused. I can’t let Addie be forgotten. I gave my heart to Addie, and I never got it back. So how do I give it to Maddie? She deserves to be with someone that can give her their all. I just don’t know if I can do that.

I laid in my bed looking at a picture of Addie wondering what I should do. Is it okay for me to move on? Would she hate me? Jaylah loves Maddie enough to want her to be her mother. I feel like I am failing everyone. I closed my eyes and allowed myself to think about Addie.

“Marcus wake up my love.”

I looked up to see Addie smiling down at me. This couldn’t be. She seemed so real. Was I losing my mind? How was this happening?

“Am I dreaming?”

“No, my love I am here.”

“How can you be here?”

“You needed me, so I came.”

“Addie, I don’t know what to do. I am so torn.”

“Do you love her?”

“Honestly I don’t know. I can’t let you go.”

“Is she good to Jaylah?”

“Yes, she loves Jaylah, and Jaylah loves her.”

“Then you need to move on.”

“How do I forget you?”

“Oh, my love it’s not forgetting me to move on. You have enough room in that heart of yours to love us both. If the tables were turned would you want me to move on, or be alone forever?”

“You know I’d want you to move on.”

“Then snap out of it Marcus. That girl loves you and Jaylah, and I approve of her.”

“I miss you so much Addie.”

“I miss you to my love, but I must go.”

“Don’t leave me again.”

“I need to go, but I am leaving you in good hands. Now go to Maddie and make things right. I love you Marcus never forget that.”

I looked back up, and she was gone. I felt tears rolling down my eyes. I knew what she said was right. It was time I move on. I needed to tell Jaylah that Addie will always be here mommy, but it’s okay to want Maddie to be her new mommy.

This was so hard. I put the picture of Addie away in my drawer. It was time for me to be happy, and Maddie makes me happy. I decided to call her and tell her just how I felt. I wasn’t going to waste any more precious time.

I will never forget everything Addie meant to me. She was my past, and I enjoyed every second I got to spend with her. But Maddie is my future, and that is okay. It is okay to move on with the woman I love. It’s okay for us to be a family.