In your breath I live

Honestly, I don't know where to start, the beginning is so blurry yet tangled but all I can say is that I was looking for love for as long as I can remember, I always wanted to have that kind of feeling of being lost completely and taken by someone else, that's how I can describe it, well if I would have said I am looking for my other half it would just be cliche, from a very young age I had this weird yet attractive vibe that you can easily catch, you know, I forgot to mention my name ? you can call me Rou, I am in my latest twenties already have been through so much and experienced a lot before I reach a mature age, cannot say the same about the person I am because I have been way more mature than other kids at my age. I lost my dad before I could even know him so my mom, grandma and my younger sister are all the family I have known, I know what you are thinking .. daddy's issues alert !! that would be probably true and I admit it. mentioning my list of friends which were little, so few I can really trust and enjoy their company, my childhood friends I grew up with, because you know it's not easy to welcome someone into your life knowing he won't stab you in the back later on but we grew apart as life goes on for each one of us, life is full of risks and sadly, I have come to know that the very hard way. I just started college and it's a brand new stage in my blossoming life, everything seems great ahead and I already planned a path to follow till I finish and be finally ready for building a career for myself, but when I met him everything went upside down, I will never forget the first time I led my eyes on him I was interested but I have never though he would be the one I never forget, he was shy and so was I, we never talked but enjoyed each other's company, till it came the day when he first said, why you never talk to me??? I went like, what !!! I thought you are not interested ? he smiled and said .. well, I am very much interested that's why I didn't know what to say or how to approach you the proper way, I was afraid I would ruin it before it even started, he made me blush bad and I couldn't even say a word so I nudded okay!. we then exchanged numbers and agreed to build a friendship that is solid, I won't lie I did need him in my life and he needed me too, we were kinda different from the crowed we hang out with and we found ourselves with each other's, we had the same mindset when it comes to love, life aspects and future plans, I fell in love too hard too fast without even realizing, or at least it's what I thought it was.