Heartbreak
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I quickly pushed him away and slapped him. " What the f**k is wrong with you f*****g asshole!" Let's just get this f*****g project done so I don't have to deal with you anymore then I have to."
"You kissed me back, don't try and say that you didn't feel what I felt with that kiss. I won't tell that d**k of a boyfriend you have. Let's just get this done so I can leave."
"Fine!" We started on the project and we quickly finished. He left and I clasped on the couch and thought how the f**k I was going to face Jackson in the morning he knew me so well. He knew if I was hiding something or if something was on my mind. I grabbed the bottle of whiskey on the table and poured myself drink after drink until I was wasted. I went to my room and lit a joint to calm my nerves. My phone rang and I saw Jackson's beautiful smile light up my phone.
"Heyyyy, baaabbyy." I was trying to hit my drunk self and trying not to sound like I was drunk.
"Are you drunk El, why are you f*****g drunk did that piece of s**t do something." I froze trying not to let my drunken mind take over. " I have been thinking about my dad since his birthday is coming up."
"I'm sorry babe but you shouldn't so that to yourself baby and I am sorry that I yelled at you just that guys always pisses me off. I know how he feels about you and I hate the way he looks at you."
I took another long hit from my joint and let it fill my lungs before letting it out.
"I understand and he didn't do anything and you know if he did I would kick his ass, but I need to get in the shower and go to bed I love you, babe."
"Ok beautiful I will see you tomorrow I love you too."
We hung up and I put out my joint and went to take a shower letting the water run down my body washing off the guilt and stress from the day off my body. I crawled into bed and quickly passed out.
I woke up not wanting to go to school or see the world. I quickly did my make-up and threw my hair up in a messy bun. I just threw on one of Jackson's jackets he left at my house. I grabbed my morning coffee and bagel. I grabbed my bag and my keys I left I turned on my music. I was trying to drown my thoughts of what had happened yesterday with Payton.
I pulled in the parking lot dreading even coming to school today. I grabbed my stuff and headed inside. I had made sure that I was late so I didn't have to see either of them this morning. Then I saw him waiting for me outside of my classroom. I knew I had to face sooner or later.
“Hey El how is my beautiful girlfriend.” He shot me his signature smiles and I knew my next move would break us both but I had to be done. I had been thinking about this for a while and ever since he had been on the football team this year he has been acting so weird he wasn’t the man I fell in love with and I had to end it.
“We need to talk later babe and I need to get to class but I love you.” I gave him a quick kiss and ran inside of my classroom looking like I was busy pulling my s**t from my bag. I knew this talk would kill us both but mainly me more I loved this man so much but with these new feelings for Payton I was so f*****g confused. I hated that I was feeling like this is something that I told myself that I would never feel like this for him. I always thought that Jackson would be my forever, my future and the only man I would ever be with for the rest of my life but everything must come to an end. I feel a tear fall down my cheek and I quickly wipe it away and focus on my work.
The bell had rung and I was lunchtime the time I was dreading over everything the day I would completely break. I ran to the bathroom grabbing my vape to calm my nerves and to help my calm down. I had seen an edible in my bag and quickly ate it and felt ready to break up with my boyfriend. I had walked into the lunchroom seeing Jackson sitting on his normal table with his beautiful smile that would soon be gone when I ended things with him. He saw me and I went cold. I felt the edible take its effect and I was sure about this decision I think.
“Hey, Jackson can we talk please in private.” He looked at me in a weird way like he knew I was starting to get high. “Yeah let's talk outside.” we walked outside to our spot. He took my first kiss, where we would smoke and get high. I loved this spot. It was my happy spot, the place I would come to think now it would be the spot that I would break his heart and mine too
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