Forever Lost

GRACE’S POV "Why's everything so difficult for him?"I complained so hard as I tried to clean up his mess, he's always messy and I wonders why l didn't see this as his first red flag before agreeing to spend her life with him. I remember clearly how I met Charles 5 years ago. I admit his s*x game was the first thing that got me attracted and his funny mustache that makes him looks like a french man. Charles was the nicest person I have ever met. He was a pure gentleman more like a damsel in distress. I met him when I was 23 years old,on my way to a hangout at the beach. He was looking all sexy in his suit,on his way to work in front of his car that broke down. I still remember vividly how stressed he looked so I had pity on him and decided to drop him at his location. Taking his number that day was the biggest mistake of my life but the s*x wasn't. I miss it,not him though. I just miss how soft and tender he was. I wonder what went wrong. I picked up the glasses and swept the dirt off the carpet. It's been 3 years and nothing to show forth.I wasted 3 years of my life tied down to a particular nut job yet I tagged it as love even though I was aware I couldn't leave him but then again,I wasn't sure if it was love or just pure stupidity. My thoughts were interrupted by my phone ringing tone. I picked up my phone and instantly smiled when I saw the caller. "Hi Charly" I am always delighted to hear from my best friend Charlotte. "How is it going?" "Grace hurry up,boss needs you! It's something so big,Gracey! I swear I can feel it. “You always feel a dust and call it something big,Charly! Stop getting my hopes up.” “I am being for real this time! I can't explain right now, just get your ass here,Gracey!” "Be right there Charly,I am cleaning up Charles mess but I will be there quickly " "Don't be too long, babe" I left everything and quickly picked up my jacket. “s**t,I have to hurry!” I quickly picked up my phone to call a cab. ********************************* "Yes Grace, come in. Mr Austin,my boss,my very annoying but yet loving boss. I wonder why I still work here when he always choke me with work but I need him more than he needs me at this point. I can't trust Charles to handle the bill now,can I? “Well,I know you didn't sign up for the field work but you are the only person I could think of. We will like you to fly to Paris for the upcoming world fashion show " “The WFshow?” I asked trying to hide my excitement “Yes, Grace. That show” The WFshow was the best fashion show should in the world and not every media company get to cover the show only strictly by invitation and I,Grace gets to go. It's literally every journalist dream to cover that particular show. The WFshow is a world f*****g wild show and only 2 media company from each country gets to cover it. “This is actually very amazing “ I said with mine mouth spread and mine smile reaching her eyes. “I was thinking,will your husband let you go?Charlotte has been pressing me to give you this work and I figured it wouldn't be bad since you are one of our top employee and you are good at what you do and I can't say no to Charlotte” Who can actually say no to Charlotte? Charlotte is a walking goddess. She's like the sun and moon mixed together, she shine bright both in the night and in the day. She's definitely someone you will turn back to look at when she walks by and to coupled with the fact that she have banging model body. She's a good journalist but the runways should be her home. I am at times jealous of her but I am not ugly myself. I am glad to have her as my best friend. She's probably the best thing that has ever happened to me. Wait,my husband? I hate Charles and my whole heart was aware of it. I am in a cage, a love and hate cage in as much as I hate Charles,I could never leave him. I want a divorce but I can't bring myself to do it. I know he's probably cheating on me now that he is always never around and never having my time. Is she so pretty? Maybe younger? Urghhh! I am so annoyed and confused but the Charles I knew 3 years ago will never cheat on me but that was 3 years ago he's not the same,Grace. I should get use to the fact that my marriage ended last two years. At least I had a full year of happiness. Now I just drown myself in work trying to forget how messed up my life is. "Sir,can I take sometime to discuss it with my husband before I get back to you?" I know I won't be discussing anything with Charles. He doesn't even tell me where in the world he goes to,so why should I? Nevertheless, the world shouldn't know about my failed marriage now, should they? "Sure Grace, just get back to me quickly. I need you for this job." I thanked him and took my leave. I am very sure Charlotte is standing by the door to hear the good news. I opened it and yes, she's there all happy and excited "Charly,Mr Austin wouldn't be happy with you spying" Even though we are both aware of how much Mr Austin likes Charlotte but she is so against work romance. According to her,it brings unnecessary disrespect and who am I to argue with the almighty Charly? "C'mon Gracey, just take it. You know you need it. Go far away from here, leave the darn bastard alone. From what you have said,we can come to a conclusion that he’s cheating on you. Everyone knows he doesn't value you. Gracey you are better off" "Right? Let me call him and tell him" We both know I wouldn't let this job go so I'd better be a good wife and call him up. I picked up my phone and dials Charles number,it rang for a while before he picked it but sounded extremely annoyed. "Yes Grace" "Hi Charles,wanted to talk to you about something" "Is that why you couldn't let me get home?" "But Charles….." "I will see you at home " He immediately hangs up. "Darn bastard " "Told you to just divorce him. He isn't even trying hard. He's not even pretending to care" "I am leaving,I am tired,I will take a break after my work in Paris,it will be like a mini vacation. A me time” "You go girlllllll" Charlotte was my personal hype woman and I will definitely do anything for her.we have been together since highschool. She had the potential to be a highschool queen, you know,one of those popular rich and sexy girl but she sticked with a low-key girl like me. We have been through a lot. She was scary back in highschool and I am guessing that was why I was never bullied. They were all terrified of her. Charlotte was totally against my marriage. I wouldn't blame her. I was a fool in love and totally ignorant of the red flags. “He looks like a low-key f**k boy” she always says but my happiness was all that matters to her. She was so angry when Charles started acting out but deep down she knew,I was still in love with him. She was aware of the obvious fact and she knew I won't serve a divorce paper first but I will definitely sign it when it arrives. "Be fast girlfriend! Go and accept" “s**t!” I snap back to reality as I ran back to Mr Austin's office. I totally forgot!