Always Mine *Cali and James*

Cali I have been in love with James Thomas my whole life. Our mothers were best friends growing up, so we both grew up together. Too bad he only sees me as his best friend. James is the hottest boy now turned man I have ever seen. He has shoulder length hair that he keeps in a bun. I love his hair. He is full of tattoos and he is strong and sexy. Biggest player around. I, on the other hand am plain and boring, plus I was cheated on by the only boyfriend I have ever had. Lame I know. He claimed to come from a very religious family and couldn't have intercourse before marriage, but he cheated on me and got the other woman pregnant, so I ended that. When he asked me to be his girlfriend, I thought that I would finally get over James, but being in that relationship just proved to me how much I truly love James. I guess I never really let my ex in, but in a way that is good because he was letting someone else in. Good riddence Too bad that James doesn't see me as a woman and he doesn't want to settle down, which is what I want. I want my own family.. Now how do I navigate life? Rebuilding my bakery that burned to the ground. Going back to school. Helping Dallas with her daughter so she can focus on her tour and music career. She is also in school. Also helping dad and being here for Virginia and now meeting my new sister Ella. My life is all over the place, but at the end of the day I have my family and that is all that matters. If I have to love James from a distance, then I will do so. Maybe one day I will get the courage to tell him how I truly feel or maybe one day I will find someone to help me move on. Whatever comes first, I will be ready. I just wish I wasn't so lonely. That gives me an idea. Maybe I can convince him for us to be best friends with benefits. James loves s3x, he has so much of it, even if he doesn't talk to me about it. Women talk and at the bar everyone seems to have had a piece of him, which also makes me sad, but he's free to do as he pleases. But this makes me think that he won't turn down this idea. He is experienced. I am not. Maybe this will help boost my confidence and I can move on and find a great man. I just need to get him to say yes. James Cali is the most beautiful woman on the planet, but she is so off limits. We grew up together and she is my best friend. As much as I have wanted to, I just can't go there with her. I can't ruin our frend ship. Ever since my parents died, Cali has been the only one there that I care for. Her family always accepted me and my family and once my parents died, John tok me in since I was underage. He didn't allow me to go to foster care. He would not be okay with me and his daughter being together. But I am starting not to care. I want to say f*ck it to everything. Screw what is right. Myabe just this once I can be selfish and do something for just me. Seeing men flirt with her is really pissing me off. These bikers coming around here now that Cali and her family found their long lost sister is fine, but the flirting has to stop. I hate that she is so beautiful and every man wants her. She is just so innocent and doesn't realize it. I haven't seen her with many men, that is why this is pissing me off even more. Cali is not someone anyone ever has. Then when she does pick someone, he proves to be a piece of sh*t. I want her so bad, but I am not good enough. She deserves someone good who hasn't ran through everyone in town. I tried my best to get her out of my mind, but she is stuck so far in there that nothing that I do can get her out. Now seeing her flirt back with these guys has me on edge and I am realizing that I really might lose her if I don't do something about it. I am used to all of her attention on me. Even when she had a boyfriend, but he was scrawny and annoying. I could always tell he hated me, but I never cared. He was never competition to me. Now it seems I have real competition and I just don't like it. I know I am not right for her, but I am starting not to care. I am convinced that I need to tell Cali how I really feel, after all she was Always Mine. coming soon.