Savior

Chapter 19

Chapter 19

Isabelle POV

I shoot forward and grab Anastasia, wrapping her in both of my arms. Austin moves, trying to get the other teen but before he can, the girl’s friends try to push her back towards Ana.

Finally pushing through the teens, careful not to hurt them, Austin grabs the other girl by her arm. She looks up at Austin, Ana and I long forgotten, and bats her eyelashes.

Bold for a teen. She reminds me of Claire, I say mentally to Ellie.

I growl loudly, causing the teens who’ve busied themselves in yelling insults to immediately go quiet. 

“Everyone to Alpha Sebastian. Now.” I say smoothly, despite holding a struggling Anastasia in my arms. She’s letting out little growls and also pulling against my arms. Her claws have elongated and are now prodding my arm. I pay no mind to it as Austin looks at me with concern.

The teens make their way to Seb, no doubt rambling on about what just happened.

Mentally checking off with me, Austin nods up the hill and I shake my head ‘no’.

“Go on.”

He takes the girl up the hill, leaving me with Ana alone where we had the teens.

“Ana.” I speak slowly. Her head moves and her eyes connect with mine. “I need you to calm down or else I won’t be able to let you go."

She struggles to calm completely down but at least she stops struggling against my arms.

“Can I let you go? Or will you go after her?” 

She looks at me for a moment, no doubt trying to calm her wolf. I feel her agitation. I know exactly how she feels.

“Can-” She pauses to clear her throat. “Can I go get my sister?”

I look apprehensively. 

“I won’t go after the girl. You have my word, Luna.” I trust her blindly. I feel myself believing that I would always trust her.

I nod. She starts off slow walking towards the pack house. I watch her until she disappears through the door.

We need to watch over her, Ellie says mentally to me and I readily agree.

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The rest of training my mind is on Ana and I’m pretty sure it shows. Seb has asked me where Austin is and what happened and I don’t know what to tell him. I mean, I do, but how would I?

“Thank you for training today. Are there any things that any of you would want changed?” I question loudly.

Everyone stands, sweaty and breathing slightly hard. A chorus of “No, Luna.” goes around and I nod.

“I’m sorry if I pushed anyone too hard today. I want my pack to be able to protect themselves if a problem ever arises while I’m not here.”

One pack member speaks up. She looks to be in her early thirties with brown almost hazel hair and light green eyes. “It’s okay, Luna. I think we all need it.”

Most of the members chuckle, while others smile and nod their heads in agreement.

I smile as well. “You all are dismissed. Six again tomorrow. And Five in the evening.”

I walk back to the pack house after the crowd has dispersed. Sebastian is beside me, our pinkies interlocked.

We walk in a silence, though it’s far from uncomfortable. I really need to let Ellie out. Though we ran four days ago, she’s used to being let out everyday. I know she won’t say anything, but sometimes I think that she forgets I can feel what she feels. I know when she’s restless; She just never says anything.

When we make it into the pack house, Seb and I go different ways; I go to shower and he goes to find Austin. My mind briefly wonders where he went but it’s back again before I can catch it.

The water is hot against my skin. I’ve grown used  to cold showers and baths while I was a rogue. I feel happy that I’m here, I do. But I’ve put everyone here in danger. I’ve put so many people in danger by being here.

I shut the water off and rip the curtain back angrily.

It isn’t your fault, Belle. Ellie tells me. I try to block her out. It is my fault. Everything is my fault.

I stomp around the room, slamming drawers and ripping clothing apart.

Belle. I hear Sebastian and Ellie chime together. It isn’t your fault. Please. 

I know I’m being irrational, but I can’t help it. I fill Ellie’s mind with memories of Luna Elizabeth. Her hurt and being killed by rogues. Her standing in front of Thomas when I was only six, taking all the venomous words he spewed into her face.

“This. Is. My. Fault.” I speak aloud.

I hear two sets of footsteps making themselves up the stairs.

I fill her head with what I feel is going to happen; People of the pack piled on top of one another. Bodies bloody and waiting to be buried.

“This will be my fault, Ellie.”

She whimpers, not saying anything else.

Memories of Thomas run through my head. So many memories that I can’t keep up. One keeps playing over and over between our heads. Us tied down, helpless and unable to move as Thomas stands over us with a dirty twisted smile. His words ring through my head again like they used to before. 

This is your fault, Isabelle.

The towel I have wrapped around me falls to the floor as I stand there, minding running endlessly with the same outcome; Everyone dead. 

Luna Elizabeth.

Cassandra.

Austin.

Sebastian. 

The pack.

Thousands will die because of me. Because I can’t see anything else.

The door opens harshly, a gust of wind following. I stand bare in front of Austin and Sebastian. My mind suddenly goes blank and in that moment I see and feel nothing but them. I feel Ellie mentally clicking in with both of their wolves.

“Isabelle.”

Their eyes remain on mine, looking for something. Sebastian speaks slowly, “Belle. Nothing is your fault.”

I know I should believe him, but I just can’t. How will I be able to fix this and save everyone?

Austin closes the door and locks it as they walk up to me. I don’t lift my head, so my eyesight is trained directly into the middle of their chests.

“We love you, Belle-“

“And I love you guys too, but that’s not gonna stop me from thinking about what’s happening.” I speak softly.

He and Aust share a look before taking one of my hands each. “You’re so strong, Isabelle.”

I look over to Austin as he continues talking. “But thinking about what’s already.. what has already happened.. It.. it can’t change, baby.”

Seb chimes in. “I know this is hard. I feel what you feel, love. You are quite literally the other half of me.” 

I nod. They’re right. I have to be strong now. I can’t let my head get in the way. 

“We need you here, with us. Not back there.” Sebastian says. I know that he’s referring to what happened with Thomas when I was sixteen.

“You have to be here. For the pack. For our future pups..” they both place a hand on my stomach, finally looking down at my naked body. 

My stomach tingles at the thought of being able to have pups with both of my mates. They want to have kids with me?

“But most importantly, you have to be here for yourself.” 

I nod, once again, stiffly.

I start to speak, my voice shaking, “But, what-“

I take a deep breath. “How can I do this? I can’t.” 

Austin cuts in. “Yes. You. Can.” I want to flinch from his tone; it’s deathly serious. 

“Please, let us show you that you can.” 

I drop my gaze again. Why am I stopping? I want them. I need them. 

“Love,” Seb brings my head back up with his index finger. 

“Let us help you.”

Ellie isn’t here with me. This is my choice. To finally be here and one with my mates. To be here for the future and our pups. 

This is me.

I look at both of them and smile before nodding.