Sassy and Scarred Luna

Chapter 5: Emotions are hard sometimes.

Kiera Pov:

The repeated thud of the axe as it cut into one of the many dead trees helped drown out the s**t storm taking over my mind. Ever since my baby sister explained all that she had been through and her wails between her words I hadn’t been able to focus on anything. All I wanted to do was to find where they were keeping Bert and rip him apart piece by piece. Instead, I made sure to help with the removal of the dead parts of the forest by the pack house.

I had spent a few hours in Argus's private gym beating the crap out of his punching bags, a few warriors, and his karate wooden thing but it only took my anger down a few pegs. I needed more so I went back to my normal work out. I had a bit of an anger problem and cutting wood helped. it started when my father told me to cut wood for our home ignoring my cries that I was too weak at seven years old. When he slapped my baby sister, I shut up and went outside in the snow to do as he said. My arms hurt as soon as I awkwardly picked up the axe and after striking the wood once I was ready to fall over.

Father had been watching and walked outside to yell at me dragging my sister with him. He slapped her again making her cry out even louder. Anger had rushed through my body making it easier to use the axe. Once my anger went away I thought about hitting him in the face with the same axe and that spurred me on even more. It took me several hours but I got it done. That night I passed out exhausted but felt better than I had in a while.

It seemed to help with my rage more than the working out had. I was using Bert's face as my visualization landing my axe splitting open his disgusting skull, cutting his small d**k off, and sometimes even pretending my axe was a dildo where I was f*****g him up the ass raw as he cried for me to stop. I imagined him ignoring my own sisters cries, ignore her pleas to stop, ignoring her wants. I was doing my best not to ignore my sister's feelings and my alpha's orders or I would be in his cell with him putting my imagination to work in real life.

'We will have to go down sometime. The Alpha can't keep updating us via mind link on how Kymbre is doing.' My wolf stated fed up with my avoidance attitude.

“Kiera, I think we have enough firewood now,” Trey teased as he waited for me to put the axe down. “You have been up here the last two days and I know its so you can avoid dealing with what you sister admitted to you and the alpha.” He handed me a bottle of water with a knowing smirk. Asshat.

“Yup.” I gave a huff before downing the water. I threw it back at him before picking the axe back up. “See you at dinner time.”

Trey stepped forward and grabbed the axe out of my hands. He threw it down and stepped into my personal bubble with a scowl on his face. I had to look up at him since he was over six feet and I barely hit 5’4 on a good day.

“This stops now. The alpha is worried sick about you and so are the warriors. They want to know why you haven’t been showing up for training,” Trey growled. He grabbed my arms and shook me a few times causing me to almost lose my footing. “I get that you are upset and probably blaming yourself. I have siblings so I would be doing the same thing but isolating yourself isn’t going to fix anything. You sister needs you now more than ever so just suck it up.”

“Meh meh meh,” I mocked him as I rolled my eyes.

“You are such a brat.” He shook his head at me. “Just get your ass up to the pack house asap to tell the Alpha you aren’t working yourself to death. We might actually need you for something later.”

I just nodded and started walking. It wasn’t like the trees wouldn’t be there when I was done or tomorrow. I knew Trey was right about going to see my sister but it was harder than I thought it would be. I hadn’t kept my younger sister safe. I hadn’t seen what was happening and ended Bert before it had gotten this far. She should blame me but instead she blames herself.

“Trey, I don’t know what to say to my sister.” I admitted as we got closer to the pack house. “I should've seen something or at least noticed she wasn’t acting herself. Why did it have to be her? She keeps blaming herself, but she did nothing wrong.” I kept rambling on and Trey just listened.

“Stop.” He commanded. “Look at me.” His voice was serious but kind. He had been my sounding board for a long time and so he knew how much I blamed myself for my sister getting hurt, my mother dying, and for so much more. One day I hope to be able to overcome all the negative thoughts but when things like his keep happening it makes it that much harder.

I shook my head not wanting him to see the tears or the shame. Family was everything and we only had each other. Our father failed us and then I failed my sister.

He ran and got in front of me tipping my head up to look at him. “This is NOT your fault or your sisters. It is Bert’s for being a sick f*****g loser. He deserves to have the same things done to him and if I could I would make that happen.” He growled before speaking again. “No one noticed anything, and we all should have. This is just a rare thing so none of us even thought about it. You and your sister are so strong. You will get through it together and come out stronger. Got it?”

“Sir, yes, sir,” I teased before finishing the walk up in silence.

He had given me a lot to think about. I wondered how long I would have to tell my sister the same type of thing before she would stop blaming herself. How long I would have to show her love and push her to love herself before she would be ready to be herself again? I just had to hope it was before we were old and gray so I could party naked and senile right beside her. I laughed out loud unable to stop myself

“What’s so funny, Kiera?” A voice said beside me. I jumped and turned to find the Alpha standing in the shadows by the pack house smirking at me.

“Why? Why do you think that crap is funny? One day I am going to get you back!” I whisper shouted. No one else needed to know how I talked back to the Alpha. I didn’t need them giving the whole you need to respect the leaders and your elders talk for the millionth time.

“Because I like it when you jump. You should see your face when you are scared,” Alpha Argus teased.

I heard Trey laughing behind me so I elbowed him in the gut. The pain filled sound he made was like music to my ears. Argus just shook his head before leading us all inside to his office.

We walked into his office smelling of roast, freshly baked rolls, and apple pie. My mouth instantly started to water as my stomach made itself known. I hadn’t eaten since the night before and that was barely a meal.

Argus laughed as he told me he knew I hadn’t been eating like I should have and ordered dinner for the three of us while we chatted. My cheeks turned a bit pink before I said thank you and sat down at the desk with our plates.

“With the way she is staring at that food we better get to it or she might eat ours,” Trey joked taking the chair beside me.

“I agree so start eating. I have been smelling this for an hour before you got here.” I didn’t argue with the Alpha on that command and dug in.

‘Sis?’ A weak mind link from my sister took a minute to register.

‘What’s wrong?’ I stopped eating and focused on her.

‘I need to talk to you and Alpha Argus when you visit in a bit. I need my big sister more than anything. Am I a bad sister for not telling you what was going on?’ Kymbre sounded so upset and it was my f*****g fault, yet again.

I put my fork down and held my head in my hands. ‘No, you are the strongest, kindest, sweetest person and I am so thankful you are my sister. I should have been by your side this whole time. I just needed… needed to get my anger out for failing you.’

“What’s wrong, Kiera?” Trey asked as they both stared at me.

‘You didn’t fail me. You didn’t know.’ She sent her love to me.

“Kymbre needs me. Needs Argus as well.” I started to get up but was stopped my Treys arm.

“Eat first and then we head there.” Trey and Argus ordered. Damn them.

‘Be there shortly and I won’t be leaving your side so get ready to have me right up your cute booty.’ I heard her giggle and end the link.

“Fine.” Was all I said before scarfing down the food on the plate and then downing two pieces of hot pie. When I was done I just stared at them and waited. They hurried up knowing I might throw their plates away.

Before they made it to the door the phone rang. I ran to answer it knowing that if one of them answered it they would gab like little old ladies.

“Hello, Alpha Argus phone. He isn’t in right now but I can take a message.” I stated ignoring Argus yelling that he was right there and got out a note pad.

“I hear him yelling. Put him on the phone and go be disrespectful somewhere else little girl.” A deep voice said in irritation. My wolf perked up, ignored the jerk attitude, and pushed out a happy feeling at the sound of his voice.

“You must be hearing things.” I stated calming glaring at Argus. He shut up and smiled. He must know who it was on the other end.

“I don’t have time for this.” He growled causing goose bumps on my arms. “Let Argus know Alpha Kane needs to speak with him about our arrival and some change in plans. Think you can handle that?”

What an ass hat. My wolf needs to get her s**t together because I was not feeling the same feelings about this man. I would rather reach through the phone and punch his lights out. She wanted to cuddle with his wolf. What the heck?

"We'll see." I hung up and headed out the door not caring if those two followed. My mind and heart were going crazy at the sound of a man's voice. What the hell was wrong with me.