sweetened desires

chapter 11

Chapter 11

Amber’s POV

I could feel the sun rays scorching down on me the warmth flooding through my body as it’s intense rays hit me, the feel of the soft green grass beneath my bare feet as I wriggle my toes feeling the blades of grass between them .

Looking up I can see I’m in a open field with a old playground connected to it and no longer in the comfort of my warm bed where I fell asleep the night before, confusion and astonishment take over me as I try to figure out how and when I got here.

The old playground seemed familiar to me and a sense of deja vu over took me I’d been here before I just couldn’t remember when, becoming lost in my own thoughts I didn’t notice two little boys around 5 walking up to me hand in hand with big smiles on their faces, their thick brown Curley hair reminded me of someone but I couldn’t figure out who, why did they seem so familiar to me?

“ Mummy can we pretty please have some ice cream? I promise we will be good.” The boy on the right said to me looking up at me with big pleading green eyes and chubby cheeks that made him look like a cute chipmunk, I looked behind me expecting to see another woman their but their was only us I felt confused even more so what the hell was happening to me.

I was going to tell him that I wasn’t his mother and that he must have me confused with someone else but a man’s voice interrupted me before I had a chance of getting a word out of my mouth.

“ didn’t you just have some ice cream before we came to the park Riley.” he said laughing, looking up I saw a older slightly greyed version of Adam stopping beside me and kissing me lightly on the cheek. “ sorry I’m late princess I had a last minute appointment with a client at the clinic.” He said apologetically and I didn’t say a word I was bewildered by the series of events playing out before me, I ran a firm hand across my stomach protectively because I had no idea what was happening I was becoming very scared.

I started to hear really loud voice’s but looking around I saw no one else around me the world started to slowly fade before my eyes a loud beeping noise penetrated through my head, the voice’s got louder as I groggily woke up feeling like I just woke up from a long dream, my body ached all over like I had gone 10 rounds in a ring with a UFC fighter.

I groaned slowly opening my eyes but quickly squeezing them shut again to protect my eyes from the bright lights above my head they were to much for my sensitive eyes to handle, the smell of strongly used disinfectant and bleach overwhelmed my senses and I could feel the bile rising in my throat as the smell over took me, I counted to one backwards from ten while I waited for the feeling to end taking deep breaths until it faded.

I could hear the angry male’s voice again arguing but this time they were louder and clearer as if they were standing right beside me.

“ what the hell were you thinking by trying to take advantage of a unconscious woman.” The first man said and right away I recognised Toby’s angry voice. “ who the hell is he talking about? What the hell is going on?” I thought to myself endless questions started running through my head.

“ Mate get your fact’s right before you accuse someone of doing s**t they aren’t doing because I’m pretty god damn sure kissing a woman on the f*****g forehead who’s carrying my baby is not taking a f*****g advantage of her, get your f*****g facts straight mate.” The second man scoffed and I knew it was Adam and he did not seem pleased, I pretended to still be asleep because I wanted to know what was going on and why the hell they were both fighting with each other.

“ that’s not what it bloody well looked like from over here and what are you doing kissing her when she’s only your roommate.” Toby said snarling at him, I’d never before heard him so angry in all the years I’d known him not even when he got benched by his football coach in high school for getting blamed for starting a fight in the school’s cafeteria with the star quarterback Larry Rhymes when he grabbed my arse when I was waiting in line for my food, his always been such a passive aggressive person I didn’t know what to think of the new Toby and I wasn’t sure if I liked him very much anymore.

“ for one not that it’s any of your god damn business but she is carrying my child emphasis on mine and secondly I actually love the girl and plan to marry her one day but again like I said not that it’s any of your business now is it?” Adam stated matter of factly and I felt like the air had been knocked out of me, I couldn’t believe he felt that way about me and admitted it to my best friend of all people. “ he loves me? Since when we barely knew each other.” I thought to myself surely I’d gone in sane.

“ Love her? Dude the way I heard it you walked away the day she told you she was pregnant so why don’t you just keep on walking and this time do us all a favour and don’t come back she doesn’t need your help when she has mine.” Toby yelled and I couldn’t believe the words that came out of his mouth, how dare he drive the man I cared about away just because he decided all of a sudden to protect me like I was some fragile girl. I was furious.

“ enough.” I cried my voice echoing bouncing off the walls, I clutched the thin cotton blanket I had over me beneath my finger tips glaring at the person who was suppose to be my best friend. “ how dare you try to dictate who can and can not be in my life Toby I don’t belong to you, why pretend to suddenly give a s**t now when you never did before.” I could hear my self breathing heavily with each syllable that came out of my mouth, no way did he get to tell me what to do I wasn’t a child I ran a multi million dollar company for crying out loud.

“Amber your finally awake.” Amy cried loudly running over to me taking me within her embrace and it was the first time I realised she was their, I turned towards her my facial features changing immediately changing from a murderous kill to a tired smile.

“Hey Aims weren’t worried were you.” I said giving her a mischievous grin but instantly broke out into a coughing fit I felt like my lungs were suffocating me from the inside out.

“ Never baby girl nothing can take you down your immortal.” She said grinning back at me.

“ Damn straight.” Toby said cutting in patting me on the back. “ nothing keeps our girl down for long she will be partying long after we are all gone.” I shrugged him off not wanting him to touch me right now I heard Adam growl stomping out the door muttering to himself. “ I need a bloody cigarette.”

“What the hell happened? and why am I in the hospital of all places?” i Turned my head and asked Amy who was now sitting beside me with my hand in hers.

“ Well to be honest I’m not quite sure but Adam called me saying he found you unconscious with a high fever this morning, his been pretty worried about you hasn’t left your side since we came in.” She said with a dreamy look in her eyes.

“and why were these idiots fighting?” I gestured towards Toby glaring daggers at him from a cross the room, I still wasn’t happy with him from what he said to Adam it wasn’t like he had been in my life much recently either, he must have felt the anger coming from me because he looked away guilty.

“ well that I’m not to sure about either.” She says looking at him.

Toby stepped forward “ actually Amber their was something I wanted to discuss with you privately.” Toby said looking at me with a bit of hope in his eyes.

“ I will ahh give you give a minute I’m going to make sure Adam isn’t running ramp pit throughout the hospital.” She said hurriedly giving a kiss on the forehead before she left the room and I turned my head back to Toby.

“If this is about Adam Toby I don’t want to hear it.” I said pointedly looking out the hospital window down at the Crain’s and construction workers outside working on the new addition to the hospital a new carpark because the old one wasn’t big enough.

“ it’s not even about that meathead it’s about something I’ve been meaning to tell you but never had the courage to admit but if I don’t tell you now I know I’ll lose you forever.” He ran his fingertips frustratingly through his hair pulling at the ends.

“ Look do you remember when I last saw you when I returned and you asked me why I was back.”

“kind of you said you came back because you broke up with your ex and realised that you were in love with someone else, what about it are you in love with Amy?” Curiosity over took me and I couldn’t help but ask, I’d noticed they had suddenly been spending alot of time together recently. “ so if it were Amy I wouldn’t be so surprised.” I thought.

“ No, god no.” He laughed out loudly. “ its you it’s always been you.” Nervously he started moving from foot to foot, I didn’t say anything for a minute I was in disbelief.

“ this isn’t funny Toby you shouldn’t kid around like that.” I said sternly.

“ good because I wasn’t joking Amber I love you.”

“ I’m sorry Toby but I just don’t feel that way about you and I really don’t want to ruin our friendship.” I felt guilty from having to turn him down my stomach started turning and I wasn’t sure if it was what he said or the fact that I hadn’t eaten yet today.

“ Is it because of Adam? Because you know he only want you until he doesn’t right?” he said his voice becoming slightly upset he crossed his arms over his stomach, the hope slowly faded from his eyes.

“ look Toby that maybe true but it doesn’t change the fact that I still don’t see you as anything more then a friend, I never have and I never will.” I said gritting my teeth trying to stop my self from saying something I may regret later.

“ Amber you don’t mean that I know you feel what I feel we’re meant to be together.” He grabbed me by the hand pleading me with his sad puppy eyes, I felt bad but it wouldn’t feel right I couldn’t do that to him or me.

“ I’m sorry Toby but I don’t love you.” Pulling my hand away I Was starting to feel really uncomfortable with the way he was acting I just wanted everything back to normal.

“ you can learn to love me I’ll help raise the baby with you like it were my own.” He grabbed my hand again but this time when I tried to pull away he held it tighter hurting my fingers.

“ Come on Toby stop please this is crazy, your acting crazy let go of my hand your hurting me.” I was becoming frantic and tried once again to pull out of his tighter grip.

“no you don’t really mean that baby.” He pulled me towards and tried to kiss me so with my free hand I slapped him across the face leaving a nice angry hand mark their, storm clouds darkened his eyes and I instantly recoiled I knew this was going to be bad.

“ you b***h!” he screamed at me “ I gave up everything for you we could have been perfect for each other but you had to go and ruin everything.” He picked me up by the neck and threw me against the hard wall, blood started trickling down from a open wound on my forehead from when I hit my head I began to shake all over his looming form towered over me, I’d never seen Toby act this way his always been so kind, I felt cramping pain in my lower stomach as I clutched it protectively “ oh no the baby.” I thought.

“Toby stop please you’ll hurt the baby.” I began to plead with him but he wouldn’t listen it was like a switch had gone off in his head all of a sudden and I feared for the life growing inside of me.

“ do you honestly think I care about that bastard growing inside of you , you were mine and if I can’t have you no one will.” He said storming close up to my rigid body laying on the floor he grabbed me by the throat and I tried desperately to fight him off but the more I would fight the more I felt the air leave my lungs, darkness started to take over as I felt the life drain out of me.

“this was it.” I thought I’m going to die and at the hands of someone I once trusted with my life.

his hateful expression burned into my mind and I knew that the person I once knew was no longer their only a monster remained in his place.

“ T-toby s-s-stop.” I gasped out my eye lids began to get heavy and just when I began to finally give up the hospital room door opened and in walked in Adam and Amy following close behind and I’d never felt more relieved, Adam stopped walking and bawled his fists against his side’s.

“get your filthy hands off my girl.” Adam screamed charging over and punching him in the face I heard a loud crack and blood started spurting from Toby’s nose, his hand released its hold around my neck and I fell to the floor coughing gasping trying to get air back into my throat, Amy rushed over to me trying to help me off the floor as more cramping pain hit my stomach and I winced.

“Amber are you okay?”

“your going to pay for this you bitch.” Toby screeched out clutching his bleeding nose and storming from the room.

“Adam the baby.” I screamed out he ran towards the red alert button to call for the nurses and a older plump lady came rushing through the door frantically looking around until her eyes met mine I was hunched over on the bed in pain clutching my stomach.

“ lay down on the bed so I can examine you miss summer’s.” She said hurriedly she put a thin layered cotton blanket over me and lifted my hospital gown exposing my lower stomach she felt around for a minute looking for something.

“is the baby okay?” I asked whimpering out in pain.

“ I’m going to have to get a ultrasound machine to check sweetheart, has the Doctor been by yet?” she said kindly and I shook my head tears sliding down my red cheeks.

“ alright I’ll be back shortly with the machine and the doctor.” She patted my shoulder reassuringly and left the room.

I sent up a silent prayer to the big man in sky, a couple minutes later the nurse was back wheeling in the machine and the doctor following closely behind.

“ miss summer’s it’s good to see you awake I’m just going to see if you and your baby are okay.” He spurted some cool gel on my stomach and started poking around for life still within me, I closed my eyes trying to stay positive for the baby I don’t know if I could handle anymore heartache, someone grabbed my hand and my eyes fluttered open staring back at me was the man I had grown to care so much about.

“it will be okay princess.” He kissed my hand and slowly rubbed his thumb on the back of my hand in circles soothingly.

I stared at the monitor hoping the doctor would find something anything just when I was just about to give up I heard a loud thumping noise echoing through my ears and I wept with tears of joy.

“Is the baby okay?” Amy asked attentively with hope.

“yes the babies are okay.” He said drawing out the word babies and winking at me.

“ babies as in more than one?” I said trembling and Adam went deadly quiet I was sure he was going to run but he just stood their with his mouth open in shock.

“ it would appear so congratulations miss summer’s your having twins.” He wiped the gel from my stomach. “ how are you feeling now?”

“Better but why was I getting pain if their okay?” I asked with confusion.

“ it was most likely ligament pain from your uterus expanding because of the pregnancy it’s perfectly normal to feel some discomfort at this stage in your pregnancy but we would have to do some more tests to be on the safe side.”

“why was I unconscious? Is that normal to“ I said raising my eyebrow at him.

“No but having a cold is, it would appear that you have a severe case of influenza we have given you a series of antibiotics and some fluids that won’t harm your babies to help prevent the infection from getting worse we will also be keeping you for a couple of days so that we can monitor you, I’ll be by later so try get some rest.” He shook Adams hand and i sighed with relief.

I drifted off to sleep while Adam stroked my forehead lovingly whispering sweet words to me until darkness over took me drifting me into a dreamless sleep with a smile on my face and i was content that all was right in the world for now